I’m not talking about your physicality. You’re a little man emotionally. You live on a playground still. Threatened and frightened. It’s why you lift. It’s why you post this way. To make up for your deficit. It’s quite plain and obvious.
I mean. I never really thought of it that way. You’re right, on the outside I’m a big intimidating tattooed large male. But on the inside I’m still sitting alone on the see-saw hoping that the bigger kids won’t take my lunch money. I used humor to distract those kids hoping that they’ll be my friend and accept me. But it never works as inevitably one of them will just punch me in the mouth and I’ll have to explain the missing tooth and broken glasses to my mom yet again.
Thanks man. I really appreciate this. I feel like I’m on my way to making progress and healing.


