Before going down the TRT route id give an aggressive PCT a try. This would be the breakdown id suggest trying if you're interested.
Begin by administering 500iu of HCG E3D alongside a low dose of testosterone (about 100mg/wk). Do this for 2 weeks after which time you will drop the test and continue the HCG protocol for another 14days along with Aromasin dosed at 25mg/ED. On your last 2 HCG shots use 1000iu rather than 500iu, and the day after your last HCG shot begin the PCT treatment.
The PCT will consist of a 7 week aggressive protocol which will be laid out as such:
Toremifene- 120mg/120mg/90mg/90mg/90mg/60mg/30mg
Clomid- 150mg/100mg/100mg/100mg/50mg
Aromasin- 25mg/25mg/25mg/25mg/25mg/25mg/25mg
DAA- 6g/6g/6g/6g/6g/6g
If any protocol will restart you, I believe this will have the best chance in doing so. It's worth trying before going down the TRT route. You seem to have some emotional issues tied in with your AAS use (no judgments or anything), and in my opinion being on TRT will be too tempting to increase dosages (which will have you end up in the same spot again). Hope this is of some help, and good luck brother. If you decide to run the PCT let us know how you do