As a gun owner and someone that's active in competitive shooting, I can wholeheartedly say, I know this feel. I have a particular loathing of people that post photos of their armament on the Internet in their messy ass houses, usually with their disgusting feet in the photos.
I'm recalling being at the range one day with a couple of guys I was in a "squad" with, that is a group that shoots together through the course of a competition. One of the guys was kind of squirrely. As we were packing up our things, he showed us one of his pistols. "If you were to come to my house, this is the one I'd shoot you with." To which I responded, "What the fuck, man, I'd hope that if I came to your house, you'd offer me a soda or something." Other dude chimed in, "Yeah, man have some hospitality".
"You know what I mean." he said. Yeah, I do know what you mean. You have power fantasies associated with firearm ownership because of your sense of your own deep personal weakness.