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I'd say days are tolerable at the least for me. I have ADHD and a overactive mind, I'm a under achiever until I'm addicted to something then I'm a over achiever. I've been waiting for my diet and exercise to become an addiction, yet now I just love to eat good and look good. So I go to the gym to look better and work extra hours to eat more food. It shouldn't be this expensive to eat right but somehow it is. The struggle is real brother and stay strong, stay swole.

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Big_paul said:
I haven't got to the beautiful part yet, but the days are tolerable. I reflect on how I lived my life, and nothing could be worse than how I have lived in the past. I think about what I did to people and all I can do is shake my head.

If nothing else, it's a better world if I'm not using. I'm just as f****** crazy though. I live with it, at least no one else has to live it with me.
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I think of what I've done to people on the daily. I have a lot of ugly shit inside me. Ive shared EVERYTHING with my sponsor. When something comes to mind that makes me cringe that I forgot to share with him I call him immediately and get the ugly out. Ive done some horrible shit man. I have to get that shit out and share it with someone or it will eat me alive and could cause me to want to numb it out. You would be surprised when you share with people all the horrible shit you've done that they have very similar or worst stories.

Let me share a little of my beautiful with you. This was yesterday at a lake here in TX. Yes the view is beautiful but what makes it so much sweeter is that I have my mother in the boat with me. 5 years ago my mom dropped me off a few hours from home at a sober living facility and told me to "sink or swim". I chose to swim. She saved my life that day. Never would of thought that I would of spent Mother's Day with her 4.5 years later like I did yesterday. Life is beautiful buddy. I had lost it all including everyone dear to me. What I have now is so much better then anything that I ever had. #ItsTheLittleThings


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Big_paul said:
I haven't got to the beautiful part yet, but the days are tolerable. I reflect on how I lived my life, and nothing could be worse than how I have lived in the past. I think about what I did to people and all I can do is shake my head.

If nothing else, it's a better world if I'm not using. I'm just as f****** crazy though. I live with it, at least no one else has to live it with me.
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I can't drink or do anything else now. I reached the point where if i want to keep what i got left i have to be sober. Kinda sad it took me this long to figure it out. Had a relation collapse because i was into stupid shit. I been in ICU 8 times i wanted to give up so bad so many times. But the haters are what has made me who i am today bro. I stand taller and proud of the new person i have become.
 
September 11 /2011 from oxycontin...heroine or pretty much and downer I could get my hands on ...although I still drink a few beers from time to time it never makes me relapse but I would not recommend it to anyone
 
Nitrust said:
I live reading through this thread, so much inspiration.
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Nitrust said:
I live reading through this thread, so much inspiration.
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Ikr? Its good i been on meso but only just started getting involved in threads. its good to read this when you are a bit down and out. Heaps of awesome guys on this forum. The harder we have fallen in the past makes us stronger in the future.
 
Nitrust said:
It's awesome when you get a bunch of guys together that has been through some crazy hard tomes
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Gotta love the internet, anonymity at its finest. I even share my battles with trusted friends because a lot of my friends have been through what I have as well. I would not trade my brothers for the world.

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Braaap said:
Gotta love the internet, anonymity at its finest. I even share my battles with trusted friends because a lot of my friends have been through what I have as well. I would not trade my brothers for the world.

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Good to have bro. i can count the people i love and trust on 1 hand now. People forget where they come from sometimes.
 
JuiceMeUpKindSir said:
Good to have bro. i can count the people i love and trust on 1 hand now. People forget where they come from sometimes.
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I can relate to the amount of people I trust. I don't trust any of them with one particular secret though. If that got out there would be hell to pay.
 
JuiceMeUpKindSir said:
Good to have bro. i can count the people i love and trust on 1 hand now. People forget where they come from sometimes.
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Damn that sucks. Are you even in or working a program? The best most trust worthy people I've ever met are from the rooms. There's people I could call if i was broke down two states over from here and they would come help me in a heart beat and I would do the same for any of them. They are TRUE friends and very trustworthy and I have love for them. It's the fellowship we speak of. I think your in the wrong thread. There's a huge difference in being sober and being dry.
 
OdieM said:
Damn that sucks. Are you even in or working a program? The best most trust worthy people I've ever met are from the rooms. There's people I could call if i was broke down two states over from here and they would come help me in a heart beat and I would do the same for any of them. They are TRUE friends and very trustworthy and I have love for them. It's the fellowship we speak of. I think your in the wrong thread. There's a huge difference in being sober and being dry.
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Nice to meet you as well Odie. Yeh i am in a program. I been off opiates for 2 weeks. Been off cocaine since november 2014. I have seen some shit i do not wish for my worse enemy to see . I don't need someone coming in and telling me place in the forums when i been through addiction previously first hand. I deal with Depression an PTSD and insomnia and a whole list of other shit. I can see your point but really i just joined? Anyway have a good one mate.
 
JuiceMeUpKindSir said:
Nice to meet you as well Odie. Yeh i am in a program. I been off opiates for 2 weeks. Been off cocaine since november 2014. I have seen some shit i do not wish for my worse enemy to see . I don't need someone coming in and telling me place in the forums when i been through addiction previously first hand. I deal with Depression an PTSD and insomnia and a whole list of other shit. I can see your point but really i just joined? Anyway have a good one mate.
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Gotcha and that explains a lots. Your actually the most important guy in this thread and in the rooms. Hope you don't leave before the miracle happens. Congrats on the 2 weeks.
 
wedorecover said:
Well boys today marks 4 years clean 4 this guy June 26 2012 was the last time I ever went to jail or stuck a needle in my arm
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Fucking Awesome bro! Last time I was in jail was Oct of 2014 fucking planned to watch movies with my mom on Halloween. Man she was pissed.

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