Am i fed up with women?

[Rockclimber]

Have you taken EQ before? I've read it makes some people feel weird. Also agree with iron will. I'd stop cycle and see a doctor.

+1
Drop the EQ, a quick search on it will reveal that many people suffer from depression and anxiety while on it. Continue on the test until the EQ is cleared out of your system at least. At that point you can drop the test. Before you start your next cycle make sure everything in your life is "lined up" and ready for the hormone cycle.

 

[ironwill1951]

god damn boy that is not a bad year, so what you had a kitchen fire and had to live with relatives, and you went to school and got a new job. your problem is that your a cry baby. get a good psychiatrist, getting a dog to be your best buddy is not the answer. damn I can think of a dozen guys on here that have had real life problems.

Im currently 25.
Tbh, maybe its (and yes im serious) because its new years eve tonight.
Ive had a really, really rough year, if not the worst of my life.
And ive been working towards being able to enjoy next year without worries.
Im working 6-7 days a week for almost the whole year now, from starting a new education winter last year until summer this year, to getting a new job in this field (softwaredeveloping).
Between those 2 ive had my kitchen burn down while ive been at work, which left me "homeless" until august this year.
Ive had to live with relatives until i was able to afford a new flat mid summer. It was very tense the whole time, not having much privatsphere, only working and learning.
I got my dog 3 months ago who put alot of stress relief into my life and is my everything.
Im paranoid as fuck, everyday leaving my flat to go to work, i cant leave without checking the whole flat a few times to ensure another fire wont happen.
Ive been cutting people out of my life, ive been alone and learned to love myself, at least a tad bit.

I just wanted 2018 to pass for the last few weeks and i just want to look into a stressfree and peaceful new year together with my dog.
Set new prs in the gym, save some cash for the first time in my life, give my dog the happiest life he can get, which makes me happy too.
Maybe find a good girl although thats the least of my worries.

This was the year were i was able to admit, ive been a fucking loser until now, focusing on the wrong aapects of life, im happy i never done drugs except speed one time which was a shit experience, ive learned that progress in the gym isnt everything and being big isnt what makes you special.

I just want to leave all the negative bs behind and move on.
Ive got to work tonight (as a bouncer) but im able to bring my dog there and put him in a room so hes safe from all the new years bullshit celebration and i know, i will take a break there and have my 10 minutes with him in that room to celebrate the new year, and damn i already know im going to cry because of joy, i made it through such a shitty year.

Maybe im nervous because of all the relief im going to feel.

 

[rx2man]

I don't know enough to comment on the gear you are taking and how that relates to depression etc. BUT I blew my back out 6 yrs ago, really messed up my quality of life to the point where I needed to get on Zoloft. No sides, and your GP should be able to give you a Rx for it. No need to see a mental health doc just to get on Zoloft. Not telling you not to see a mental health doc. Only you know if you need to but if you have reservations about seeing a specialist your GP should be able to Rx you. Look at Robin Williams and Anthony Bourdaine....how could those 2 kill themselves, they have everything, or so you would think. Still was not enough. And a trip to the doc to get on some meds and all of a sudden its not really that bad.....

 

[brutus79]

Thanks for the advices, ill keep posting on here if status changes and stuff

How can you post if you kill yourself? We would be thinking you just lost interest in the board and you would be full time ineffective flypaper... and nobody will have learned anything. That's the real tragedy.

 

[nervje]

How can you post if you kill yourself? We would be thinking you just lost interest in the board and you would be full time ineffective flypaper... and nobody will have learned anything. That's the real tragedy.

I dont think about suicide tbh nor have i thought about it, i guess im one of those, who rather think about my relatives (father and such) who would not understand why i would do such a thing

god damn boy that is not a bad year, so what you had a kitchen fire and had to live with relatives, and you went to school and got a new job. your problem is that your a cry baby. get a good psychiatrist, getting a dog to be your best buddy is not the answer. damn I can think of a dozen guys on here that have had real life problems.

Sooooo just to make it clear: i didnt get a dog to help me out of depression,i got him bscause i wanted one for 7 years now.
Hes a good boy and i love him. Dog owners understand.

Also my years been worse than what i just mentioned, but of course theres people who have it way worse than me or who experienced worse things. To be honest, if the problems you mentioned arose from drug addiction/abuse then no i wont ever experience it because i absolutely despise drug abuse and thats some shit people do to themselves, its their choice to fuck their lives up.

Its all different perspectives so dont judge too quick


But in the end, i just came back from my nightshift, im happy to be home and tired as fuck.

 

[rpbb]

Is this the same deal as last time, you come to the board, whine about something, listen to no solutions, and move on. Are you a girl

 

[The Terminator]

I’d recommend seeing a dr for therapy without drugs, many depressed and/or people with anxiety just need some therapy. Depending on what the problem is the talking alone can help but often just need help from a professional to see what is causing the depression/anxiety and what can be done about it, again without drugs. Of course a good dr can only guide a person, the patient has to put in the effort.

A lot of drs are too quick to toss an rx for antidepressants and then get rid of you only to see you for occasional “med checks.” I made the mistake of taking antidepressants for OCD I had with germs. Felt like a zombie, 0 sex drive, like I was a robot, numbed emotions etc. Still had issues with germs but not so bad, but the side effects weren’t worth it so I wanted to stop. POS psychiatrist didn’t warn me of the withdrawals quitting cold turkey, went insane for a week or 2 with the craziest mood swings, of course non of the moods were happy or joy lol, just rage or crying lol. But I did have libido return, jacked off at least 10x a day lol. There is definitely a place for drugs as some really may have an imbalance but I don’t think it should be given after 10 minutes.

Btw I fixed my germ issue by like 90% by buying a $20 book that talked about exposure therapy, helpful for ocd issues.

 

[MCFC]

Other than somewhat ignoring some of the advice given on here you seem to have your life in check and a pretty good head on your shoulders. You're certainly no fuck up at the moment. At the very least drop the EQ and get your bloods checked. I've been trying to tell people for years that EQ isn't as good as people claim. It jacks my hematocrit, raises bp and gives me sleep apnea. Lack of sleep alone could be the root of all this though it probably isn't. But drop te eq an talk to a therapist and I think you'll be fine my man.

 

[MCFC]

Oh yea, and as a result of the high hema and raised bp it gives me severe anxiety. Some people just don't tolerate eq well.

 

[Morefyah]

Other than somewhat ignoring some of the advice given on here you seem to have your life in check and a pretty good head on your shoulders. You're certainly no fuck up at the moment. At the very least drop the EQ and get your bloods checked. I've been trying to tell people for years that EQ isn't as good as people claim. It jacks my hematocrit, raises bp and gives me sleep apnea. Lack of sleep alone could be the root of all this though it probably isn't. But drop te eq an talk to a therapist and I think you'll be fine my man.

I never had any of those sides from EQ.
I ran over a gram a week for 22 weeks.
Now just 300mg tren jacks up my bP bad and I sleep 2-3 hours a day, heartburn, angry! It will probably be part of my next cycle.

 

[nervje]

Sorry i havent updated this even though i said so.

Since posting this, my days have been pretty good , at least way better than day of posting.
I still can not explain what it was exactly or why i had this downdragging mood. I feel better since without changing much actually. Very curious if it comes back but i do hope not, it was a really negative experience

 

[Holidaypay]

Sorry i havent updated this even though i said so.

Since posting this, my days have been pretty good , at least way better than day of posting.
I still can not explain what it was exactly or why i had this downdragging mood. I feel better since without changing much actually. Very curious if it comes back but i do hope not, it was a really negative experience

Bro relax ur year wasn't that bad a Lot of people have it a Lot worse than you u should be thankful for what you have shit in 2018 I had a accident on a cherry picker it rolled over an almost killed me an a co worker i lost my job an my house because I couldn't get another job fast enough then I totaled my car on the way to a job interview an had to move in with my wife's family an I have 2 young kids an a wife that rely on me I still know that I have it good compared to other people learn to be grateful for what you have an don't worry about small shit

 

[TideGear]

Bro relax ur year wasn't that bad a Lot of people have it a Lot worse than you u should be thankful for what you have shit in 2018 I had a accident on a cherry picker it rolled over an almost killed me an a co worker i lost my job an my house because I couldn't get another job fast enough then I totaled my car on the way to a job interview an had to move in with my wife's family an I have 2 young kids an a wife that rely on me I still know that I have it good compared to other people learn to be grateful for what you have an don't worry about small shit

I have to completely disagree with this. I've told myself this very same thing and it's bs. If someone is miserable because they don't have what someone else has what do you do? You tell them not to compare themselves to others, don't you? But when someone is feeling down you tell them it could be worse, just look at so and so, they have it worse than you do. In that case you justify the comparison. I'm not putting you down, I don't think you're intentionally being hypocritical, but that what it is. We each have our own expectations of ourselves and our own requirements for happiness so comparisons are not helpful in this case.

 

[nervje]

Bro relax ur year wasn't that bad a Lot of people have it a Lot worse than you u should be thankful for what you have shit in 2018 I had a accident on a cherry picker it rolled over an almost killed me an a co worker i lost my job an my house because I couldn't get another job fast enough then I totaled my car on the way to a job interview an had to move in with my wife's family an I have 2 young kids an a wife that rely on me I still know that I have it good compared to other people learn to be grateful for what you have an don't worry about small shit

I do know where youre coming from of course, but on the other hand its point of view dependant..
How can a guy like chester bennington be depressed all the time? Or many more people.

Im not saying i do have them but to admit, it feels like yes.