Gear isn't magic. Everyone has crazy lives. Diet is more important than gear. Run all you want but don't eat right it, it won't do shit. Just wasting money. I have my bad days but still force myself to get my 6-7 meals a day. If you are focused or driven no point of running cycles. Did you doc subscribe your trt? Or you blasting and cruising? If so I don't think that's the right choice for you. So you plan on doing this forever? 12 cycles and 170 smh. What did weight did you start using gear? That's pretty much natty stats. Diet needs work before you jump into gear. I've learned this over the last 3 years I thought gear was magic. I was said yea I'm eating enough. Then I meet the right people and realized I wasn't eating close to enough. I said it another post gear is about 20 percent. The rest is diet, training and lifestyle