Can't cycle anymore and throwing it all away seems wrong

[Dr JIM]

Some on this thread will look back and realize theres a reason cyclists are a insignificant minority in today’s world, and I pity those who believe or contend a life wo gear is no life at all.

After all the learned use of PEDs is done on purely elective basis rather than out of necessity, and that which is learned can be unlearned.

And the most reliable means of discontinuing what often becomes a habit forming practice such as PEDs, is to disassociate oneself from the world of users altogether.

Jim

 

[Sk8man101]

I would..half that stuff I can't get my hands on

Half that stuff you can’t get your hands on? Why?

 

[Cityofgrit]

Half that stuff you can’t get your hands on? Why?

Oh Primo of the Gods you have to be selected to buy from and 24K Pharma isn't doing his thing anymore

 

[MisterSuperGod]

Oh Primo of the Gods you have to be selected to buy from and 24K Pharma isn't doing his thing anymore

They got their raws from China, just like every other bathtub brewer out there. You aren't missing anything much different from what you have now, other than a well known name.

 

[Cityofgrit]

They got their raws from China, just like every other bathtub brewer out there. You aren't missing anything much different from what you have now, other than a well known name.

True, it's probably just that feeling of not being able to get it, so you want it lol

 

[wedorecover]

24 k was good but like @MisterSuperGod said just a name well and a good business man .. i still have half a bottle of his test e

 

[ickyrica]

And the most reliable means of discontinuing what often becomes a habit forming practice such as PEDs, is to disassociate oneself from the world of users altogether

lol, just like any other addiction

 

[Bigboy727]

Damn Big boy, that is awful young to lose TWO smokers in the same immediately family, even though they were smokers. That's awful, man. Sorry to hear that.

Just curious, were they in otherwise decent health (other than their smoking), or did they have other health issues contributing to their early deaths?

The reason I ask is that I am assuming that there were other health issues involved. Maybe cardiac issues? And if so, are you monitoring your own health as it relates to any hereditary risks that may be of concern to you as an AAS user whose parents both passed so young?

Thanks for that. My mom developed a tumor on her lung and the surgeon hit her chest/lung wall and caused internal bleeding so they closed her up. Ended up making the cancer spread. She was dead 27 days later. It was supposed to be an in and out procedure.
My dad got lymphoma and got ARDS from a cold and his lungs wouldn’t repair themselves. His heart hung in there for 45 days till it shut down.
We actually joke around about the Xxxxx curse because everyone lives so long in my family. Unfortunately my parents weren’t one of them. I was 23 when my mom died. I don’t want to leave my son early. I chose to the health route. Hope I am doing more good than harm. I don’t take high doses of shit and try to keep my health as #1. Thanks for the kind words.

 

[ickyrica]

Some real deal talk on meso today.

 

[Oldschool]

Really real. Head up @Bigboy727
They watching you so make them proud.

 

[DedLift]

I've been telling myself that I'm not an addict because I stopped using drugs and became a bodybuilder again. Truth is, I simply replaced one with another... I may not be doing any opiates at the moment, but I absolutely became addicted to aas. It wasn't enough to just use legal supplements, no, I had to take it to the extreme like the addict I am and pin test, mast, etc...Took me almost a year to regain my sex drive and feel normal again. The lows when I came off lasted just as long as the good feeling I had when I was on and then some. I was still being an addict, just with peds instead of drugs.
The desire to go back to using again was almost uncontrollable when I came off. I was a total a-hole to my people and almost dragged a dude out of his car one day before work because he honked his horn at me.

I'm not saying that aas can't be used responsibly, I'm simply asking for the addicts who now cycle to be honest with themselves and be ready to deal with coming off. It can be enough to take you right back out there again. Real talk

 

[Bigboy727]

I've been telling myself that I'm not an addict because I stopped using drugs and became a bodybuilder again. Truth is, I simply replaced one with another... I may not be doing any opiates at the moment, but I absolutely became addicted to aas. It wasn't enough to just use legal supplements, no, I had to take it to the extreme like the addict I am and pin test, mast, etc...Took me almost a year to regain my sex drive and feel normal again. The lows when I came off lasted just as long as the good feeling I had when I was on and then some. I was still being an addict, just with peds instead of drugs.
The desire to go back to using again was almost uncontrollable when I came off. I was a total a-hole to my people and almost dragged a dude out of his car one day before work because he honked his horn at me.

I'm not saying that aas can't be used responsibly, I'm simply asking for the addicts who now cycle to be honest with themselves and be ready to deal with coming off. It can be enough to take you right back out there again. Real talk

It’s amazing how many are in your boat. How long were you on for?

 

[Cityofgrit]

I've been telling myself that I'm not an addict because I stopped using drugs and became a bodybuilder again. Truth is, I simply replaced one with another... I may not be doing any opiates at the moment, but I absolutely became addicted to aas. It wasn't enough to just use legal supplements, no, I had to take it to the extreme like the addict I am and pin test, mast, etc...Took me almost a year to regain my sex drive and feel normal again. The lows when I came off lasted just as long as the good feeling I had when I was on and then some. I was still being an addict, just with peds instead of drugs.
The desire to go back to using again was almost uncontrollable when I came off. I was a total a-hole to my people and almost dragged a dude out of his car one day before work because he honked his horn at me.

I'm not saying that aas can't be used responsibly, I'm simply asking for the addicts who now cycle to be honest with themselves and be ready to deal with coming off. It can be enough to take you right back out there again. Real talk

Amen brother. I'm an addict in recovery and I've been questioning myself lately. Im not slammin meth anymore...but I'm pinning Tren and Test and popping Dbol...sure I look better but could I just toss my stash and be ok. I've been asking myself that.

 

[MisterSuperGod]

i don't think it's the addictive nature within a recovering addict that translates to AAS, but the obsessive nature that comes into play.

While i used to be the kind of guy that needed to take something (narcotics) every single day, multiple times per day, i certainly don't need to pin or take orals every single day, because i'm not addicted to AAS, neither psychologically nor physically, like i was with drugs.

Despite AAS users being classified as "drug users" we're a minority. Unlike those that use drugs for the sole purpose of escaping reality, we're using them in order to reach a positive, non destructive goal.

i'm rambling and losing track of my initial point due to tiredness, but to sum it up, i don't see the two as being even remotely the same, at least not in my eyes any way.

 

[DedLift]

It’s amazing how many are in your boat. How long were you on for?

I only cycled 3 or 4 times with at least 6 months between each. I'm a very laid-back guy so for me to get all bent out of shape isn't normal

 

[Titanup2day]

@DedLift hope you are feeling better fella. Been there could b lots of different things . Good luck in getting back

 

[DedLift]

i don't think it's the addictive nature within a recovering addict that translates to AAS, but the obsessive nature that comes into play.

While i used to be the kind of guy that needed to take something (narcotics) every single day, multiple times per day, i certainly don't need to pin or take orals every single day, because i'm not addicted to AAS, neither psychologically nor physically, like i was with drugs.

Despite AAS users being classified as "drug users" we're a minority. Unlike those that use drugs for the sole purpose of escaping reality, we're using them in order to reach a positive, non destructive goal.

i'm rambling and losing track of my initial point due to tiredness, but to sum it up, i don't see the two as being even remotely the same, at least not in my eyes any way.

It's not something that you can place a blanket statement on. Maybe you aren't addicted to AAS but neither was I. It was simply me substituting drugs for something else that I could tell myself was healthier than the alternative. However, if I'm to be completely honest with myself, I had to take something to supplement my workout and It's just another example of me taking anything I do to an extreme. I didn't have to use steroids but once I got it in my head, I was like a kid at Christmas and went bananas. I bought enough to last me years just because I could. As much as idI love to blast and cruise, I won't unless my tests come back low and my PCP puts me on trt.
If that happens, I will absolutely make it a part of my life again. If I'm good, I will put it to the side.

Not an easy thing to do but I am an addict and I refuse to lie to myself. I had 5 years clean and I relapsed and almost lost everything this past year and I just got married and finally built my house. I came unhinged when I stopped my last cycle. Crazy I know but there it is

 

[ickyrica]

It's not something that you can place a blanket statement on. Maybe you aren't addicted to AAS but neither was I. It was simply me substituting drugs for something else that I could tell myself was healthier than the alternative. However, if I'm to be completely honest with myself, I had to take something to supplement my workout and It's just another example of me taking anything I do to an extreme. I didn't have to use steroids but once I got it in my head, I was like a kid at Christmas and went bananas. I bought enough to last me years just because I could. As much as idI love to blast and cruise, I won't unless my tests come back low and my PCP puts me on trt.
If that happens, I will absolutely make it a part of my life again. If I'm good, I will put it to the side.

Not an easy thing to do but I am an addict and I refuse to lie to myself. I had 5 years clean and I relapsed and almost lost everything this past year and I just got married and finally built my house. I came unhinged when I stopped my last cycle. Crazy I know but there it is

Take a strong man to be honest with himself and make change. Knowing the issue isn't the tough part, fixing it is. If that's the way you feel bro, I applaud you. Rodger that went drug free because if a girl, I applaud that too.

 

[MisterSuperGod]

It's not something that you can place a blanket statement on. Maybe you aren't addicted to AAS but neither was I. It was simply me substituting drugs for something else that I could tell myself was healthier than the alternative. However, if I'm to be completely honest with myself, I had to take something to supplement my workout and It's just another example of me taking anything I do to an extreme. I didn't have to use steroids but once I got it in my head, I was like a kid at Christmas and went bananas. I bought enough to last me years just because I could. As much as idI love to blast and cruise, I won't unless my tests come back low and my PCP puts me on trt.
If that happens, I will absolutely make it a part of my life again. If I'm good, I will put it to the side.

Not an easy thing to do but I am an addict and I refuse to lie to myself. I had 5 years clean and I relapsed and almost lost everything this past year and I just got married and finally built my house. I came unhinged when I stopped my last cycle. Crazy I know but there it is

Believe me, i understand what you're saying. My post was more of an opinion piece, with my own experiences in mind.

i'm happy to hear you're the one in control now and have proved it with your choices. We both know how easy it is to think we have control, even when we're going off the deep end with things.