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Pyschological addiction to AAS

Physique Demon

Physique Demon

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Anyone here feel like they may be flat out pyschologically addicted to AAS? I feel like I may have built up a pyschological dependance, or I'm just so obsessed with my body and bodybuilding that all I can think about is when I'm gonna get on next.

I love this shit. But everything needs balance. I've been B/C since I was 22. I'm 25. I'm trying to take a year Cruise on 200mg Cyp. I've been blasting with mostly 10-12 weeks in between to this point. Once perma blasting. 7 cycles in now.

I'm worried I'm fucking addicted. I'm in the gym, and I'm like fuck I can't make as much progress because I'm not on. I'm eating food like fuck, I have to eat insanely calculated (down to every cal and macro) or I'm gonna lose muscle or add fat. God forbid I fall short on sleep. And first thing waking up in the morning I'm thinking about blasting. I may be addicted, if it is possible.
Athletics, and now physique building has truly come to best represent my identity since I was a young child. My identity is so wrapped up in being a top performing athlete, and it's what makes me feel the most happy.
I have career, and relationship success. But somehow it's not enough.
 
Physique Demon said:
Anyone here feel like they may be flat out pyschologically addicted to AAS? I feel like I may have built up a pyschological dependance, or I'm just so obsessed with my body and bodybuilding that all I can think about is when I'm gonna get on next.

I love this shit. But everything needs balance. I've been B/C since I was 22. I'm 25. I'm trying to take a year Cruise on 200mg Cyp. I've been blasting with mostly 10-12 weeks in between to this point. Once perma blasting. 7 cycles in now.

I'm worried I'm fucking addicted. I'm in the gym, and I'm like fuck I can't make as much progress because I'm not on. I'm eating food like fuck, I have to eat insanely calculated (down to every cal and macro) or I'm gonna lose muscle or add fat. God forbid I fall short on sleep. And first thing waking up in the morning I'm thinking about blasting. I may be addicted, if it is possible.
Athletics, and now physique building has truly come to best represent my identity since I was a young child. My identity is so wrapped up in being a top performing athlete, and it's what makes me feel the most happy.
I have career, and relationship success. But somehow it's not enough.
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Doesn't matter if you are addicted or not. You will be pinning for the rest of your life because of your foolish choices.
 
ickyrica said:
this would be your first sign of issue. Just stop using if you're not going to be able to make good choices, don't give other aas users a bad name. Don't be that guy.
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Yeah, you're 100% right. I know I need to stay commited towards cruising/TRT for long periods for my well-being. Trust me when I say, I really don't want to be the guy who's dead young from abuse. I really would like to put my career, and family first. It's just hard.
 
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Physique Demon said:
I know I need to stay commited towards cruising/TRT for long periods for my well-being
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lol. You're how old? Sober up. Chances of you needing trt is insanely minimal.

What does your bloodwork show? Baselines compared to off cycle bloods?

If you don't have these numbers you have no clue if trt is needed. Trt isn't a magical solution to the world's issues. There are a myriad of potential consequences when you commit to a life of trt. Are you aware of even one potential life altering issue from trt use?

Please read more. You're already that guy.
 
ickyrica said:
Are you aware of even one potential life altering issue from trt use?

Please read more. You're already that guy.
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Can you please explain to me what you mean by this question and than statement, sir? Also, since I've been blasting and cruising for 3 years straight I wouldn't want to try and PCT. Especially being that in the future I've planned more cycles, and have goals for down the road.
 
Physique Demon said:
have goals for down the road
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if you're not going pro my advice would to be respect your body for the long haul. Life's a marathon, dude. It's your choice though, no real worries on my end.

Physique Demon said:
Can you please explain to me what you mean by this question and than statement, sir
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There are serious complications that can happen just by using trt, without b&c at all. Bloodwork is a big deal when taking anabolics, an even bigger deal if you're never coming off. Heart issues being in the forefront of all concerns, the list of said issues sprawls into things like the cancer category.

Code: 
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3897047/

You only have one body....
 
ickyrica said:
if you're not going pro my advice would to be respect your body for the long haul. Life's a marathon, dude. It's your choice though, no real worries on my end.
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Either way, going pro or not, I still think you've got to respect your body for the long haul. I also agree with you it's a marathon not a race. My choice is to run it like a marathon, and I'm going to make myself Commit to just one cycle per year and I'm taking 2020 off.
 
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ickyrica said:
There are serious complications that can happen just by using trt, without b&c at all. Bloodwork is a big deal when taking anabolics, an even bigger deal if you're never coming off. Heart issues being in the forefront of all concerns, the list of said issues sprawls into things like the cancer category
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Heart issues i understand come through
atherosclerosis. To my understanding there is no defenitive evidence that says TRT causes this. Also If you donate blood regularly HCT stays in range.

I'm also aware of the testicular cancer risk, I'm not really worried about that one though.

The heart definitely is my biggest concern I can say.

Lastly thank you for the link, I'll do some research there.
 
The link is a good start. You'll learn about more cancer risk, among other things that you may not be aware of. There are plenty of ways this lifestyle can negatively impact us. Again, bloods. They work.
 
At 25 years old you should definitely PCT after a cycle,get your body back to normal production of your hormones.If you were on gear for 12 weeks you should be off for 24 weeks.I didn’t need TRT till I was 50 years old.There is definitely a right way to do this shit.Pay attention to the old guys who have been there and done that.
 
@Eman @ickyrica
@pfdept59

First off I just want thank you guys for your guidance and support to a stranger. It speaks volumes towards you're characters, and I have alot of respect for you men.

@Eman

When I was 22, I was reckless and had disregard for my health. I thought I was invincible and didn't care to get pre cycle bloods, I just jumped right in and blasted and cruised since than. Ive done cruises at 200MG UGL test Cyp. The 7 cycles I've done have been

1) 500MG test E
2) 200 test, 500 tren E switched to 700 tren A
3) 750 mg test E
4) 500 test E, 400 Deca
5) 1G test E
6) 750MG test C
7) 1.5G Test C


Since 24 I have gone to doctors and had blood workups every 3 to 6 months. I've also had an ekg/stress test done last year, and this year. In addition to some other cardiovascular work up.

When I go in I'm always complimented for being in optimal health. My goal is to maintain that, while also pursuing my goals going forward in a responsible manner. Based on the way im started I'm just glad I don't already have any damage. At least Any damage that's detectable.
 
Physique Demon said:
Anyone here feel like they may be flat out pyschologically addicted to AAS? I feel like I may have built up a pyschological dependance, or I'm just so obsessed with my body and bodybuilding that all I can think about is when I'm gonna get on next.

I love this shit. But everything needs balance. I've been B/C since I was 22. I'm 25. I'm trying to take a year Cruise on 200mg Cyp. I've been blasting with mostly 10-12 weeks in between to this point. Once perma blasting. 7 cycles in now.

I'm worried I'm fucking addicted. I'm in the gym, and I'm like fuck I can't make as much progress because I'm not on. I'm eating food like fuck, I have to eat insanely calculated (down to every cal and macro) or I'm gonna lose muscle or add fat. God forbid I fall short on sleep. And first thing waking up in the morning I'm thinking about blasting. I may be addicted, if it is possible.
Athletics, and now physique building has truly come to best represent my identity since I was a young child. My identity is so wrapped up in being a top performing athlete, and it's what makes me feel the most happy.
I have career, and relationship success. But somehow it's not enough.
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No one is perfect; and no one can judge another. Addiction is a very deep and broad word, and the severity of which veries between individuals. So rather than judge you, there is NO ONE here that cannot empathize with you. The world of anabolics is not and should not be for everyone, yet I would stand by you and say it comes natural (ironically, LOL), to you. As naturally and “addictive” as it is for you to be in that gym..but be wise and prudent in your actions. Keep a close eye on your bloods, and build a transparent relationship with your primary doctor, if you can. In closing, at the very leaset, time on equals time off. Good luck. Be safe. Be healthy. BTW- donating blood also has negative physiological consequences. Hematocrit is vastly misunderstood..it’s not as simply as “thickening” of blood. Anyway. Good luck.
 
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Physique Demon said:
@Eman @ickyrica
@pfdept59

First off I just want thank you guys for your guidance and support to a stranger. It speaks volumes towards you're characters, and I have alot of respect for you men.

@Eman

When I was 22, I was reckless and had disregard for my health. I thought I was invincible and didn't care to get pre cycle bloods, I just jumped right in and blasted and cruised since than. Ive done cruises at 200MG UGL test Cyp. The 7 cycles I've done have been

1) 500MG test E
2) 200 test, 500 tren E switched to 700 tren A
3) 750 mg test E
4) 500 test E, 400 Deca
5) 1G test E
6) 750MG test C
7) 1.5G Test C


Since 24 I have gone to doctors and had blood workups every 3 to 6 months. I've also had an ekg/stress test done last year, and this year. In addition to some other cardiovascular work up.

When I go in I'm always complimented for being in optimal health. My goal is to maintain that, while also pursuing my goals going forward in a responsible manner. Based on the way im started I'm just glad I don't already have any damage. At least Any damage that's detectable.
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No worries man, be safe :)

Go Patriots!!! Oh, wait a sec :(
 
Physique Demon said:
@Eman @ickyrica
@pfdept59

First off I just want thank you guys for your guidance and support to a stranger. It speaks volumes towards you're characters, and I have alot of respect for you men.

@Eman

When I was 22, I was reckless and had disregard for my health. I thought I was invincible and didn't care to get pre cycle bloods, I just jumped right in and blasted and cruised since than. Ive done cruises at 200MG UGL test Cyp. The 7 cycles I've done have been

1) 500MG test E
2) 200 test, 500 tren E switched to 700 tren A
3) 750 mg test E
4) 500 test E, 400 Deca
5) 1G test E
6) 750MG test C
7) 1.5G Test C


Since 24 I have gone to doctors and had blood workups every 3 to 6 months. I've also had an ekg/stress test done last year, and this year. In addition to some other cardiovascular work up.

When I go in I'm always complimented for being in optimal health. My goal is to maintain that, while also pursuing my goals going forward in a responsible manner. Based on the way im started I'm just glad I don't already have any damage. At least Any damage that's detectable.
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I appreciate your candor but I didn't need all of that, you could have just said you didn't know what your pre cycle bloods were.

Here's the thing, you were 22 and probably had perfectly normal testosterone levels... You were using a replacement dose of test but not actually replacing anything, and that probably hasn't changed by much.

Why take testosterone when your natural testosterone level probably isn't much lower than what 200mg a week puts you at? Everyone acts like taking a cycle has automatically destroyed their ability to every produce natural testosterone again... It's untrue.
 
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