Do you hallucinate or have been?

[Hayes88]

Time to be a little cray cray!

I have since adult age started to hallucinate from time to time, I would think it has been going on for 10 years
now back and forth, but lately it has become extremely realistic.
It's always in the night of course before sleep stage, so it does correlate to night terrors or hypnagogic, but I am
fully awake and fully mobile which is the scary part.

I even smacked my girlfriend when she slept with a pillow because I saw a huge spider on her face, that was
not popular....
She knows I see stuff and she is somewhat religious, so luckily she stays.

The hallucinations are never auditory, but I can sense, feel and see. So in the case of the spider above, when he
took steps I could actually see the damn sheet getting pushed down under it's legs, so it's not just a shadow if that makes sense.

Now I have started to see people and shadows, more and more detailed. They are never malicious, just being there,
walking/ flowing around or sitting looking at you. This freaked me out extremely in the beginning, but now I am kinda
used to it and see what they do until I get bored and fall asleep.

Now me personally am a non-believer, but I have an open mind to learn about things we don't understand.
If it's spiritual or mental I cannot say, but if it's mental I am worried it might get worse and affect my life, that mean
sleep quality, reactions that are unwarranted, fear, or whatever.
I prefer to not become the crazy cat lady in Simpsons...

I did talk with someone regarding this is the past and they pushed it as stress which of course it can be, but it happens
even when all is fine.
I do not wanna eat pills, more hope to understand it.

Anyone of you with similar experiences or knowledge?

 

[Footfetishguy]

You should see a doctor before your delusions cause you to harm someone

 

[JesterBOB]

You should see a doctor before your delusions cause you to harm someone

I join you, the author must definitely and urgently contact a specialized doctor.

 

[hudson98]

not reading that, go get on meds. you need to be medicated or are a troll, or both

 

[Doodle]

Time to be a little cray cray!

I have since adult age started to hallucinate from time to time, I would think it has been going on for 10 years
now back and forth, but lately it has become extremely realistic.
It's always in the night of course before sleep stage, so it does correlate to night terrors or hypnagogic, but I am
fully awake and fully mobile which is the scary part.

I even smacked my girlfriend when she slept with a pillow because I saw a huge spider on her face, that was
not popular....
She knows I see stuff and she is somewhat religious, so luckily she stays.

The hallucinations are never auditory, but I can sense, feel and see. So in the case of the spider above, when he
took steps I could actually see the damn sheet getting pushed down under it's legs, so it's not just a shadow if that makes sense.

Now I have started to see people and shadows, more and more detailed. They are never malicious, just being there,
walking/ flowing around or sitting looking at you. This freaked me out extremely in the beginning, but now I am kinda
used to it and see what they do until I get bored and fall asleep.

Now me personally am a non-believer, but I have an open mind to learn about things we don't understand.
If it's spiritual or mental I cannot say, but if it's mental I am worried it might get worse and affect my life, that mean
sleep quality, reactions that are unwarranted, fear, or whatever.
I prefer to not become the crazy cat lady in Simpsons...

I did talk with someone regarding this is the past and they pushed it as stress which of course it can be, but it happens
even when all is fine.
I do not wanna eat pills, more hope to understand it.

Anyone of you with similar experiences or knowledge?

You need to seek help as soon as possible. This isn’t something you should shrug your shoulders at. You’ve already physically hit your partner. Very few people will have an experience like yours. You need to talk to a psychiatrist. The hallucinations can quickly become sinister and you might react in a negative and dangerous way.

 

[PogO]

Time to be a little cray cray!

I have since adult age started to hallucinate from time to time, I would think it has been going on for 10 years
now back and forth, but lately it has become extremely realistic.
It's always in the night of course before sleep stage, so it does correlate to night terrors or hypnagogic, but I am
fully awake and fully mobile which is the scary part.

I even smacked my girlfriend when she slept with a pillow because I saw a huge spider on her face, that was
not popular....
She knows I see stuff and she is somewhat religious, so luckily she stays.

The hallucinations are never auditory, but I can sense, feel and see. So in the case of the spider above, when he
took steps I could actually see the damn sheet getting pushed down under it's legs, so it's not just a shadow if that makes sense.

Now I have started to see people and shadows, more and more detailed. They are never malicious, just being there,
walking/ flowing around or sitting looking at you. This freaked me out extremely in the beginning, but now I am kinda
used to it and see what they do until I get bored and fall asleep.

Now me personally am a non-believer, but I have an open mind to learn about things we don't understand.
If it's spiritual or mental I cannot say, but if it's mental I am worried it might get worse and affect my life, that mean
sleep quality, reactions that are unwarranted, fear, or whatever.
I prefer to not become the crazy cat lady in Simpsons...

I did talk with someone regarding this is the past and they pushed it as stress which of course it can be, but it happens
even when all is fine.
I do not wanna eat pills, more hope to understand it.

Anyone of you with similar experiences or knowledge?

oh so youre the mexican guy with the banana and peacock feathers on the bed, lol.
hes a mexican rich kid. aint that right OP? youre rich as fuck i bet you have access to all the drugs, i wonder how many bodyguards you have at your compound

 

[Hayes88]

You need to seek help as soon as possible. This isn’t something you should shrug your shoulders at. You’ve already physically hit your partner. Very few people will have an experience like yours. You need to talk to a psychiatrist. The hallucinations can quickly become sinister and you might react in a negative and dangerous way.

I did when that happened, and that particular situation is 6 years now, but I agree with you, it did shock me and her. Since then it hasn't happened and the hallucinations let go, but it has started to come back again.

In my case now I am not "scared" anymore and react calmly since I know I am hallucinating. It's a freaky feeling since you cannot talk about it without people thinking you are mental (which it can be yes), and you cannot seek help since the process is extreme and end up with pills to sleep, pills which affect daily life when you are not hallucinating as well. So the help is not for you, it's for other people and that makes the feeling worse.

Now luckily I have it under control, but I am trying to understand it. I have friends who are into deeper meanings, ayahuasca, keys and doors to other dimensions etc. They go the "understand the triggers" rather than "fear them". I am keen to read about it more to understand it and beat it rather than avoid it by masking it with pills.

However, it seems to be common and it seems to be stress induced for most, just that no one talks about it. More common ones are shadows (kids especially has this brain situation as most of us remember), and many sleep with their lights on, night terrors are very common but happens to each individual rareley.

An interesting part however is that when I talk about these things with westernes you are crazy, when I talk about it in Asia you go pray, when I talk about it in South America you meet a shaman. Some countries it's a mental disorder, others it's a sign, communication, demon, etc etc.

But I do appreciate the sincere answer Doodle, I am leaning towards the same worry.

 

[ImHereForBothReasons]

since I know I am hallucinating.

Some countries it's a mental disorder, others it's a sign, communication, demon, etc etc.

Please see a licensed psychiatrist and also begin talk therapy with a licensed therapist. I have several friends with schizophrenia and other disorders. The ones that seek medical and psychological help do the best. The ones that don’t start going down the path I already see you leaning into. That there is deeper meaning, spiritual contact, etc, and they DO NOT fair well.

Those under treatment live good lives, with occasional episodes. It comes and goes. It’s nothing to fuck around with. Being treated and prepared is the only way to be the man you and your loved ones deserve. It won’t be easy or perfect, but it’s far better than one day waking up believing the thoughts are from God, or Satan, or aliens and murdering your family.

My first tattoo is a semicolon. I got it on the anniversary of the death of my best friend. He avoided treatment so that he wouldn’t loose his clearance. I got it at the same time that his widow and daughter got theirs. He heard voices and saw things. Raped his wife in front of his kid, then shot him self in the head in their living room. Don’t go this alone.

 

[Hayes88]

Please see a licensed psychiatrist and also begin talk therapy with a licensed therapist. I have several friends with schizophrenia and other disorders. The ones that seek medical and psychological help do the best. The ones that don’t start going down the path I already see you leaning into. That there is deeper meaning, spiritual contact, etc, and they DO NOT fair well.

Those under treatment live good lives, with occasional episodes. It comes and goes. It’s nothing to fuck around with. Being treated and prepared is the only way to be the man you and your loved ones deserve. It won’t be easy or perfect, but it’s far better than one day waking up believing the thoughts are from God, or Satan, or aliens and murdering your family.

My first tattoo is a semicolon. I got it on the anniversary of the death of my best friend. He avoided treatment so that he wouldn’t loose his clearance. I got it at the same time that his widow and daughter got theirs. He heard voices and saw things. Raped his wife in front of his kid, then shot him self in the head in their living room. Don’t go this alone.

Horrible horrible read, so sorry to hear that, and thank you for sharing it. I have friends in similar cases, while not hurting others, they sincerely hurt themselves, but all of them are on drugs and seek more drugs, while I avoid it. However, I won't dismiss that it can't get worse for me and if that would fall on other people to handle I would never forgive myself.

I cannot for the world of me understand where it comes from, I never had it before adult age and as a kid my life was way way more stressful. It's clear mine comes from trauma and not letting it out for the entire duration of life, that I know, but I wonder how it can induce so realistic situations.

I have talked to people several times, but not much about this since it can have a "pause" of a year or two before coming back again. It ruins sleep which makes it worse.
Two days ago I had it extremely vividly, yesterday I didn't have it at all.

I am open with my current girl regarding this and I even read this thread to her, so I won't hide it, but it does help get experiences and knowledge from others since it's a rather un-talked about problem.

 

[ImHereForBothReasons]

not much about this since it can have a "pause" of a year or two before coming back again.

That exactly how it works. It seems to have gone away. These types of issues usually start around 25 years old. They seem to come and go. You’ll convince yourself you beat it. Then it will come back.
It will become more subtle at times. You’ll learn to make excuses, to think it’s normal.

At the end of the day, what do you lose by seeking professional help. By sticking to it?

Best case is you have a great life and benefit from good coaching and therapy that we could all use in this fucked up world. And you’ll be prepared for the wanrning signs of hallucinations and intrusive thoughts.

Get ahead of this while you still can. Don’t let this take over.

 

[lukiss96]

Only time I did was on some hard party drugs, I don't do them anymore. I used to sometimes at 18-19. It's been long time ago. OP I doubt this is normal what you're experiencing, but I also have a feeling that you just wrote bunch of BS honestly for laughs.

 

[Hayes88]

Only time I did was on some hard party drugs, I don't do them anymore. I used to sometimes at 18-19. It's been long time ago. OP I doubt this is normal what you're experiencing, but I also have a feeling that you just wrote bunch of BS honestly for laughs.

Never hallucinated on drugs weirdly enough, maybe some outlines of colors and lights on existing trees and environment, but not like some has experienced. And regarding the BS, no I wish, I do agree that I wrote the pillow thing in a casual sense, but everything is true. I tend to lean towards humor as often as I can to see the positive in things, but I am also brutally honest (at least from what I've heard).

Shadows was the beginning, just the typical passing by stuff that you see in dark corners, just something I ignored.
But the detailed stuff has become way worse.
It might be (guessing) because I don't get scared anymore, so I focus more, and my brain outline what I want to see or miss.
Kinda like the brain test pictures where you can see a dog face on a tigers body etc.

 

[Kdubswoldgier]

The mind is a very strong thing. Lots of people prolly have something close to what you experienced with your 1st 'hallucination' and wrote it off to a malfunction with the eyes or that you were partly asleep. But since you took so keenly to it now your looking for more occurrences. Black spots can happen in 1s vision (something to do with rods or cones in back of eye ) and the human mind and 1 with your strong imagination can make it out to be anything. Or maybe you have a gift to see spirits. I know I've fallen thru my kitchen ceiling bc was chasing people in the attic (can't see that kind of stuff I was out of my mind at the time)
So think what you want... Just don't let your journey to figure out your special gift take away from priorities (maybe try church.. bc if it's a gift what's the point if such gift). But I'm crazy as well so thought I'd share

 

[JesterBOB]

Only time I did was on some hard party drugs, I don't do them anymore. I used to sometimes at 18-19. It's been long time ago. OP I doubt this is normal what you're experiencing, but I also have a feeling that you just wrote bunch of BS honestly for laughs.

I think he's just trolling us.

 

[Pineapples4Puss]

I did when that happened, and that particular situation is 6 years now, but I agree with you, it did shock me and her. Since then it hasn't happened and the hallucinations let go, but it has started to come back again.

In my case now I am not "scared" anymore and react calmly since I know I am hallucinating. It's a freaky feeling since you cannot talk about it without people thinking you are mental (which it can be yes), and you cannot seek help since the process is extreme and end up with pills to sleep, pills which affect daily life when you are not hallucinating as well. So the help is not for you, it's for other people and that makes the feeling worse.

Now luckily I have it under control, but I am trying to understand it. I have friends who are into deeper meanings, ayahuasca, keys and doors to other dimensions etc. They go the "understand the triggers" rather than "fear them". I am keen to read about it more to understand it and beat it rather than avoid it by masking it with pills.

However, it seems to be common and it seems to be stress induced for most, just that no one talks about it. More common ones are shadows (kids especially has this brain situation as most of us remember), and many sleep with their lights on, night terrors are very common but happens to each individual rareley.

An interesting part however is that when I talk about these things with westernes you are crazy, when I talk about it in Asia you go pray, when I talk about it in South America you meet a shaman. Some countries it's a mental disorder, others it's a sign, communication, demon, etc etc.

But I do appreciate the sincere answer Doodle, I am leaning towards the same worry.

If you’re hallucinating there is no telling how you will react in any moment because you’re obviously unstable in some capacity.

Fact of the matter is you have something fucked up and may infact be crazy. Not that it’s a bad thing. But it very well can be and most likely will end up being a situation that could have been prevented.

This isn’t a common thing or a normal thing. Little kids are afraid of the dark and monsters under their bed. That doesn’t mean they seen hallucinations.


I actually experienced hallucinations because of medication I was on when I was 6-8 years old? Around there. and it is not the same as a little kid being afraid of the dark.

 

[Hayes88]

The mind is a very strong thing. Lots of people prolly have something close to what you experienced with your 1st 'hallucination' and wrote it off to a malfunction with the eyes or that you were partly asleep. But since you took so keenly to it now your looking for more occurrences. Black spots can happen in 1s vision (something to do with rods or cones in back of eye ) and the human mind and 1 with your strong imagination can make it out to be anything. Or maybe you have a gift to see spirits. I know I've fallen thru my kitchen ceiling bc was chasing people in the attic (can't see that kind of stuff I was out of my mind at the time)
So think what you want... Just don't let your journey to figure out your special gift take away from priorities (maybe try church.. bc if it's a gift what's the point if such gift). But I'm crazy as well so thought I'd share

Thank you for sharing man! The last few days has been better, was close to having an episode but willingly pushed it away and it helped to fall asleep. I also talked with the girl and let her read the thread since I don't want her to react poorly to my mess, but she simply says she knows me and have no worries whatsoever, which helps calm one down.

Regarding spirits or whatever one might lean towards, I do keep an open mind there and I am interested, but I also agree past posts that it's a dangerous game to play. I personally believe there is a big jump from seeing things to shooting someone. While I do understand that the worry is there since some has experienced crazy people (including me) and seen what they are capable of while rationalizing crazy, the extremely low % of anything bad happening is in the decimals. Me hitting my old girl with a pillow seeing a spider is something that could equally be a normal reaction since spiders do exist here. That doesn't mean I would mentally make my girl an intruder from a nightmare and shoot her. In that case most nightmares would end very poorly for the one next to, since nightmares can become extremely realistic.

But I do need help in many regards, been battling with stuff since a kid and while I am 100 times better from actively solving my own issues, I still have stuff that will never go away - ptsd kind of stuff. I do love honesty, I don't think hiding stuff is healthy and while some might think I am a lunatic, I rather be called that and improve myself or someone else, than ignore it from fear what others might think.

 

[JesterBOB]

If you’re hallucinating there is no telling how you will react in any moment because you’re obviously unstable in some capacity.

Fact of the matter is you have something fucked up and may infact be crazy. Not that it’s a bad thing. But it very well can be and most likely will end up being a situation that could have been prevented.

This isn’t a common thing or a normal thing. Little kids are afraid of the dark and monsters under their bed. That doesn’t mean they seen hallucinations.


I actually experienced hallucinations because of medication I was on when I was 6-8 years old? Around there. and it is not the same as a little kid being afraid of the dark.

I think trying to find a solution on the pages of this thread with such a problem is not true, the most correct thing is to consult a doctor. It will help you more efficiently and quickly.

 

[PrimoBowling]

You need to be institutionalized

 

[Nilatac]

That's sounds like schizophrenia. Go see a doctor and take a treatment. 10% of them kill themselves
Don't know how old you are but this is starting around middle twenties and only get worse by time not better.

 

[Hayes88]

schizophrenia does sound like it, maybe a version of it since most mental disorders has a huge span (been working in that field). Example autism which can be completely normal more or less to extremely incapable.

In the same time, it says schizophrenia affect 1 in 100 people, so in that case many on this board has it to some degree lol

It also states that most schizophrenia will not be treated and most have random episodes that last days or weeks, rarely months (sounds like me). Some might experience a few times in their entire lifetime and some has the need of life-time treatment.

I will definitely keep my eye on it, even since talking to a board of stangers rarely lead to much than funny punchlines, I still feel way better and episodes has subsided. I started to actively not indulge in the episodes due to curiosity and that has helped. I gotta admit that I have been worse at handling stress these last few years since I am reponsible for the livelyhood of hundreds besides my own personal issues.

Talking helps regardless of what you receive, thank you guys, and I recommend ALL with anything to do the same. Non is alone battling sh*t, we just gotta stop feeling ashamed and filter the good from the bad.