Rektest - Death is available log

[iris]

Stellina bella, dimmi:

Option 1) u still on tren
Option 2) no you are not, this joie de vivre comes to you naturally.
In any case, is this an invitation or is it a threat?

XDDDDDD È DI DIMENSIONI CONSIDEREVOLI XDDDD

A detta di chi?
Non so se ti credo tanto.
Servono testimoni oculari affidabili.
Inoltre, dimensioni considerevoli cosa vuol dire?
Sei troppo vago.
Accuracy is close to Godliness.
Someone said that, many centuries ago.
Era scritto da qualche parte.

HO QUALCOSA CON IL TUO NOME SOPRA PER NATALE

Cosa mi hai preso, un panettone?
Senza uvetta per favore, preferisco.
Una bella bottiglia di spumante ci sta bene.
Ma me lo porti tu o Babbo Natale?
Se vieni tu poi mi servira` un mese di ferie per riprendermi.

Vielen Dank, dass Du an Weihnachten an mich gedacht haben.

 

[RekTest]

What aren’t you happy with? This has to be one of the top 10 transformations on Meso.

Did you start gear at that top body fat? How was estrogen control at that point?

When you’re up for it I hope you make a new thread. I want to see a full mad man bulking blitz. I want to see that full 600 ml jar flowing through your veins.

Yes, I started, if you look at the very first post of this log of what I started with at that weight.
I was taking 1MG adex with each test pin.
Something like 3x a week.
When I got up to 1G recently at the lower weight, I only needed half a tab of adex with pins to keep e2 down and it almost made it too low.

 

[RekTest]

Helluva job @RekTest. Listen to malfeasance.

Regroup at reasonable TRT dose.

Maybe time to just do 80-100mg a week of testosterone and nothing else for 6 weeks or so and see how you feel.

Im doing 200mg/wk test and hgh currently. Just gonna chill.

 

[RekTest]

Thanks for sharing about how you are feeling @RekTest ... Wishing peace & safety your way, as you return to balance on your own time.

ps I agree with @ineffectual !

pss Just noticed your longer hair from the before photos, love it.

Thank you for the kind words, they mean alot.

I have heard the hair thing from one other girl, so your a hair lover as well. Must be big deal with girls then huh?
Maybe I should regrow it out haha not sure how it would look because it started being curly vs the old pic lol

 

[RekTest]

Right on. Yeah you know how it goes then. Having family around, or caretaking, for T1DB makes for a very helpful and relatable example on the whole testing process... Between equipment and steps and everything needed.

(Guess that means you are familiar with the Insulin incorporation as well, saw that in your list.)

It's wild how much nutrition may acutely affect the whole direction and momentum of one's body/mind balance with respect to """blood sugar levels""".

Being able to accurately track and associate how the body/mind feels, as needed, along with every next meal or addition to the diet, seems like it will be extremely rewarding.

Curious to know what you get from Walmart! I think strips have to be the only downside or hurdle for deciding on a BGM.... But sometimes starter kits that come with free strips, also sell the strips alone at Walmart or other easy options like Rite Aid, Walgreens etc. Hope you find a good deal!

I got cheapo reliOn

First day of testing today has me kind of… I got a 53 reading in the morning. Going to test tomorrow and hope it was just a fluke.. lol lets hope.

 

[RekTest]

I am not happy. I need to step away and chill… I really wanted this thread deleted, but I will leave it up for anyone who may gather inspiration from it while on their weight loss journey
I want to remind anyone on that journey, If I can do it you can too brother, do not give up.
You will see greatness


This is where I started
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To today, I have fucking veins in my lats, I am not bragging (I look like shit compared to 99% of the folks here)
I am showing you, it is possible brother, do not give up.
Keep it up, believe in yourself, the journey is hard never stop believing. I believe in you.
Dont doubt yourself, you have the strength to do it.
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If anyone reading this needs encouragement, shoot me a dm or tag me in wherever and I will cheer you on to the fullest of my heart, you will make it brother.
I will be around meso, because I cant step away, but I will be not visiting this thread for a while. Too much here.

V2 RekTest is on hold. I need to go re-find myself.
The current RekTest isn’t me.

I have done alot of thinking and reflection since the 16th.
What I was doing wasn’t me, I was going against my core values that I built myself off of, I live off of integrity and I wasn’t doing that, and I cant blame anyone but myself
I want everyone to know I was running HEAVY tren doses up to that Dec 16th picture. The damage is done but the minimum I can do is come clean and be myself, not a liar, I had a addiction that clouded my brain from being me, I lied because of the addiction. That isnt me. That will never be me again.
It pretty much ruined a relationship over it, and I didnt realize soon enough because my brain was clouded I didnt realize what I was doing. I prolly wont get that relationship back that I cherish so much… cherish more than the world..
Anyone reading this, dont touch tren. I ruined something worth so much more than a stupid drug that I wont get back. Dont touch it.
Let my stupid retard mistakes help anyone in the future, just dont touch it.

TLDR : I went down to trt and just hgh for the foreseeable future, so I can get my mind back and me back, I dont want to be a horrible person anymore, my values and integrity back.

Dec 16th I, at though too late…. i cant get back what I lost.
I realized what I was doing and stopped all tren.
I have been clean 10 days.

 

[JG91]

RekTest update is all I wanted for Christmas


Glad your cleaning it up bro

 

[RekTest]

RekTest update is all I wanted for Christmas


Glad your cleaning it up bro

Haha thanks brother. Hope your Christmas was good and the new year is good for you.