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Villain said:
It sucks, but part of me thinks it’s necessary. Maybe I’m wrong, but do you ever really grow without heartbreak and failure?
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I left my hometown 4 hrs away to be with a woman who I ended up being engaged to. 16 yrs ago last month she threw me out. When I came back home I didnt know what to do the first week. 2nd week I banged everything in sight. And I mean everything! I felt like less a man when she didnt want me or to fix what we had. I had to prove that I was a man, a man someone wanted, if even for a night.

When I met this one, she had little kids, 2-6. I was an instant dad. Their real dad lived down the road about 20 minutes away, but he didnt want them except for every other weekend, and even then theyd be crying cause "dad" didnt do anything but drink and watch tv...send them upstairs so he could watch the game in peace. I was gonna fuck him up, but my ex fiancee didnt want me to do that, cause trouble. So I bit my tongue for 4 yrs. I became their dad. Not at first. One of the kids had a hard time with me being their "new" dad. But eventually, right before I left for the last time, that kid bawled his eyes out knowing he'd never see me again. Its so hard when kids are involved. whether they are yours or not.

Over the years I watched them grow. Mainly through social media. First, the oldest graduated and had a kid of his own. Then the middle kid, she graduated, and just last year had her own child. The last kid has troubles, doesnt fit in the crowd so to speak like the others. I suspect its because he had so many "dads" through the years. You see, after I left my ex fiancee moved someone else in 3 weeks later. Someone she picked up at a bar. They eventually married, and 6 months later got divorced.

When she got divorced who do you think she called? Me. "Besides my kids you were the best thing that ever happened to me...." Ya, that fucked me up, and almost had me wanting to head back to her. But something in my head said no dont do it. She kept in contact, flirting, for another 3 weeks or so, then out of the blue....nothing. Eventually I checked her social media and saw she was with a new man. They ended up getting married. She was with him for, oh man I cant remember right, maybe 5 years. Then one day I get a call. Yup, you guessed it...."Besides my kids you were the best thing that ever happened to me....". By this point i was already "over her". Meaning I wasnt in love with her anymore. I will always love her, but not in love if you can understand that.

I think it was 2-3 years ago she got married to another man. Older than her by 15 yrs or so. (I was 6 yrs older than her). I got one last call from her. It wasnt the same old BS line. This time she just wanted to see how I was, and mainly kept talking about me and her new husband, how much alike us "older" guys were. She seemed happy, and is still with him to this day.

I know im writing a book here, and theres many more chapters believe me, good and bad. But I wanted to you all to know this really sucked. For me. I stayed single for most of the time. Fucking one whenever the need arose, which was more often than ill admit. But it was part of me moving on.

I dont know what you believe in. God(I do) or some other higher power. Im not gonna go all religious on y'all. But just know we're all on a journey, and im actually happy this woman above is happy in her journey. It wasnt until I realized we're all on a journey, and we're not always gonna be on the same path, that I could "mourn" the loss of a friend and actually move on. Experiencing happiness for myself.

Its ok to reminisce about the past. Hell its ok to flirt with the notion of what could be. But its never ok to constantly dwell on what would or could have been. Youre only holding yourself back. Again, remember, its ok to stop along your journey, take a break, sit on an old log and catch your breath. But your journey is waiting. You cant go back. Lifes too short to allow that.

Never compare your life to anothers. Dont ever let the "she won" mentality set in. This is YOUR race. Be happy for what youve been through, who you are now, what you have to offer, and let the world see you for all you are. Your journey isnt finished. And theres someone out there waiting on you to compliment their journey.

Sorry so long, but I hope I made someone, anyone, think. Its time. Get after it. Peace!
 
She had 2 special needs kids. The oldest was and he loved to talk almost too much. Definitely too much lol. But good kid none the less. Middle kid fine but caught in the middle of the others for many reasons. Youngest was starting speech therapy at 3yr old. I tried to not really interact because I was not thier dad. Felt it was the most respectful thing I could do....since I was banging his wife everywhere everyway every other day and taking his family away. Not proud of that part but I tell myself if it wasn't me it would of been someone else. What if it was someone who would of hurt any of them. At least I knew I cared alot. She wanted out of the relationship anyway us meeting was "perfect" timing.

I'd help her pick her kids up from school on the military base that her husband was current working at. Everyone had to know.

We went on trip together for a weekend just us to a beach resort in the town I grew up in. She was an ace away from meeting my parents but I decided not to then.

That's all I got for now. There is more I need to get it all in order another time.

Never been religious really but she made me question if there really is a greater plan, a god, and really the one.
 
pahick said:
I left my hometown 4 hrs away to be with a woman who I ended up being engaged to. 16 yrs ago last month she threw me out. When I came back home I didnt know what to do the first week. 2nd week I banged everything in sight. And I mean everything! I felt like less a man when she didnt want me or to fix what we had. I had to prove that I was a man, a man someone wanted, if even for a night.

When I met this one, she had little kids, 2-6. I was an instant dad. Their real dad lived down the road about 20 minutes away, but he didnt want them except for every other weekend, and even then theyd be crying cause "dad" didnt do anything but drink and watch tv...send them upstairs so he could watch the game in peace. I was gonna fuck him up, but my ex fiancee didnt want me to do that, cause trouble. So I bit my tongue for 4 yrs. I became their dad. Not at first. One of the kids had a hard time with me being their "new" dad. But eventually, right before I left for the last time, that kid bawled his eyes out knowing he'd never see me again. Its so hard when kids are involved. whether they are yours or not.

Over the years I watched them grow. Mainly through social media. First, the oldest graduated and had a kid of his own. Then the middle kid, she graduated, and just last year had her own child. The last kid has troubles, doesnt fit in the crowd so to speak like the others. I suspect its because he had so many "dads" through the years. You see, after I left my ex fiancee moved someone else in 3 weeks later. Someone she picked up at a bar. They eventually married, and 6 months later got divorced.

When she got divorced who do you think she called? Me. "Besides my kids you were the best thing that ever happened to me...." Ya, that fucked me up, and almost had me wanting to head back to her. But something in my head said no dont do it. She kept in contact, flirting, for another 3 weeks or so, then out of the blue....nothing. Eventually I checked her social media and saw she was with a new man. They ended up getting married. She was with him for, oh man I cant remember right, maybe 5 years. Then one day I get a call. Yup, you guessed it...."Besides my kids you were the best thing that ever happened to me....". By this point i was already "over her". Meaning I wasnt in love with her anymore. I will always love her, but not in love if you can understand that.

I think it was 2-3 years ago she got married to another man. Older than her by 15 yrs or so. (I was 6 yrs older than her). I got one last call from her. It wasnt the same old BS line. This time she just wanted to see how I was, and mainly kept talking about me and her new husband, how much alike us "older" guys were. She seemed happy, and is still with him to this day.

I know im writing a book here, and theres many more chapters believe me, good and bad. But I wanted to you all to know this really sucked. For me. I stayed single for most of the time. Fucking one whenever the need arose, which was more often than ill admit. But it was part of me moving on.

I dont know what you believe in. God(I do) or some other higher power. Im not gonna go all religious on y'all. But just know we're all on a journey, and im actually happy this woman above is happy in her journey. It wasnt until I realized we're all on a journey, and we're not always gonna be on the same path, that I could "mourn" the loss of a friend and actually move on. Experiencing happiness for myself.

Its ok to reminisce about the past. Hell its ok to flirt with the notion of what could be. But its never ok to constantly dwell on what would or could have been. Youre only holding yourself back. Again, remember, its ok to stop along your journey, take a break, sit on an old log and catch your breath. But your journey is waiting. You cant go back. Lifes too short to allow that.

Never compare your life to anothers. Dont ever let the "she won" mentality set in. This is YOUR race. Be happy for what youve been through, who you are now, what you have to offer, and let the world see you for all you are. Your journey isnt finished. And theres someone out there waiting on you to compliment their journey.

Sorry so long, but I hope I made someone, anyone, think. Its time. Get after it. Peace!
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After that huge book, it’s hard to respond to everything and I don’t think I could if I tried.

I’ll say this though: I’m glad you’re free of her bro. She’s definitely no good for you and really anyone, because she’s broken and needs healing. I feel the most for the kids, because they didn’t ask for this crap.

I was married to the same woman for more than half my life (married young, too young). We recently divorced and I still feel for her. I am not in love with her, but I love her, so I totally know the feeling. I still feel the need to take care of her because it was my duty for more than half my life. She still has this wild idea that we’ll get back together some day.
 
Villain said:
She still has this wild idea that we’ll get back together some day.
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Thats not your problem. Its hers. Shes not your problem anymore. That doesnt sound good and im not trying to disrespect you, or her. But its the truth. Whats done is done. Can your past be your future? I used to wonder about that. Id be a fool if didnt admit I still think that sometimes. But its false hope. Just a dream we have when we're not sure where the roads leading us. Whatever comes along our way, we have to deal with it. How we deal with it is individual to each of us. We will make mistakes, and I think going back is a mistake. No matter what happens, we'll all get to our destination eventually. Some sooner than others.
 
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K1ngufk1ngs said:
Just that one girl(or whoever you loved no discrimination) who changed everything for you. But for whatever reason it didn't work out.
Like have that one person who if you could have one more chance with you would take it?
I know the idea of only one is dumb to alot. But I will say there are very few.
But I know for me there is someone out there I may never get to talk to ever again. And it tears me up inside. Makes it worse I can't even share my favorite parts of life with them like I used to. Even just friends would be nice.
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Helllllllll no brotha!!!!! That's a fucking Disney fairy tale. Do you know how many pussies there are in this world to fuck? Every single night? Dude, I don't have the time to invest in fucking these pussies. I have to fucking work. I have to go to the gym. I have kiddos.

There isn't enough time for me to fuck these pussies. That is why I keep my conversations with girls I want to fuck straight and to the point. When are we going to fuck? What time works best for you? Deep down, girls want a guy who is too busy for them. They respect that you want to fuck and get straight to the point. You are a working guy. You've got things to do. They will want to keep prying for more and more of your time. Women always want what they can't get.

There are 10 different women right this second who you would have a great time with and would top the experience you had with the one you're talking about. Always look forward. Don't get stuck in fairy tale land. Leave that for the movies.
 
K1ngufk1ngs said:
She had 2 special needs kids. The oldest was and he loved to talk almost too much. Definitely too much lol. But good kid none the less. Middle kid fine but caught in the middle of the others for many reasons. Youngest was starting speech therapy at 3yr old. I tried to not really interact because I was not thier dad. Felt it was the most respectful thing I could do....since I was banging his wife everywhere everyway every other day and taking his family away. Not proud of that part but I tell myself if it wasn't me it would of been someone else. What if it was someone who would of hurt any of them. At least I knew I cared alot. She wanted out of the relationship anyway us meeting was "perfect" timing.

I'd help her pick her kids up from school on the military base that her husband was current working at. Everyone had to know.

We went on trip together for a weekend just us to a beach resort in the town I grew up in. She was an ace away from meeting my parents but I decided not to then.

That's all I got for now. There is more I need to get it all in order another time.

Never been religious really but she made me question if there really is a greater plan, a god, and really the one.
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Bro. This is just TripleTren talking. Take it or leave it....

But thank your lucky stars that you didn't get involved with that. Taking on her 3 kids? Holy shit. I would never get involved in that. You are FREE. Do you want to enslave yourself? Also, people change. SHE will change. I promise you. It's great in the honeymoon stage, but after that, people's true colors come out.

We need to start teaching these women that they shouldn't leave their husbands when they have 3 kids! If they want to fuck their own life up, and their kids life up, by leaving their husbands, they aren't going to be highly valued when they are a single mom with 3 kids. Fuck that bros. You need LESS baggage, not more.
 
TrenTrenTren said:
Bro. This is just TripleTren talking. Take it or leave it....

But thank your lucky stars that you didn't get involved with that. Taking on her 3 kids? Holy shit. I would never get involved in that. You are FREE. Do you want to enslave yourself? Also, people change. SHE will change. I promise you. It's great in the honeymoon stage, but after that, people's true colors come out.

We need to start teaching these women that they shouldn't leave their husbands when they have 3 kids! If they want to fuck their own life up, and their kids life up, by leaving their husbands, they aren't going to be highly valued when they are a single mom with 3 kids. Fuck that bros. You need LESS baggage, not more.
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Yes and no.
I think when you have the right person it will make you willing to do anything.
Maybe for some it seems disney fairytale. And yeah life has a way to throw curveball. But I don't think it's impossible I think too many people either settle or tell themselves it isn't possible. People looking to hard to find it when it may have already been there or it only comes when your ready.

Kids would of been nothing to deter me. That's not fair to my heart or hers. "Yeah I think you are amazing but I don't want the burden of your kids" that just seems selfish and should never be a consideration for anyone who does want a real relationship. I knew a guy who wanted to get rid of his gf cause she may have cancer.

I def know how much is out there every night. It doesn't interest me. Plus I'm also 33 now with 3 kids. Not fair to be a hypocrit from my perspective
 
1tank1 said:
Do you realise that some (most) guys want more from a woman than just a quick cheap fuck?

I understand that you like being a stud and fucking sluts but it's a shallow/empty life that not many guys want or aspire to aim for.
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Hes a boy in a mans body, reaching for attention. Period, end of story.
 
pahick said:
Fuckin A right! That shit dont sit well with me. If he was someone I knew he'd see the worst part of me real quick if I knew about it. :mad:
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Dude if it wasn't crazy illegal I'd do more. That's the tame part of him being a dick. Like I know where he lives everything but can't do anything. He went to jail for hiding a camera in a women's public restroom at the trailerpark he lives in and he still lives there.
 
K1ngufk1ngs said:
Dude if it wasn't crazy illegal I'd do more. That's the tame part of him being a dick. Like I know where he lives everything but can't do anything. He went to jail for hiding a camera in a women's public restroom at the trailerpark he lives in and he still lives there.
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Im not gonna say a whole lot more about this situation cause I dont want y'all to think less of me. But this problem would be solved. Bank on it.
 
1tank1 said:
Do you realise that some (most) guys want more from a woman than just a quick cheap fuck?

I understand that you like being a stud and fucking sluts but it's a shallow/empty life that not many guys want or aspire to aim for.
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It's 2022. Not every woman who wants to have sex is a slut. I don't bang sluts anyway brotha. The girl I fucked twice today has only had sex with 3 guys in her lifetime.
 
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