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Happycamper said:
Omg...what a fucking bag of dicks this dude is. He actually told you that?!?! Like, with all that body you have, and the work you put in, and the restriction and effort you put into your diet and he's disappointed with your boobs???

I'm sorry but ain't nobody got time for douchebaggery of that magnitude. I couldn't personally tolerate that kind of unreasonable criticism.
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He didn't quite verbalized it but that's what I got from his comments. However, he did say how much he loved my boobs and how they were the best ones out of all the girls he had dated. I was just like, well, they are gone.
He's not a fan of plastic boobs but if I get them I'll do it for me and not him anyway.
I always wanted fake ones anyway. Imagine never having to wear a bra and how great everything looks.
He made a comment about how much attention I'm gonna get when with a huge rack, so idk if it also comes from a place of insecurity.
We are not even dating anymore. I'm not sure what we are doing...
 
+1 for this guy is a tool I'm sorry D but that ain't someone you need! Your smokin you can have whoever you want! Maybe even a northern furry creature that's good at catching fish but can also deadlift... I think you should listen to @Happycamper on that don't take no shit and if I remember correctly you are stronger then him in the gym so if you can out squat your man then you need to upgrade your man lol. That goes for any girl too if you can squat 405 you deserve a guy who can squat 600
 
OdieM said:
D you look great as usual. Your ex is a damn fool. Boobs are highly over rated.

So we're asking a chick with fake boobs if her boobs come back after a cycle? That makes a lot of sense.
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Thank you for the kind words, Odie.
You're sweet :)
 
RodgerThat said:
That goes for any girl too if you can squat 405 you deserve a guy who can squat 600
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Happy is gonna need a total beast bc this girls can put up some numbers!

Rationally I know you guys are right, but god damn it my heart never listens. It's stubborn as a donkey.
I've been in love with him for nearly 7 years. I wish I could just ignore my stupid feelings. Although, I am definately a lot less sensitive and emotional right now due to Anavar. I could not imagine myself going through this when its full force estrogen.
Testosterone > estrogen in many ways.
 
Devika said:
Happy is gonna need a total beast bc this girls can put up some numbers!

Rationally I know you guys are right, but god damn it my heart never listens. It's stubborn as a donkey.
I've been in love with him for nearly 7 years. I wish I could just ignore my stupid feelings. Although, I am definately a lot less sensitive and emotional right now due to Anavar. I could not imagine myself going through this when its full force estrogen.
Testosterone > estrogen in many ways.
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Anavar has nothing to do with him respecting your body and keeping his ridiculous disappointments to himself. You're hard enough on yourself as it is - you mentioned an ED, which means you're a perfectionist and extremely hyperfocused on your body image. You beat yourself up for a bad meal, a missed workout, a little extra pudge...I know this disease well. I've been there. Guys like him do you no good, especially when you've got a bangin body like yours.

Seriously. Fuck him. Anavar shouldn't be an excuse for allowing someone to disrespect your amazingness because you're less emotional. This isnt about emotion, it's about boundaries and respect.
 
From what you told us a few weeks back its either him or your sobriety. Which do you want more? Some people live to drag others down. His boob response he might be one of them.
 
Happycamper said:
Anavar has nothing to do with him respecting your body and keeping his ridiculous disappointments to himself. You're hard enough on yourself as it is - you mentioned an ED, which means you're a perfectionist and extremely hyperfocused on your body image. You beat yourself up for a bad meal, a missed workout, a little extra pudge...I know this disease well. I've been there. Guys like him do you no good, especially when you've got a bangin body like yours.

Seriously. Fuck him. Anavar shouldn't be an excuse for allowing someone to disrespect your amazingness because you're less emotional. This isnt about emotion, it's about boundaries and respect.
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You're so sweet happy and you make good points. I definately need to be careful with that kind of influence bc I don't need to have someone making me feel insecure about myself.
It has taken a lot of work and time to get to the point where I love myself and my body.
I don't want to defend him, but I don't want to portray him as a monster either. He has really good qualities and has put up w a lot of my shit over the years.
Sometimes I wish I could just get rid of all the feelings that I still have for him. After being in love with someone for 7 years, my heart definately gravitates towards him.
For now, I think we just gotta take things slow, while maintaining my guard up.
I do appreciate your input though. Sometimes it's good to have an outside perspective bc I can get blinded by my emotions.
Xo
 
MCFC said:
From what you told us a few weeks back its either him or your sobriety. Which do you want more? Some people live to drag others down. His boob response he might be one of them.
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It doesn't have to be either or.
He is sober too now. He has a couple of months. I have almost a year.
This is the first time we are both in recovery. I am aware we are playing a dangerous game bc when emotions get involved it could trigger relapses.
For that reason, I'm just taking it really slow.
I guess if he doesn't like me with my little boobs, he can walk the other way and doesn't deserve me when I get my D's.
I don't think it was a deal breaker though bc he wants to see me tmw..
 
Devika said:
It doesn't have to be either or.
He is sober too now. He has a couple of months. I have almost a year.
This is the first time we are both in recovery. I am aware we are playing a dangerous game bc when emotions get involved it could trigger relapses.
For that reason, I'm just taking it really slow.
I guess if he doesn't like me with my little boobs, he can walk the other way and doesn't deserve me when I get my D's.
I don't think it was a deal breaker though bc he wants to see me tmw..
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Your playing a very dangerous game. Your emotions and feelings are what made you get fucked up in the first place. Any thing that makes you really feel or may cause you hurt you should avoid until you have some real soberity. 2 people involved that are in early recovery is a very bad idea. Been there done that. Y'all heads are so fucked up right now that the only one that should be making decisions for y'all is yalls sponsors. Plus since y'all have a long history together it's bad cause there's more then likely hurt and damage there that will resurface. You are obviously already holding the guy on a pedestal and it's just a matter of time before he becomes your higher power. Long story short, I've played this scenario out a few different ways and it never turns out well.
 
OdieM said:
Your playing a very dangerous game. Your emotions and feelings are what made you get fucked up in the first place. Any thing that makes you really feel or may cause you hurt you should avoid until you have some real soberity. 2 people involved that are in early recovery is a very bad idea. Been there done that. Y'all heads are so fucked up right now that the only one that should be making decisions for y'all is yalls sponsors. Plus since y'all have a long history together it's bad cause there's more then likely hurt and damage there that will resurface. You are obviously already holding the guy on a pedestal and it's just a matter of time before he becomes your higher power. Long story short, I've played this scenario out a few different ways and it never turns out well.
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Everything here is the truth.

Either/Or is how I HAD to view many things in recovery. Especially during the first year. You obviously care deeply for the guy and there's no shame at all in that. It's love. Problem is that that feeling, love, pleasure, can and is very often substituted as the new high and THAT makes it very dangerous in early recovery. That's why you see so many addicts date in recovery. Unfortunately I've yet to see 2 recovering addicts make it work but it happens.

We all know you're a woman and know what's best for you so please know we arent judging or telling you what to do only offering insight because we've been there. Helping others in recovery helps us as well. You're doing great and your body and attitude is evidence of that.
 
OdieM said:
Your playing a very dangerous game. Your emotions and feelings are what made you get fucked up in the first place. Any thing that makes you really feel or may cause you hurt you should avoid until you have some real soberity. 2 people involved that are in early recovery is a very bad idea. Been there done that. Y'all heads are so fucked up right now that the only one that should be making decisions for y'all is yalls sponsors. Plus since y'all have a long history together it's bad cause there's more then likely hurt and damage there that will resurface. You are obviously already holding the guy on a pedestal and it's just a matter of time before he becomes your higher power. Long story short, I've played this scenario out a few different ways and it never turns out well.
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MCFC said:
Everything here is the truth.

Either/Or is how I HAD to view many things in recovery. Especially during the first year. You obviously care deeply for the guy and there's no shame at all in that. It's love. Problem is that that feeling, love, pleasure, can and is very often substituted as the new high and THAT makes it very dangerous in early recovery. That's why you see so many addicts date in recovery. Unfortunately I've yet to see 2 recovering addicts make it work but it happens.

We all know you're a woman and know what's best for you so please know we arent judging or telling you what to do only offering insight because we've been there. Helping others in recovery helps us as well. You're doing great and your body and attitude is evidence of that.
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You know guys, I truly appreciate your insight. I know the both of you have more experience and you're only telling me this because you care. So thank you!
I hate to admit it, but even though it wasn't what I wanted to hear, it's the plain truth without any sugar coating.
It's really nice to have people like yourselves here in MESO. I truly appreciate it the support you guys have given me from the start :)
 
But You will not listen :) that's expected. Just be carefull and take care of yourself :)

By the way I don't see him as a tool for having make a comments about shrieked boobs. Jeez you are over sensitive guys
 
Sampei said:
But You will not listen :) that's expected. Just be carefull and take care of yourself :)

By the way I don't see him as a tool for having make a comments about shrieked boobs. Jeez you are over sensitive guys
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Everything you say and comment about in this forum grosses me out...so I'm not surprised you're siding with the douchebag.

Anyway...bewbz:
 
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