Definitely brotha
MESO-Rx
Anabolic Steroids
Recovering addicts
- Thread starter wedorecover
- Start date
Thanks brother, I wouldn't ever go back. I feel fantastic and have so much going for me.
bigpoppachump
New Member
Just be careful and be humble and most of all grateful. I can't remember how many times I said "I'm never going back" only to find myself right back where I was and even worse off than before. Addiction is cunning, baffling and powerful and can sneak up on even the strongest of soberites just think of all the stories you may have heard about guys going back out with 10+ years of sobriety. All it takes is a bad week, feeling to good about things, seeing the wrong friend you haven't seen in a while while your in the wrong mindset, so many variables can come into play on a relapse which leaves many of us wondering how it possibly could have happened.
I used alcohol, pussy and a lot of luck to drop my heroin habit of 8 years. I was able to get by and change my mindset about heroin by not being presented with the option to use while I was vulnerable or drunk and then I moved 1000 miles away from my home turf and really sobered up from everything. If I had stayed in my home state and kept on with the drinking I no doubt would have eventually started using H again but god had other plans for me it seems. I had been in and out of the rooms since I was 14 and could do a year standing on my head but it was always after I got some time under my belt and my confidence and pride grew that my addiction would circle back around to cut me down.
Thank you for sharing. The screwed up part was I was afraid of being sick for so long. I didn't dare to go through the full detox for the longest time. First 30 days in jail fixed that only to be out on the streets again. 60 days and I still went right back to doing the same thing. It took me wanting to be sober and telling myself I have the strength to do this, get off my ass and make something of myself. Now I'm eating right and hitting the gym 5-6 days a week. Only if I had that type of will power for cardio hahaha.
Sent from my SAMSUNG-SM-G900A using Tapatalk
Sounds like my life right there. I did quite a few stints in jails and rehabs just to pick back up almost immediately. The last one was the big reality check for me, getting sentenced to some years really did it for me. I'm in my 30's, I can't give up chunks of my life like that anymore for getting high.
Congrats on getting clean, brother. This life of freedom and getting huge and strong is pretty sweet. I wish I would've realized it sooner.
Thank brother, congrats for your sobriety as well. I'm in my 30s as well and the way I was heading I would be in prison or dead. I don't even drink right now, no pre-workout or anything. Well Test E and Adex, a solid diet and lifting heavy. I'm heading for gradual gains, I don't want to raise any eyebrows and can't afford to buy a new threads every other week. Haaaa [emoji108]
Sent from my SAMSUNG-SM-G900A using Tapatalk
D-Ballin
New Member
Couple of weeks here. Blah. Had a seriously fucked up couple of months, and got back into that self destructive, "fuck it" mentality. This was after almost 4 years clean off opiates.
I'm back now. Forgive yourself and move on, right? A job, a fucked up baker act incident, and a massive OD later. Probably a house too, at this rate. Fucking love drugs eh? Back in meetings and therapy now, trying out CBT and meds for a while, apparently the CBT and mindfulness programs have pretty good success rates for continued recovery. More for the alcohol, that's more of a continuous problem for me.
But hey, @xgunx is damn right. That speedball diet will cut you up real quick. Shame it eats muscle just as fast.
I'm back now. Forgive yourself and move on, right? A job, a fucked up baker act incident, and a massive OD later. Probably a house too, at this rate. Fucking love drugs eh? Back in meetings and therapy now, trying out CBT and meds for a while, apparently the CBT and mindfulness programs have pretty good success rates for continued recovery. More for the alcohol, that's more of a continuous problem for me.
But hey, @xgunx is damn right. That speedball diet will cut you up real quick. Shame it eats muscle just as fast.
Mindfulness has helped immensely for my recovery. If you decide to stay sober, remember that each day you stay sober life gets better. Brother, one foot in front of the other.
Sent from my SAMSUNG-SM-G900A using Tapatalk
Good to have you back. Sucks starting over, but it's part of it sometimes.
D-Ballin
New Member
Damned straight it gets better. Sitting poolside now, loving life. But also still in that "what the fuck?" phase that comes after.
Addiction really is tough. Mind bendingly stupid from the outside, but extremely frustrating when you live it. Was weird going at it from being really clean this time, like sitting back and watching yourself, and thinking "what the fuck are you doing man"? Breaks all the rules of rational human behavior.
D-Ballin
New Member
Actually feeling pretty positive about it. Trying to tell myself I am anyway, lol. The job was shit anyway, my misery there definitely contributed to things. Looking like I'll be gainfully employed again on Tuesday, at a gig that looks interesting, so can't complain too much.
Life's a journey. Fuck the destination. Just have to try and enjoy the road.
Stay positive bro, I ate a pint of Gelato earlier with my mom... still feeling pretty guilty about it haha. It's my rest day.
xgunx
Member
The muscle lost I at least know I can get back easy I was struggling to get rid of that eat though. I think I built some and up with the fucking I was doing lol
OdieM
Banned
Soberity date 9-1-11. I took that as a sign. Took going to rehab twice and living in three 3/4 houses to get to where I am now. I wouldn't change a thing and I'm very thankful that I relapsed. My relapses have prevented others from making the same mistakes I did and they prevent me from making them again as well. I always felt different. Like no one could know what I'm going through and no one was fucked up in the head like I was/am. Boy oh boy was I wrong. I love the rooms and the fellowship. It's such a beautiful life I live today. Glad I'm not normal cause those people will never be able to see how beautiful the world is cause they've never seen it at its darkest. One Day At A Time brothers and sisters.
Last edited:
Amen brother I have Na blasted on me my higher power and the rooms saved my life
I have a lot to be thankful for as well, keep it easy brother.
Sent from my SAMSUNG-SM-G900A using Tapatalk
Ozzy619
New Member
I've been off opiates for almost 5 years now. Never had longer than 3 months off alcohol, always seem to find my way back to a bottle some how. My goal right now is one year, with one day at time.
Ozzy619
New Member
I'm sure there are a few of us here that have the slip ups. At least your honest about it. Good to have you back. It's a constant fight with those demons. I've got one week right now so you have time on me.
For some of us one day is a miracle keep it up brother if you need anything let me know
I haven't got to the beautiful part yet, but the days are tolerable. I reflect on how I lived my life, and nothing could be worse than how I have lived in the past. I think about what I did to people and all I can do is shake my head.
If nothing else, it's a better world if I'm not using. I'm just as f****** crazy though. I live with it, at least no one else has to live it with me.
