Rektest - Death is available log

[iris]

Stellina bella, dimmi:

Option 1) u still on tren
Option 2) no you are not, this joie de vivre comes to you naturally.
In any case, is this an invitation or is it a threat?

XDDDDDD È DI DIMENSIONI CONSIDEREVOLI XDDDD

A detta di chi?
Non so se ti credo tanto.
Servono testimoni oculari affidabili.
Inoltre, dimensioni considerevoli cosa vuol dire?
Sei troppo vago.
Accuracy is close to Godliness.
Someone said that, many centuries ago.
Era scritto da qualche parte.

HO QUALCOSA CON IL TUO NOME SOPRA PER NATALE

Cosa mi hai preso, un panettone?
Senza uvetta per favore, preferisco.
Una bella bottiglia di spumante ci sta bene.
Ma me lo porti tu o Babbo Natale?
Se vieni tu poi mi servira` un mese di ferie per riprendermi.

Vielen Dank, dass Du an Weihnachten an mich gedacht haben.

 

[RekTest]

What aren’t you happy with? This has to be one of the top 10 transformations on Meso.

Did you start gear at that top body fat? How was estrogen control at that point?

When you’re up for it I hope you make a new thread. I want to see a full mad man bulking blitz. I want to see that full 600 ml jar flowing through your veins.

Yes, I started, if you look at the very first post of this log of what I started with at that weight.
I was taking 1MG adex with each test pin.
Something like 3x a week.
When I got up to 1G recently at the lower weight, I only needed half a tab of adex with pins to keep e2 down and it almost made it too low.

 

[RekTest]

Helluva job @RekTest. Listen to malfeasance.

Regroup at reasonable TRT dose.

Maybe time to just do 80-100mg a week of testosterone and nothing else for 6 weeks or so and see how you feel.

Im doing 200mg/wk test and hgh currently. Just gonna chill.

 

[RekTest]

Thanks for sharing about how you are feeling @RekTest ... Wishing peace & safety your way, as you return to balance on your own time.

ps I agree with @ineffectual !

pss Just noticed your longer hair from the before photos, love it.

Thank you for the kind words, they mean alot.

I have heard the hair thing from one other girl, so your a hair lover as well. Must be big deal with girls then huh?
Maybe I should regrow it out haha not sure how it would look because it started being curly vs the old pic lol

 

[RekTest]

Right on. Yeah you know how it goes then. Having family around, or caretaking, for T1DB makes for a very helpful and relatable example on the whole testing process... Between equipment and steps and everything needed.

(Guess that means you are familiar with the Insulin incorporation as well, saw that in your list.)

It's wild how much nutrition may acutely affect the whole direction and momentum of one's body/mind balance with respect to """blood sugar levels""".

Being able to accurately track and associate how the body/mind feels, as needed, along with every next meal or addition to the diet, seems like it will be extremely rewarding.

Curious to know what you get from Walmart! I think strips have to be the only downside or hurdle for deciding on a BGM.... But sometimes starter kits that come with free strips, also sell the strips alone at Walmart or other easy options like Rite Aid, Walgreens etc. Hope you find a good deal!

I got cheapo reliOn

First day of testing today has me kind of… I got a 53 reading in the morning. Going to test tomorrow and hope it was just a fluke.. lol lets hope.

 

[RekTest]

I am not happy. I need to step away and chill… I really wanted this thread deleted, but I will leave it up for anyone who may gather inspiration from it while on their weight loss journey
I want to remind anyone on that journey, If I can do it you can too brother, do not give up.
You will see greatness


This is where I started
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To today, I have fucking veins in my lats, I am not bragging (I look like shit compared to 99% of the folks here)
I am showing you, it is possible brother, do not give up.
Keep it up, believe in yourself, the journey is hard never stop believing. I believe in you.
Dont doubt yourself, you have the strength to do it.
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If anyone reading this needs encouragement, shoot me a dm or tag me in wherever and I will cheer you on to the fullest of my heart, you will make it brother.
I will be around meso, because I cant step away, but I will be not visiting this thread for a while. Too much here.

V2 RekTest is on hold. I need to go re-find myself.
The current RekTest isn’t me.

I have done alot of thinking and reflection since the 16th.
What I was doing wasn’t me, I was going against my core values that I built myself off of, I live off of integrity and I wasn’t doing that, and I cant blame anyone but myself
I want everyone to know I was running HEAVY tren doses up to that Dec 16th picture. The damage is done but the minimum I can do is come clean and be myself, not a liar, I had a addiction that clouded my brain from being me, I lied because of the addiction. That isnt me. That will never be me again.
It pretty much ruined a relationship over it, and I didnt realize soon enough because my brain was clouded I didnt realize what I was doing. I prolly wont get that relationship back that I cherish so much… cherish more than the world..
Anyone reading this, dont touch tren. I ruined something worth so much more than a stupid drug that I wont get back. Dont touch it.
Let my stupid retard mistakes help anyone in the future, just dont touch it.

TLDR : I went down to trt and just hgh for the foreseeable future, so I can get my mind back and me back, I dont want to be a horrible person anymore, my values and integrity back.

Dec 16th I, at though too late…. i cant get back what I lost.
I realized what I was doing and stopped all tren.
I have been clean 10 days.

 

[JG91]

RekTest update is all I wanted for Christmas


Glad your cleaning it up bro

 

[RekTest]

RekTest update is all I wanted for Christmas


Glad your cleaning it up bro

Haha thanks brother. Hope your Christmas was good and the new year is good for you.

 

[RekTest]

Morning, fasting BG test 93. Other day must have been a machine fluke at 50 ish.
So this is good, means the tirz is aiding the HGH.

 

[readalot]

I have done alot of thinking and reflection since the 16th.
What I was doing wasn’t me, I was going against my core values that I built myself off of, I live off of integrity and I wasn’t doing that, and I cant blame anyone but myself
I want everyone to know I was running HEAVY tren doses up to that Dec 16th picture. The damage is done but the minimum I can do is come clean and be myself, not a liar, I had a addiction that clouded my brain from being me, I lied because of the addiction. That isnt me. That will never be me again.
It pretty much ruined a relationship over it, and I didnt realize soon enough because my brain was clouded I didnt realize what I was doing. I prolly wont get that relationship back that I cherish so much… cherish more than the world..
Anyone reading this, dont touch tren. I ruined something worth so much more than a stupid drug that I wont get back. Dont touch it.
Let my stupid retard mistakes help anyone in the future, just dont touch it.

TLDR : I went down to trt and just hgh for the foreseeable future, so I can get my mind back and me back, I dont want to be a horrible person anymore, my values and integrity back.

Dec 16th I, at though too late…. i cant get back what I lost.
I realized what I was doing and stopped all tren.
I have been clean 10 days.

I wish you well. Take care.

 

[RekTest]

God has other plans for me, unfortunately.

Without even realizing. i am here doing your work.
Keep using me. I allow you.

 

[iris]

Without even realizing. i am here doing your work.
Keep using me. I allow you.

U ok?

 

[RekTest]

U ok?

Yes, I am very ok, not a worry about me ok? I will explain later

 

[rexy]

I have done alot of thinking and reflection since the 16th.
What I was doing wasn’t me, I was going against my core values that I built myself off of, I live off of integrity and I wasn’t doing that, and I cant blame anyone but myself
I want everyone to know I was running HEAVY tren doses up to that Dec 16th picture. The damage is done but the minimum I can do is come clean and be myself, not a liar, I had a addiction that clouded my brain from being me, I lied because of the addiction. That isnt me. That will never be me again.
It pretty much ruined a relationship over it, and I didnt realize soon enough because my brain was clouded I didnt realize what I was doing. I prolly wont get that relationship back that I cherish so much… cherish more than the world..
Anyone reading this, dont touch tren. I ruined something worth so much more than a stupid drug that I wont get back. Dont touch it.
Let my stupid retard mistakes help anyone in the future, just dont touch it.

TLDR : I went down to trt and just hgh for the foreseeable future, so I can get my mind back and me back, I dont want to be a horrible person anymore, my values and integrity back.

Dec 16th I, at though too late…. i cant get back what I lost.
I realized what I was doing and stopped all tren.
I have been clean 10 days.

Bold and big of you to get that off your chest. Bigger than any physique could be, as it takes a lot to speak up. I know it will have been difficult to, even on an anonymous forum.

I just wanted to say that the transformation pictures from the16th blew me away and I bookmarked the post for motivation. Who the heck would have imagined the aesthethic structure you had just waiting to be flashed out based on the before pic. It is the best transformation I have ever seen, especially considering the starting point. That you omitted a few things along the way doesn't degrade what you've achieved imo. I've dipped in and out of the thread and it blew me away how much difference I saw a few times - but I was blown away even further to see the image on the 16th. So good work on that.

I don't want that to come across as encouraging the continued use of stuff you find problematic, so I also wanted to say that when making decisions going forward, remember that people underestimate what it takes to build a base physique and overestimate what it takes to maintain it once built. Whatever you do going forward, you probably won't need super high dosing of the egregious compounds anymore, if they are even required at all, and you are now at the point where you can pick and choose what you use. You have built one hell of a physique, so no need to abuse yourself with compounds like nandrolone/tren if they don't get along. You have the upper hand on them now, instead of the other way around.

All the best and I'll be keeping and eye on the thread. Hope you continue to feel stronger mentally into the new year.

 

[RekTest]

Today on the life of Rekky and…. Rekky.

Ive been searching for a new car, so I went and looked at the new land cruiser and GX550, cant decide for the life of me unfortunately lol

Forgot to take a pic of the GX so heres google

Anyone into cars here??


In other, more log related news, Ive been eating like a straight animal
Today I have had
2 double cheese burgers
2 large chocolate shakes
3 anabars
3 core powers
Protein shake (2 servings of reduced fat milk, 6 scoops of protein powder, 900 calories)
bruschetta uncured bacon stuffed chicken breast with tortellini
chicken alfredo pasta

Hopefully it all goes to my ass tonight doing legs and shoulders. Need that ass them ladies can grab, ya kno what Im sayin?

@iris GRAB MY ASS

wut.

 

[MindlessWork]

Today on the life of Rekky and…. Rekky.

...

Hopefully it all goes to my ass tonight doing legs and shoulders. Need that ass them ladies can grab, ya kno what Im sayin?

@iris GRAB MY ASS

wut.

You really funny fker!

 

[iris]

Today on the life of Rekky and…. Rekky.

Ive been searching for a new car, so I went and looked at the new land cruiser and GX550, cant decide for the life of me unfortunately lol
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Forgot to take a pic of the GX so heres google
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Anyone into cars here??
Need that ass them ladies can grab, ya kno what Im sayin?

@iris GRAB MY ASS

Not quite sure which emoji to put there.
Which one do you want?
The "jesuschristhelp" one is, regrettably, not available.

Idk anything about cars, as you know.
I mean, the second one looks cuter.
But I bet you prefer the first; more rugged appearance.
Maybe less high maintenance.
I suppose it's to do with the one that works best, no?

Whichever one you plonk for, though, it's likely the minute you sit your bum on either of these, I bet numerous of

them ladies

There will be throwing themselves at you to grab it.
Absolutely happening.

But also, when you land that Lambo you have mentioned once or twice, fuggetaboutit, mate, you will not manage to keep 'em away from your bum.
At least, I assume that's how it works.

I am going to borrow Ghoul's digital marketing team to confirm my very accurate assessment.

ya kno what Im sayin?

 

[bigMoJo]

Ive been searching for a new car, so I went and looked at the new land cruiser and GX550, cant decide for the life of me unfortunately lol
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Forgot to take a pic of the GX so heres google
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Anyone into cars here??

Almost identical vehicles.

The Land Cuisers are very rare. Most dealers have just one on the lot.

The GX550, more luxury, more popular. There's usually a few on the lot.

If you do a lot of heavy off-road, tow a large boat, need that extra drive-train... go with the Cruiser.

If it's occasional off-road, lighter boat & towing, GX 550 can handle the street and off-road beautifully. I've seen. Guys take the GX on those steep rock mountain slopes and handle it no problem.

The Cruiser's price tag is much less, but it's been a while since I've looked these SUVs. Both are incredible machines and very reliable. Personally, I like luxury rides, but appreciate a good machine regardless. Keep an eye on the gas mileage with the Cruiser. I think both can come with the same engine, but the Cruiser's suspension and drivetrain set-up impact it's EPA rating.

Good luck bro, you earned it!

Oh, and take your time deciding... I never like to make an impulse decision on a ride. Make them let you test drive and think about it until you are confident that's what you want.

 

[iris]

Almost identical vehicles.

The Land Cuisers are very rare. Most dealers have just one on the lot.

The GX550, more luxury, more popular. There's usually a few on the lot.

If you do a lot of heavy off-road, tow a large boat, need that extra drive-train... go with the Cruiser.

If it's occasional off-road, lighter boat & towing, GX 550 can handle the street and off-road beautifully. I've seen. Guys take the GX on those steep rock mountain slopes and handle it no problem.

The Cruiser's price tag is much less, but it's been a while since I've looked these SUVs. Both are incredible machines and very reliable. Personally, I like luxury rides, but appreciate a good machine regardless. Keep an eye on the gas mileage with the Cruiser. I think both can come with the same engine, but the Cruiser's suspension and drivetrain set-up impact it's EPA rating.

Good luck bro, you earned it!

Oh, and take your time deciding... I never like to make an impulse decision on a ride. Make them let you test drive and think about it until you are confident that's what you want.

In your expert opinion (Mojo, I am impressed with your review, here), are they kind of equivalent if you are doing a fair amount of mileage, per year?

 

[RekTest]

Almost identical vehicles.

The Land Cuisers are very rare. Most dealers have just one on the lot.

The GX550, more luxury, more popular. There's usually a few on the lot.

If you do a lot of heavy off-road, tow a large boat, need that extra drive-train... go with the Cruiser.

If it's occasional off-road, lighter boat & towing, GX 550 can handle the street and off-road beautifully. I've seen. Guys take the GX on those steep rock mountain slopes and handle it no problem.

The Cruiser's price tag is much less, but it's been a while since I've looked these SUVs. Both are incredible machines and very reliable. Personally, I like luxury rides, but appreciate a good machine regardless. Keep an eye on the gas mileage with the Cruiser. I think both can come with the same engine, but the Cruiser's suspension and drivetrain set-up impact it's EPA rating.

Good luck bro, you earned it!

Oh, and take your time deciding... I never like to make an impulse decision on a ride. Make them let you test drive and think about it until you are confident that's what you want.

Almost identical, only similarities is the 4x4 is the same, GX is slightly bigger obviously.
Land cruiser is a 4cy single turbo with a hybrid
GX is a V6 twin turbo.
Im stuck on deciding if I want the extra payment for the extra luxury of the GX… tbh thats what I will prolly end up going with, but Ive been going back and forth for over a month.
Thanks for taking the time to write that