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Hey fellas sorry to post here but just need to vent for a bit as I don't want to bring this up to anyone else. Gonna be a somewhat long post so no worries if anyone doesn't want to read.

Little bit about me. 33 years old. Recently got married and had our first kid. She's 8 months now and is by far the greatest thing to ever happen to me. Im a firefighter/EMT and did blast and cruise in the past but now currently just on trt the last 2 years.

My mom died of pancreatic cancer when I was 21. Came to a shock for all of us. She had some abdominal pain and thought it was her gall bladder. She goes in to get scans and they tell her she has 3 months to live. With treatment she ended up living another year and a half. My father recently passed away right before all my symptoms started about 2 years ago. I went to go visit him and ended up finding him dead in the bathroom from a heart attack.

So 2 years ago I started having right flank pank, Loose thin stools and burning in my abdomen. Cold hands. Got ct scan, hida scan, ultra sound and upper endoscopy and all came back clear. They ruled it up to acid reflux and was prescribed Omeprazole. Never did a colonoscopy though. Was on that for about a year and it relieved those symptoms. Still feel like my stool wasn't like it used to be and wasn't going as much as I used too. I was however on a lot higher doses of roids and eating a lot shit back then compared to now. Kind of just lived my life after that and really wasn't feeling bad or anything.

Fast forward to today I'm still having loose stools occasional. Although some times it's thick I still feel like I only go once a day compared to going like 4 times a day before all this happened. But now with having my daughter I feel like something is about to go wrong. I know from past how quickly things can change and I don't want my daughter having to grow up without me. I feel like I have convinced myself already that I have colon cancer. I just feel like something is off. I have had anxiety my whole life so that doesn't help. Have been having a lot of recent calls at work with a lot of young people dying so it shows me how short life can really be.

I don't have any abdominal pain, weight loss, or blood in my stool but I can't seem to stop thinking about the fact that I may have cancer. My Drs don't seem to take me seriously but I was able to push for a colonoscopy in March this year. I'm not sure if it was cancer I would be a lot worse with it being two years now but I know they say colon cancer is slow growing. If anyone has any opinions or anything I'd greatly appreciate it.

Again sorry for the off topic post. Don't want to worry the wife or anything. Thanks again fellas.
 
glutesforthesloots said:
Hey fellas sorry to post here but just need to vent for a bit as I don't want to bring this up to anyone else. Gonna be a somewhat long post so no worries if anyone doesn't want to read.

Little bit about me. 33 years old. Recently got married and had our first kid. She's 8 months now and is by far the greatest thing to ever happen to me. Im a firefighter/EMT and did blast and cruise in the past but now currently just on trt the last 2 years.

My mom died of pancreatic cancer when I was 21. Came to a shock for all of us. She had some abdominal pain and thought it was her gall bladder. She goes in to get scans and they tell her she has 3 months to live. With treatment she ended up living another year and a half. My father recently passed away right before all my symptoms started about 2 years ago. I went to go visit him and ended up finding him dead in the bathroom from a heart attack.

So 2 years ago I started having right flank pank, Loose thin stools and burning in my abdomen. Cold hands. Got ct scan, hida scan, ultra sound and upper endoscopy and all came back clear. They ruled it up to acid reflux and was prescribed Omeprazole. Never did a colonoscopy though. Was on that for about a year and it relieved those symptoms. Still feel like my stool wasn't like it used to be and wasn't going as much as I used too. I was however on a lot higher doses of roids and eating a lot shit back then compared to now. Kind of just lived my life after that and really wasn't feeling bad or anything.

Fast forward to today I'm still having loose stools occasional. Although some times it's thick I still feel like I only go once a day compared to going like 4 times a day before all this happened. But now with having my daughter I feel like something is about to go wrong. I know from past how quickly things can change and I don't want my daughter having to grow up without me. I feel like I have convinced myself already that I have colon cancer. I just feel like something is off. I have had anxiety my whole life so that doesn't help. Have been having a lot of recent calls at work with a lot of young people dying so it shows me how short life can really be.

I don't have any abdominal pain, weight loss, or blood in my stool but I can't seem to stop thinking about the fact that I may have cancer. My Drs don't seem to take me seriously but I was able to push for a colonoscopy in March this year. I'm not sure if it was cancer I would be a lot worse with it being two years now but I know they say colon cancer is slow growing. If anyone has any opinions or anything I'd greatly appreciate it.

Again sorry for the off topic post. Don't want to worry the wife or anything. Thanks again fellas.
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It's natural to feel anxious with your history and symptoms, but you're taking positive steps by scheduling a colonoscopy. This proactive approach is commendable, especially as a new parent. Remember, many health concerns can have benign causes, and it's good you're not experiencing more severe symptoms. Focusing on what you can control, like maintaining a healthy lifestyle and using stress-reduction techniques, can help manage anxiety. Sharing your worries here is a brave step, and it's important to keep communicating with your doctors. Cherish the time with your family; your efforts to stay healthy for your daughter are what truly matter. Stay strong; you've got support.
 
Vent away brother, you’ve been through a lot of trauma and what you're going through mentally is natural. My wife’s father and brother both died from brain tumors in their 40’s and 50’s and for quite awhile afterwards anytime my wife got a headache she panicked thinking she was next.

Also, I believe being a new father has something to do with it as well, I know after my son was born I would get anxious and start the worrying process that would spiral downward. You can’t go there, you need to choose joy and positivity. The mind and thoughts are powerful and work in both directions. Worrying does not help and I know it’s easier said then done but focus on the fact the doctors did not finding anything on those tests. Get the colonoscopy taken care of and reassess after the results are in, I’m sure you’ll be fine. Not sure where your faith is but I’ll be praying for you.

PS. Maybe increase your fiber, I do 1 tbsp of each every night in about 20 oz of water and my bowel movements are epic the following morning. Psyllium husk, ground flax, ground fennel seeds and ACV. You must drink it immediately or it will set up like spray foam.
 
Flathead Fred said:
Vent away brother, you’ve been through a lot of trauma and what you're going through mentally is natural. My wife’s father and brother both died from brain tumors in their 40’s and 50’s and for quite awhile afterwards anytime my wife got a headache she panicked thinking she was next.

Also, I believe being a new father has something to do with it as well, I know after my son was born I would get anxious and start the worrying process that would spiral downward. You can’t go there, you need to choose joy and positivity. The mind and thoughts are powerful and work in both directions. Worrying does not help and I know it’s easier said then done but focus on the fact the doctors did not finding anything on those tests. Get the colonoscopy taken care of and reassess after the results are in, I’m sure you’ll be fine. Not sure where your faith is but I’ll be praying for you.

PS. Maybe increase your fiber, I do 1 tbsp of each every night in about 20 oz of water and my bowel movements are epic the following morning. Psyllium husk, ground flax, ground fennel seeds and ACV. You must drink it immediately or it will set up like spray foam.
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Thanks brother appreciate it. Having a kid changed everything. Was reckless when younger and didn't care what the consequences would be but man does that all change once you have a kid. I do think a lot is stress. I start googling and on social media and everything starts popping up with people with colon cancer under 40.

Like you said nothing I can do now so I'll just wait for the colonoscopy and go from there.
 
glutesforthesloots said:
Hey fellas sorry to post here but just need to vent for a bit as I don't want to bring this up to anyone else. Gonna be a somewhat long post so no worries if anyone doesn't want to read.

Little bit about me. 33 years old. Recently got married and had our first kid. She's 8 months now and is by far the greatest thing to ever happen to me. Im a firefighter/EMT and did blast and cruise in the past but now currently just on trt the last 2 years.

My mom died of pancreatic cancer when I was 21. Came to a shock for all of us. She had some abdominal pain and thought it was her gall bladder. She goes in to get scans and they tell her she has 3 months to live. With treatment she ended up living another year and a half. My father recently passed away right before all my symptoms started about 2 years ago. I went to go visit him and ended up finding him dead in the bathroom from a heart attack.

So 2 years ago I started having right flank pank, Loose thin stools and burning in my abdomen. Cold hands. Got ct scan, hida scan, ultra sound and upper endoscopy and all came back clear. They ruled it up to acid reflux and was prescribed Omeprazole. Never did a colonoscopy though. Was on that for about a year and it relieved those symptoms. Still feel like my stool wasn't like it used to be and wasn't going as much as I used too. I was however on a lot higher doses of roids and eating a lot shit back then compared to now. Kind of just lived my life after that and really wasn't feeling bad or
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I was in a similar boat, both my parents are gone also 1 heart attack 1 lung cancer in my 20's, and I was having crazy loose bowel moments heart heart burn. I got the endoscopy and colonoscopy, got diagnosed with gerd the acid reflux disease got prescribed the same prilosec as u, and also diagnosed with crohn's disease.
 
I lost my dad to colon cancer. He got diagnosed and literally was dead 3 months later. My dad was a big powerful man and It managed to break him down to a frail old looking man in 3 months.. I hope you are just being paranoid and its nothing serious. Stay positive, stay strong.
 
I had the same kind of "I need to be around" anxiety when my kids were born. Perfectly normal. Just try to relax until the testing in March. Anxiety itself could be causing your symptoms. And just remember that med science does kick cancer's ass these days in many ways.
 
Sorry for your losses man. I hope everything comes back okay. I would strongly encourage you to take care of your mental health and try to be more optimistic and cherish the life you have right now. Keep your head up stay positive.
 
I had loose/mud stools for 7-8 years. Colonoscopy not one polyp- perfect. What I do have is bad hemmorhoids- internal ones. Feels like I gotta shit when they're out like a turds poking out so my poop response(is that a thing? It is for me.) is always triggered. When they are bad I might poop 3-4-5 times a day. Also they keep the last bit of poop blocked from coming out so I gotta walk around with tp in my drawers. Then a lil while after a real poop I have the after poop. You're Fuckin Welcome. Hahaha I know I'm offering ammo for you guys haha I just dgaf.
But, seriously, I would try probiotics just to see if you don't eat a lot of fresh vegetables and fruit. And I figured I'd share just in case you got hemmorhoids bad and aren't associating it with it. I'm scheduling my hemorrhoidectomy next month.
But worry and angst won't solve anything and can contribute for sure. Having said that I worried too and even about cancer and here I am still kicking like the Italians. My point friend is this;
There's so many things it could be: it could be an overactive thyroid. It could be ....here:
"A wide range of problems can cause chronic diarrhea; some of the most common causes include irritable bowel syndrome (IBS), inflammatory bowel disease (Crohn disease and ulcerative colitis), malabsorption syndromes, like celiac disease, in which food cannot be digested and absorbed, and chronic infections as well as many other less common causes of chronic diarrhea." Along with allergies and in my case these crazy hemmorhoids that make my ass like a chocolate soft serve machine. Again y'all welcome! Hahaha So, if I have had soft/mud stools mostly for at least 7-8 years maybe more and during that time I've been living life normal other than that- then I understand your worry with your family history but look at this: if you die from some cancer in 5 years from now; Would you want to have spent your last 5 worrying or enjoying life? Sometimes our minds- we need to get out of them and just go live instead of trying to mentally control to psychologically soothe our anxiety/worry whatever you want to call it. But when we do some shit and get into it and out of our heads aka letting go and enjoying our life or focusing on doing/experiencing more than thinking or overthinking- that can be helpful to our soul bro. I'm not saying don't do anything or stop trying to figure it out- just don't get ruled by your mind bro(don't let your mind rule you're experiencing of life) and make sure you enjoy what you can and try to fully experience life instead of just what's in your head...or just experiencing your own mind. I sure wish you the best and hope I gave some laughs to you all. IF you pray; Pray like a lover not like a beggar bc those are the prayers that have come to fruition for me. I'm living it right now. I'm not religious in the common sense of the word. So not getting into that. "IF" you pray.

Lastly:
"Since the 1940s, researchers have known that stress can trigger intestinal cramping, which can then trigger diarrhea. We now know that this happens due to the connection between your gut and your brain, known as the gut-brain axis."

"Two of the most common bowel issues connected to stress and anxiety are diarrhea and constipation. Of course, these two bowel issues are linked to hundreds of different causes and conditions, which is why sometimes these issues go unnoticed or are attributed to a different cause."

So it can be something very simple or weird(like mine) or significant. No need to freak out until you know bro.

I know what it's like to freak out from my own known(in and from my mind) and via overreacting to things. I also know the freedom and peace of being able to quiet my mind and experience free of it's constant outputting of thought. There's a time for both bro.
But no time is for the tool to rule the possessor of the tool.

All the above is just my experience and I can't argue if it's right or wrong bc even if it is either: it still doesn't change that it's my experience.

Well, the part about all the many many things it could be....is just to show it might be something small or manageable and there's more of those cases than not.
 
First and foremost, regardless of your concerns, I would recommend that you take a genetic test for hereditary cancer. Based on this, you can derive a risk assessment for yourself and plan appropriate preventive examinations in a more targeted manner.
You may not have a predisposition to cancer, regardless of your family history.

Furthermore, in connection with the tragic loss of your mother to this damn illness, you are of course predestined for a hypochondriacal anxiety disorder.
I've been through something similar and can assure you that regular conversations with a psychotherapist work wonders. No hocus pocus - I'm serious.

Rationally speaking, you have simply exhausted EVERY diagnostic option that, in this combination, confirms 100% that you do NOT have a serious illness! Accept this!
Intestinal problems and digestive disorders are often associated with fears and mental problems. This doesn't always have to have an organic cause. Believe me, I know what I'm talking about.
Bodybuilding combined with some steroids, particularly nandrolone and boldenone, show an increased incidence of psychological problems. Fears, hypochondria, etc.
Sports nutrition concepts that contain quickly digestible carbohydrates, few fats and typically a lot of protein are predestined for digestive problems. For me, this started when I was in my mid-30s.
I have it well under control now. Glutamine and avoiding sweeteners as much as possible helped me a lot. Psyllium husks, inulin, acacia fibers throughout the day with meals were the game changer for me.
This also affected my psyche. The conscious diet (no artificial sweeteners and glutamine and fiber supplementation) has had a significant positive effect on my mental resilience.

Don't go crazy. You are healthy and everything is fine. Use the approaches for optimization and enjoy your life with your wife and child.
 
I never knew what real fear was until I had kids. I turned into a hypochondriac. I’m not saying you are, but go through the process of testing like everyone is saying. If you’re clear, get a good life insurance policy, it’ll make you feel better to have it. Helped me a ton mentally. What we do isn’t healthy, I get it. Can make the mental worse.
 
I remember when i was in high school the first time I went to the funeral of an 18-year-old boy I knew, fresh out of high school and everything. Not fun, definitely makes a man think about life and how short it can be
After that funeral I felt worse than I had for a long time. Even though it was just a friend, the fact that death was so close to all of us was crippiling, it shook me to my core and made me consider a lot about life
I could go on a rational rant about how you have nothing to worry about, how there are a million things you can do,
I could cite 100 peptides and diets that can help prevent cancer from starting, talk about genetic vs environmental influences with how common carcinogens and radiation are, talk about rational things to try to rationalize how messed up the world is so we can go on living in peace, but the truth is that in the end, one way or another, there is no safe box and there never was. If it isn't cancer, there's always another risk, another fear, another barrier between us and feeling safe, because we know there is no barrier between us and death

MESO-RX to me is about overcoming that fear and facing real dangers with rational thought and knowledge, whether that means researching the right peptide mix to grow my dick, designing a PCT cycle to get someone's life on track, or treating an illness with medicine that a doctor won't prescribe. Rationalization is all we really can do, it is an inherent human coping mechanism (although it rarely lets us achieve the comfort we need). honestly, coping with death of other humans is tough any way you put it. the important thing is to recognize when we aren't fine and need help from others to cope, because, with other humans, there is little that we cannot stand up against

I don't know if you are religious, but maybe you could find comfort in some sort of prayer/meditation practices or gatherings. I know it sounds cheesy, but it works for a lot of people (do whatever works best for you(there are church support groups almost everywhere for this type of thing, and online)). Maybe you need to talk about it with a therapist, if it gets it off your head it may be worthwhile both mentally and physically. Maybe you need to go onto an anonymous steroid forum to rant about it so you can hide your feelings from your wife to seem more masculine. whatever works for you bub
take care of yourself, and god bless
 
UPDATE: Had my colonoscopy. Dr found one polyp which he said was non cancerous but still off to be biopsied. Also have internal hemorrhoids but everything went really well and nice to have a clean bill of health. Def recommend young guys to go get a colonoscopy. Dr said there's a 15 percent chance it could of turned into cancer down the road so he was glad I came in. Still have to wait for final results but doc said to at least be sure it's not cancer.
 
glutesforthesloots said:
UPDATE: Had my colonoscopy. Dr found one polyp which he said was non cancerous but still off to be biopsied. Also have internal hemorrhoids but everything went really well and nice to have a clean bill of health. Def recommend young guys to go get a colonoscopy. Dr said there's a 15 percent chance it could of turned into cancer down the road so he was glad I came in. Still have to wait for final results but doc said to at least be sure it's not cancer.
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Great news. I also had internal hemorrhoids. Best advice there is start simple with treatment and avoid cuts at all costs. Not an area to go big or go home on the surgery
 
glutesforthesloots said:
UPDATE: Had my colonoscopy. Dr found one polyp which he said was non cancerous but still off to be biopsied. Also have internal hemorrhoids but everything went really well and nice to have a clean bill of health. Def recommend young guys to go get a colonoscopy. Dr said there's a 15 percent chance it could of turned into cancer down the road so he was glad I came in. Still have to wait for final results but doc said to at least be sure it's not cancer.
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Great news! A nephew of mine went through something like this 10 years ago. Buddy, he's still around.
 
I have to echo @Flathead Fred and @glutesforthesloots , go for a colonoscopy,its not painful and you barely feel a thing esp if they feed you with a twilight anesthetic. I have re-occuring hemmorhoids and I use to get one every 3 years, But as of late Canadian gov't will only cover every 5 years.
Still, I highly recommend esp in your 40's . Don't ever gamble with your health
 
Have you got a stomach sensitivity test?
Maybe diet can ease some of your discomfort.
Focus on improvements (ill take minor miracles all day)
Whatever you focus on will be ever present in your life
Your choice; focus on getting to do things with family and live life to the fullest most days with gratefulness or...
This body is destined to fail us all. Hope doesn't disappoint and I have hope for you
 
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