No offense man, but your posts are almost like a women telling us about her troubles.You seem to have a hard time with reading comprehension, so actually fuck it. I'll just ignore you. Usually I'll reply without any ill intent but since you wish death on me and more, I hope you deal with something you can't imagine, but I also hope you will come back from it. Taking medications as prescribed is not being an addict, thanks for listening to my TED talk. If you followed the timeline as well, there was no malicious/scamming intent involved.
No one gives a shit about our personal life.
A customer puts in an order you fill that order, if you don't have the ability to fill the order you immediately tell them not to send money until you get it instock. That's just how business is done.
If I had ever fucked up at work(and I didn't), and was asked into the office and told them my life story they would have told me to stop being a fuck or they would have just fired me.
Life is hard, people are rude and nasty, they're down right assholes and it's getting worse and worse. However the last thing you want in life is to tell people about your personal problems when conducting business. Just fill the orders and keep it all quality.
You're a raw supplier, so order shit loads of raws, have them in stock and ready to ship. Keep your inventory up to date so the customer knows what you have on hand and don't take money for anything until you have it in stock and ready to ship. That's not that hard.
That said you're gonna have a hard time competing with PPL and DO as they both have a domestic reshipper $50.