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I was fat fat, not powerlifter fat, trust me...
Since i decided to do something about it, i started thinkin about quality of food, not just calories.
Makes sense to eat quality food not the junk for bulking. I was a fat fuck myself as a kid and it's been a lifelong battle for me to stay relatively lean.
 
Thats what i call fat mentality, very hard to beat. I had/have tough time with it also, self hatred for being fat slob. Idk how many vuys been fat and then did something with it but that mental barrier, seing himself/myself as "not fat anymore" is harder than loosing weight sometimes...

Yes, that was part of how it was meant.
Which also tells you he is probably not likely do go down that path because of the resistance that it creates towards eating a certain way.
 
Makes sense to eat quality food not the junk for bulking. I was a fat fuck myself as a kid and it's been a lifelong battle for me to stay relatively lean.
Can relate. 5-16 i was obese kidc stretch marks are there as reminder. At highschool i leaned to okay shape, started lifting.
After highschool i got obese again due to lack of movement (driving my own truck), ive told myself back then, that the day i get out of cabin i will do something with my life.
So i did, i was so sad with myself and told myself never again. Super hard but i did it. Fat mentality stayed...
 
Is it that you don't know how or you just have decided not to do so?

Grab a diet from Mac11Wildcat's thread and just copy it and use it. Adjust the macros slightly once or twice a month to get the progress and look you want.

There. Now you know how.

The question is whether you will. They are two very different questions.
Sorry, I am dyslexic quite alot….
I meant I know how, the will is what I dont have enough of, and unfortunately my job is currently taking a lot of my will, and the little bit I have left I dedicate to @iris, even though she deserves a lot more than I can give.
Essentially, my job right now is 6 days 60hrs a week minimum and is straight killing me daily with lifting god awful heeeeavy stuff eeeeeveryday, like today was moving travelers (big 28 inch/35 inch rollers) around that weigh 100+ pounds (35 full frame grounding feel every goddamn bit of over 150lbs) from the ground to chest high, if i had to guess I moved around over 50 of them, constantly all day long. Then oh hey rekky go grab 8 of these 9 feet tall steel brackets that are so damn heavy they make my gigantic nuts feel like feathers, oh ya fuck you no help and put it on this stupid again flatbed thats chest high. A little melodramatic, I am, just a tiny..

I get mentally drained from that, and I can either use what I have left on the gym/bulking or something I love…. And Id rather not be a zombie talking to my cutie cake :)

Ill figure how to jiggle it all eventually, but there is stuff I am not willing to restrict, that takes prio.

Dont ask me wtf Im going to do on our next job, in April, when we go to 12hrs minimum 7 days a week, minimum 21 days straight on.
 
Gonna start a little thing… I like combining drink flavors, so ill post my concoctions from time to time.


Rekkys drink flavors

Today we have Wild Strawberade
Packet of Wild Strawberry for 16oz drink
About 25-30% of a big packet of lemonade
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About a 7.5/10
Currently my daily because the store doesnt have the pink lemonade packets
 
Gonna start a little thing… I like combining drink flavors, so ill post my concoctions from time to time.


Rekkys drink flavors

Today we have Wild Strawberade
Packet of Wild Strawberry for 16oz drink
About 25-30% of a big packet of lemonade
View attachment 312112

About a 7.5/10
Currently my daily because the store doesnt have the pink lemonade packets
My guy you ever tried these

It’s Clear doesn’t make sense to me
I fucking love it I get it when they have 20% off always see that promo
 
Gonna start a little thing… I like combining drink flavors, so ill post my concoctions from time to time.


Rekkys drink flavors

Today we have Wild Strawberade
Packet of Wild Strawberry for 16oz drink
About 25-30% of a big packet of lemonade
View attachment 312112
About a 7.5/10
Currently my daily because the store doesnt have the pink lemonade packets


Nice one.
So you managed to re create your favourite flavour profile, nevertheless.
I am liking the idea.
Also, you can make it taste more or less of either flavour.
Cool.
 
Nice one.
So you managed to re create your favourite flavour profile, nevertheless.
I am liking the idea.
Also, you can make it taste more or less of either flavour.
Cool.
Funny I didnt even realize that was what I did lol… im really slow…

I have a ton of these. I started it when I was taking the transparent labs hydration, as Id add that to the crystal light.. my favorite is thi- well youll have to wait and see ;) cant be giving out all my flavors day one lol
 
Gonna start a little thing… I like combining drink flavors, so ill post my concoctions from time to time.


Rekkys drink flavors

Today we have Wild Strawberade
Packet of Wild Strawberry for 16oz drink
About 25-30% of a big packet of lemonade
View attachment 312112

About a 7.5/10
Currently my daily because the store doesnt have the pink lemonade packets
I love the Hawaiian Punch Fruit Juicy Red packets...loved that ever since I was a kid!
 
@iris I guess my last message got lost in translation...

diciamo solo che ho un debole per i luoghi accoglienti, il tuo accogliente "piccolo paradiso" sembra il luogo ideale per esplorazioni memorabili. I miei 15cm di felicità potranno fare un giro lì qualche volta?
Bro go to sleep, go to sleep , there’s no point being awake at this time nobody could even understand what your saying, get some sleep lol
 
@iris I guess my last message got lost in translation...

diciamo solo che ho un debole per i luoghi accoglienti, il tuo accogliente "piccolo paradiso" sembra il luogo ideale per esplorazioni memorabili. I miei 15cm di felicità potranno fare un giro lì qualche volta?


Liebling, ich habe in die Kristallkugel geschaut, um die Antwort auf deine faszinierende Frage zu finden. Und sie lautet: Wie könnte ich da nur nein sagen?
 
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