Can't change the past brother, just be there for them now like you're doing. Thanks for sharing.
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Can't change the past brother, just be there for them now like you're doing. Thanks for sharing.
Flkrkr
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I am 35 years old. I had been drinking since I was 8 years old. I had been snorting powder since 12 and meth at 15. I have spent the majority of my life on drugs. There's not much out there I haven't tried. I gave it all up January 15 2014 although I have a beer or 2 with family now and then
Ozzy619
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Damn. We might just be related. Glad you over came that shit, aint no looking back.
Rackin45s
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Funeral today for a close friend. Hate death and grieving. I resort to old behaviour and try to bottle things up and "pretend" I'm being strong. Have to feel the feelings though!! Old behaviour can lead to old actions!! Glad I work a program and found a new way to live. Years ago this would have been an easy excuse to get loaded!! Now it reminds me of what life is really about!! Seeing his young boys and wife with their whole lives ripped apart in a second reminds me life is short. We shouldn't take people for granted! Today I will tell the people I love what the mean to me. Grateful I am alive and loved by my family. Grateful I am clean and able to feel the feelings even though I don't want to!!
My friend wasn't an addict but they ended his funeral with this:
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference."
Love that saying!! Helped through a lot of tough times!!
Congratulations to all of you on another day being clean. Take a minute to hug your loved ones and let them know how much you appreciate them!!
My friend wasn't an addict but they ended his funeral with this:
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference."
Love that saying!! Helped through a lot of tough times!!
Congratulations to all of you on another day being clean. Take a minute to hug your loved ones and let them know how much you appreciate them!!
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ChuckSipes
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has anyone else ever used DMT??
That shit was the absolute best drug I've ever experienced... the strongest hallucinogen apparently.
thats one drug i would definitely do again. i did it once with some friends and ended up buying a bag of it and smoking it all night by myself. absolutely incredible
That shit was the absolute best drug I've ever experienced... the strongest hallucinogen apparently.
thats one drug i would definitely do again. i did it once with some friends and ended up buying a bag of it and smoking it all night by myself. absolutely incredible
KPK
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Done it a few times,2-cb as well.
Wings_of_pain
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This is honestly how it was for me. I was given drugs for physical pain, only to find they soothed my mental anguish too. It's not a good thing but it is why.
Flkrkr
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Never going back. Lifting weights is giving me a positive outlet for the negative energy
JackC4
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Wow WE are everywhere, I got clean when I was 23 The usual progression,
Booze ,weed ,coke ,acid ,Molly,shrooms, percs, Oxy everyday, then crack and dope.
I'm 30 now and after all the time I was in the program I've only got a little over a month clean now. I fucked up thinking I would use addies to help my work performance. Yet again I'm reminded im an addict, only took 3weeks till I pick up the hard and dope right away. I went on a 3 month run of misery, guilt , shame , remorse. I never spoke to another addict or shared about what I was thinking of doing, had I , it probably wouldn't have happened.
I haven't been here a lot lately and this was why, who wants to lift when their out running ? You hear this all the time but I'm lucky to be alive after this one, in the mindstate I was in told me I could use as much as I did 6+ years ago. Well my body didn't agree shit put me down for 2 days puking and couldn't stand up, checking my nearly non existent heart beat.
If you go to a meeting everyday, talk and work with other addicts and HONESTLY work the program you will not use. I'm convince of this now, this is all that will work for me. An addict can't use once a year, once a month. If you can relate to 1 is too many 1000 is never enough, chances are you belong.
I'm going to keep coming back
Booze ,weed ,coke ,acid ,Molly,shrooms, percs, Oxy everyday, then crack and dope.
I'm 30 now and after all the time I was in the program I've only got a little over a month clean now. I fucked up thinking I would use addies to help my work performance. Yet again I'm reminded im an addict, only took 3weeks till I pick up the hard and dope right away. I went on a 3 month run of misery, guilt , shame , remorse. I never spoke to another addict or shared about what I was thinking of doing, had I , it probably wouldn't have happened.
I haven't been here a lot lately and this was why, who wants to lift when their out running ? You hear this all the time but I'm lucky to be alive after this one, in the mindstate I was in told me I could use as much as I did 6+ years ago. Well my body didn't agree shit put me down for 2 days puking and couldn't stand up, checking my nearly non existent heart beat.
If you go to a meeting everyday, talk and work with other addicts and HONESTLY work the program you will not use. I'm convince of this now, this is all that will work for me. An addict can't use once a year, once a month. If you can relate to 1 is too many 1000 is never enough, chances are you belong.
I'm going to keep coming back
JackC4
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This disease doesn't want you to talk about it, it doesn't want attention it wants you isolated and fucked up. Talking about this shit and shining the light on it keeps it a bay and keeps that maniac in your head in a straight jacket.
Mike if you want my number to talk, I'll send it over
Mr. Deltoid
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I'm 38 and have been on methadone for 7 yrs now I've tried to come off but everytime I get below 50 my a day all I think about is getting high. I started using young at 14 I had a pdr and was hooked on opiates and benzos roofies ,xanax and dilaudid then I found heroin at 16 and started shooting. Also the "rave" scene here in southwest Florida from St. Pete ,Tampa to Orlando in 1992 to 96 was underground and of the chain and I was deep in it. So I can definitely relate to my fellow addict brothers here. I just went through the worst year of my adult life lost a woman then my dog then my job and didn't handle it well I went back out and made a mess of a bad situation real quick. It's true when they say you pick up not where you left off but where you'd be if you never stopped. I should have came here for support but didn't and I'm paying the price. There are alot of good people here who will help if you just ask I know if I go through a ruff patch in the future I'll reach out to my meso family before I pick up. Things are looking up now been clean for a couple months and just got a much better job so I'll be able to afford another blast here soon. Thanks to all the people who reached out especially @pmac928 your a good dude my friend and your reaching out really helped when I needed it.
We can really only do so much on the Internet to help someone going thru it, but sometimes just kicking it with another person going thru what you may have went thru can be enough to get the thought of getting high from your mind.
Mr. Deltoid
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You are so right but you reaching out to me and giving me encouraging words and just showing that there are brothers that care and take time out to help a brother up goes along way.
Flkrkr
New Member
I agree with you but unfortunately the addict in me says that having absolutely nothing is not an option. And I feel like I am missing out on something if everyone is drinking and I am not, so having a beer or two once a month, is like having a cheat meal. It keeps me from thinking my life has turned into "this" and from thinking my life is "lame". See I respect guys who can go without anything, I just have to have the cheat meal every now again. Im sure its not the right way but after being on drugs and alcohol as long as I have its something that is working right now for me.
I love all the honest posts in here and I feel this is a great place for someone to express themselves without being judged for their decisions. Thanks everyone.
Whoremoans
Member
I've done it. It's like combining the entirety of an acid trip into the short intense duration of a few blasts of nitrous oxide or air duster. And istead of the long drawn out miserable comedown that comes with almost every hallucinogen, coming down of DMT came with an almost opiate like euphoria, like floating down from my trip on a cloud.
Ive got to much to lose for a drink once and a while. To each is own but for me my brain would tell me Ive been only having a drink once a month let's go out again this weekend. Then before I knew it I'd be drinking and smoking crack again. I see it first hand all the time.
JackC4
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Hey I give you credit if you can and keep your shit together, I struggle with trying to just to drink. I can't knock what anybody does to hold their life together.
Just for me, I know I can't.
Wings_of_pain
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Hey has anyone used lope for opiate withdrawals and does it work?
Never heard of it. I tried everything for opiate withdrawal and the only thing that got rid of opiate withdrawal was no more opiate use.
I was that way till my 30's. Then I realized when I used it was always with a pile of something, with or without some hooker or crackwhore. So, when I am on drugs and alcohol I miss everything. I miss life completely and ruin everyone else's.
I would rather miss drinking and drugs once in a while and get to live my life... and my daughter will never see the monster I am with chemicals in my body. Fucking never.
