i'm talking about being so big that it's a turn-off to girls. there are some huge members here, but i'm not. i'm 25, 5'9", 215, 9%B.F. i look like i take steroids, of course i have. i done it for 3 years now, maybe because i was a fat child. i trained like a freak since I was 17, and I was a model when i was 19 and 20. no, i'm not a fag, but go ahead and have some fun. i started saucing, thinking it would get me girls. girls take one look at me and think i'm a shallow, slutty (well, sluttys true at least), stuck-up, pretencious muscle head that values nothing over his body. my body isn't the center of my life, it's just a hobby. i never ever talk to girls about my eating, training, or drug use. i know it's tacky. it's too bad i'm really hooked. i haven't been of for 8 or 9 months. i run deca and winny together w/out test once in a while, but now i'm on 4 drugs. it seems to me i'm always the guy girls want to fuck on vacation, never the guy that girls want to get to know. niko
