Dear little baby Jesus, you need something to do
Can I have your boss's number?
So when I say my "last marathon" and "never recoup" it was an inference to my age rather than my ability. I know I will make the money back; but, in reality, I truly have invested money and considerable time into this. Don't overlook the price of chemical analyses in your calculations. It did sort of sting to send that cash. The short version of my position is that I very much want to be profitable; and I will do what is necessary to make that happen while maintaining my intrinsic ethical beliefs.
I want to let you know that I concede one of your points:
There is definitely "something off about all this". I am selling drugs on the internet, sir. It doesn't get much more "off" than that.
All of the camouflage, obfuscation, vagina jokes, shill talk-------literally everything here is "off"
You seem to have a line blurred between your expectation of my every word to be literal and factual; and the fact that I am a law breaking, good-for-nothing drug dealer in this venue.
I really think that you are searching for something in me that you will never find: You want me to either be completely honest or completely deceptive. You will never get that; and I am sorry.
I have made peace with what I am and how I conduct myself. It would be incredibly liberating if you would make that same peace.
All in all friend, carry on. I am amused by this and very glad to have such a worthy adversary in dialogue.