Some of us enjoy the endorphin and the happiness from it. I have never enjoyed liftingn after I tore my chest and herniated my disc.
20lbs of what? Alot of water weight? Maybe the first cycle you could. People weight values on different things in life. I was tired of being pissed off all the time and irritable. Trt has mellowed me out alot.
Even if I could obtain the gains naturally. Which my gains slowed down alot. I hated going to the gym.
The endorphin release during lifting has been a game changer for my life
My libido was also shot. It boosted it.
My wife and I make a decent living and this has made both of our lives better.
Is it worth 2k a year for labs and to be watched over by a doctor?
Absolutely. Even if I had to stop this cycle I know I am covered.
My first cycle was about 20 years ago, and I'm revealing my age. I'd been weight training daily since about 13 yrs old, was an elite high school and college athlete.
Started out with 500 sustanon, the greek organon pharma vial stuff. Liked it so much I added these 50mg winstrol tabs after about a month... the blue Chinese stuff that was all the rage back then. After about a month of that tren was all the rage, fina pellets and conversion kits were easy to get, so I added 70mg tren ace per day for 2 months.
Now I can't be certain of that dose because of the brewing, but ultimately it was a 4 month cycle starting with half a gram of anabolics and ending with about a gram total of 3 different compounds the last couple months. You can imagine I blew up. I went from being a 160 lb beanpole who had such a ectomorph metabolism I could eat all day whatever I want and couldn't put on a lb to save my life (like a lot of people are at 20yrs old) to 195lbs and not an ounce of that was fat. You can also imagine with tren and winny there's no bloat either.
So I PCT'd off, ended up at 190 and very lean, and never did another cycle again for 15 years. And the muscle stayed with me. I got married, had a kid, lost my hair, got a dad bod, then decided to go back on again. Muscle memory made it very easy to get back to my 20 yr old body. And now I've surpassed it.
Believe me, if I did a 300mg cycle it would've been a waste and more harm than good. But there are some real noobs out there who have no idea how to train, eat, or use needles and probably should start out just above trt so they can figure some stuff out. You probably are that noob. But a guy like Ironman, if he's a vet and 250+ lbs of granite, he'll probably need 300 just to maintain.