I had a long talk last night with "M", shes one of the black women I said about. Shes 38, 5'4 145 and very dark skinned. So sweet. Grew up city but moved to country for nursing. I felt like such a douche at first, I know she thought I was going to ask her out. But I didnt. I wanted to talk to her, let her know I do like her but I have concerns. Stated my concerns, which mainly focused on how we would be treated if we do proceed. I basically friend zoned myself.
She was very understanding, and actually opened up about her concerns, which mimicked mine. She told me shes treated very well by the people in our town, but her coworkers...even though they treat her well, when the subject of dating comes up and she mentions her interest in white men, they try to change the subject or ask her if she knows any nice black men.
I was surprised by that honestly. I hugged her and gave her a kiss, said no matter what friends forever. She agreed, and told me she only wants me to be happy. I want the same for her.
In this day and age, its still not easy folks. On one hand im glad I had the talk, on the other im kinda down about the whole deal. I know she would make a great partner, she is so country its not funny now. We have so much in common. It sucks that we both feel societal pressure thats way outdated.