Until almost 6 years ago, i have spent the majority of my life as an atheist. To me, God may have well been the Easter Bunny or Santa Claus...A bunch of make believe..Today however, I believe whole heartedly in God..I can pray all I want, but if I don't do some leg work nothing will change. Can i prove God's existence to you? Probably not. In my own experience though, since coming to believe; I am happier, kinder, and finally at peace with myself and the world around me. We are given free will to do as we choose. Some people will use that will and do terrible things and God will not prevent that. There was an investigative reporter named Lee Strobel who tried to disprove God's existence, he couldn't. A movie was made from his book called The Case for Christ. Maybe give it a look, it is a really good movie. I'm not trying to preach to you or change your mind, sorry if I come,off that way. Good luck on your journey and maybe try to at least keep an open mind