Man I appreciate your tips and what you are saying is true. I need to get some things out of my head, but I seem not be able to, as I obsess with something and no matter how far I come to achieving something it's never enough lol.
What's worse is that I sometimes submit to people and it seems that I can't resist. I'm definitely working on myself. So far luck has been with me all the time not to make something I will regret for life. Somehow there are people who step in just in time, just like you now, I'm rethinking that idea and now think I don't need it at all. Like wtf. But luck is not going to last forever, so I got to fix it up.
Thanks, I really appreciate your help you're a good guy

and I will definitely improve both inside and outside. I just feel like I focus too much on the outside.
Maybe there is just too much pressure to look certain way, maybe it's just excuse for us guys to do stupid things lol.
But I'm not alone who got in to steroids and can't stop. I know plenty my guys my age or early 30's who got the same issues.
I wonder was it always like that for males? I mean idk your age, but most here seem a bit older than me.
It even feels like males get even more pressured to look muscular and almost like superhero lol. girls used to suffer this and now guys get it too how ironic.
Steroids ain't helping either, as it looks like the more you take the more it plays mind games. Talk about the come off. Never again not me. It's beyond me how guys pct...
But man really I appreciate your help, you know what you're talking about, I see your posts they're very informative to read.
Sorry for the long reply, not trying to be attention whore, but it's just hard to keep it short.