introducing myself

[metoo79]

I hope you don't regret posting, this is a good and very helpful place to be. I think it may be a little misunderstanding, that's all. We are all here to help eachother and reach the goals we have set, even surpass them.

it may be just the fact that you indicted you want your "fat to turn into muscle". Maybe it is how you said it as it is impossible for fat to magically turn into muscle. That's just not possible. Fat loss is done by diet as the number one tool. That's why we have brought up diet and maybe adjusting that first before adding any supplementation. The way you have described yourself does sound like you are the "skinny fat" and again, a lot of that can be tackled with diet adjustment. Also, due to your age and your health situation, I would also agree that high protein and high fat would definitely be the way to go. But again, it boils down to the right choices of foods. As for carbs, you definitely need them and keep them fibrous/complex only.

To be perfectly honest with you, it is much easier to max out your natural possibilities/options before you venture out into the world of AAS. You want to ensure your body is ready for it... and that's what we are trying to help you figure out first... and the diet and training are the first two steps.

Thank you for your response... I actually just wrote a very, very long reply adding some information for you about me... I'm not skinny fat, I'm under muscled.

I used to wrong term when I said turn muscle into fat. I was way over simplifying something because I was trying not to babble...

I've been stuck at 145 lbs since December even when I go up to 2800-3000 calories, I'm not gaining... not fat, not muscle... and not even been able to go up 5 lbs on almost any exercise since February... so I do truly believe I've maxed out my natural options . I'm trying to gain weight not lose. I realize I will gain fat along with muscle and I'm ok with that, it's the lack of muscle that is the problem right now, not the fat. I'm actually, bone structure wise, a big girl and I think for me a healthy weight at 20% body fat would be 160 lbs NOT 145! Losing fat at this stage of the game just isn't purposeful because it won't lead to me looking how I want to look. The only thing that will is growing muscle to replace what I lost.

I don't think most people are dealing with the same issues I am... I understand your concern and appreciate your warnings. But I'm not going at this blindly nor am I rushing into it. I have been doing research for 6 months because that's how I am... I need to be very very sure about things.

I regret posting only because I'm told not to give too many details but also then not giving enough not to be judged as a very silly person... it's very frustrating. I now felt pressured to give more details which may lead to more judgement. I don't like having to defend myself so much... that's my problem not anyone else's.. but it makes me uncomfortable.

 

[GearGodess]

Thank you for your response... I actually just wrote a very, very long reply adding some information for you about me... I'm not skinny fat, I'm under muscled.

I used to wrong term when I said turn muscle into fat. I was way over simplifying something because I was trying not to babble...

I've been stuck at 145 lbs since December... and not even been able to go up 5 lbs on almost any exercise since February... so I do truly believe I've maxed out my natural options.

I don't think most people are dealing with the same issues I am... I understand your concern and appreciate your warnings. But I'm not going at this blindly nor am I rushing into it. I have been doing research for 6 months because that's how I am... I need to be very very sure about things.

I regret posting only because I'm told not to give too many details but also then not giving enough not to be judged as a very silly person... it's very frustrating. I now felt pressured to give more details which may lead to more judgement. I don't like having to defend myself so much... that's my problem not anyone else's.. but it makes me uncomfortable.

Yes, after I posted I noticed there was a notification about a new post... I just read it and this one...

First, let me assure you... no one here will judge, we have no right to judge anyone... we will however, try and look out for you and ensure you are fully ready and then help you along the way. If you seen other posts and the logs the girls have as well, we all try to be very thorough. We do need details about you yes, but we don't need your real name or the city you live in. Eman was just looking out for your safety. All other details are very helpful. Plus it gives us more of an understanding where you are at and where you come from.

Since you have decided on var, it is a very mild but potent compound. It is a great one to start with as your first cycle. At the very least, it will help you maintain the little muscle that you already have and help you add on a bit more over time. I just hope you realize that this is going to be a long process. AAS aren't magical, even though they have been developed to treat and assist in preventing muscle wasting in various diseases from AIDS to cancer. Var will give you strength so I am sure you will be happy to surpass your current lifts as that's always very exciting. Also, ensure you adjust your diet. Some...well actually a lot of the sides that females tend to experience are diet related. Var is very particular... so see how it goes and let us know as well... we can help you along the way.

 

[metoo79]

Yes, after I posted I noticed there was a notification about a new post... I just read it and this one...

First, let me assure you... no one here will judge, we have no right to judge anyone... we will however, try and look out for you and ensure you are fully ready and then help you along the way. If you seen other posts and the logs the girls have as well, we all try to be very thorough. We do need details about you yes, but we don't need your real name or the city you live in. Eman was just looking out for your safety. All other details are very helpful. Plus it gives us more of an understanding where you are at and where you come from.

Since you have decided on var, it is a very mild but potent compound. It is a great one to start with as your first cycle. At the very least, it will help you maintain the little muscle that you already have and help you add on a bit more over time. I just hope you realize that this is going to be a long process. AAS aren't magical, even though they have been developed to treat and assist in preventing muscle wasting in various diseases from AIDS to cancer. Var will give you strength so I am sure you will be happy to surpass your current lifts as that's always very exciting. Also, ensure you adjust your diet. Some...well actually a lot of the sides that females tend to experience are diet related. Var is very particular... so see how it goes and let us know as well... we can help you along the way.

Thank you so much. I'm sorry if I overreact... you are so kind and sweet. much appreciated!! <3

Yes I've noticed I need to adjust my diet once I start the var... Ironically, I've noticed some eating on a deficit while on anavar, something I definitely don't plan to do. I will definitely be jacking up my protein and carefully evaluating my energy levels for calorie needs... as a result of all these years of recovery I've become very in tune with my body.

Also I know it's no magic pill... I wish there was such a thing LOL... I'm not looking for a short cut... just to get my body back to where I can grow again...

Thank you again!

 

[GearGodess]

Thank you so much. I'm sorry if I overreact... you are so kind and sweet. much appreciated!! <3

Yes I've noticed I need to adjust my diet once I start the var... Ironically, I've noticed some eating on a deficit while on anavar, something I definitely don't plan to do. I will definitely be jacking up my protein and carefully evaluating my energy levels for calorie needs... as a result of all these years of recovery I've become very in tune with my body.

Also I know it's no magic pill... I wish there was such a thing LOL... I'm not looking for a short cut... just to get my body back to where I can grow again...

Thank you again!

No problem! That's what we are all here for! We all want to become better, have our bodies better, and our overall wellbeing... so you may have a unique story and background, we all have our own that are unique... trust me, you are not alone... I wouldn't be surprised if there are others in your situation... hopefully they will see your post and chime in...

And yes, var works very well in a deficit while trying to cut. But it can also go the other way and help you grow... in reality, its the diet that will determine what you will accomplish... hence the reason why we all say how important that is to have in check.

So please feel comfortable here... We are here to help and learn from eachother's experiences

 

[metoo79]

No problem! That's what we are all here for! We all want to become better, have our bodies better, and our overall wellbeing... so you may have a unique story and background, we all have our own that are unique... trust me, you are not alone... I wouldn't be surprised if there are others in your situation... hopefully they will see your post and chime in...

And yes, var works very well in a deficit while trying to cut. But it can also go the other way and help you grow... in reality, its the diet that will determine what you will accomplish... hence the reason why we all say how important that is to have in check.

So please feel comfortable here... We are here to help and learn from eachother's experiences

Thank you again... well I'm new to message boards so I was just being sensitive lol... but don't worry I've snapped out of it now lol.

I do hope it can help someone else.

it's always down to the diet... lol... it's so funny to me how very very very wrong I had it for so long... sigh... Oh well, if you can't laugh at yourself...

 

[GearGodess]

it's always down to the diet... lol... it's so funny to me how very very very wrong I had it for so long... sigh... Oh well, if you can't laugh at yourself...

it happens and I am pretty sure we all go through it to some degree at some point in our lives... glad you see it and have made the necessary changes to be a healthy Mom and set an example for your kiddos

 

[Perrin Aybara]

You'll find that a lot of us here found recovery in the gym from one thing or another, myself included. I'm a chronic overthinker as well, so I can relate to a lot of what you're saying. I'm sure I'm not the only one either.

Anyway, this can seem like a harsh place at times (and it can be), but there's also a lot of camaraderie here between members. I think you'll like it and it'll definitely benefit you having others to bounce ideas off of and give advice. Being an overthinker myself I get stuck in certain lines of thought and miss the forest for the trees sometimes. It helps to have others with experience to talk to.

 

[metoo79]

Thank you so much. Unfortunately I got back from vacation and I think I caught strep throat from someone at the airport or train station... either way, I am sick as CRAP.

Since I was due for a break anyway my 1 week break just turned into 2. I'm already on antibiotics so I think I should be g2g by Monday.

I have actually ordered anavar and it should be here any day. Of course was on anaboliclabs making sure the manufacturer legit, what a great service for anyone lurking who hasn't heard of it.

I am excited to get started... really bored laying here the last couple of days. Ready to explode out of that gate come Monday.

 

[Perrin Aybara]

Make sure to get a Labmax kit just to be safe. Don't want to end up taking dbol. The kits are only like $20, I think.

 

[metoo79]

Will do - especially since I got some time. Thanks!