18 years old i think I fumed myself up with steroids help

[longdachi]

almost 4 months ago near the start of my first semester i got roomed with a long time friend for college he is pretty jacked and i thought he was well knowledged in lifting and i knew he took gear. I have done track for a few years am pretty lean and just do push ups pull ups and squats every few days to keep in shape. But just to be straight forward and no being you guys i asked him about gear and i wanted to get on because I'm a dumbass know it all and i pray to god every day that i can just rewind the clock and look up 5 mins on these forums on potential side effects but of course..


(although i'm about to sound sure of my cycle believe me until i started having problems and found all this info out i literally could not even spell testosterone )

anyways my friend put me on test e at about 600/week literally a couple of drops of letro ED, no hcg

about 2 1/2 months in iv packed some good size even tho i just did push ups pull ups and bw squats, but i noticed one day i tried to fap as long as i could but i just could not get hard or in the mood. i started panicking and told my friend but he just told me to get off cycle and start taking nolvadex . finally I grew a little bit of brain and searched online and found these forums, i quickly learned how to properly get off so i waited 2 weeks for the t to clear then started climid and nolvadex at 100/100/100/50 40/40/20/20/20 and I'm on my last day now

I still have zero drive and it takes me forever to finish and I'm reading the steroid and underage thread and I'm srsly freaking out. I can't imagine living life trapped by trt, or if i will ever have libido again. I'm not joking iv been waking up in my sleep in the middle of the night just praying that everything was a dream. Im sorry i fuked up like an idiot and I just want to go back to normal

yesterday I got the blood results on the last day of my pct ( I'm also going to get the 6 week post bloodwork)


Idk how to feel about it, shouldn't the fsh be higher and shouldnt my test be higher in correlation to lh?

Test total: 1088 348~1197


Lh: 11.4 1.7~8.6


Fsh: 4.1 1.5~12.4


Are my testicles desensitized, should i run more pct?

 

[longdachi]

Anyone?

 

[Eman]

almost 4 months ago near the start of my first semester i got roomed with a long time friend for college he is pretty jacked and i thought he was well knowledged in lifting and i knew he took gear. I have done track for a few years am pretty lean and just do push ups pull ups and squats every few days to keep in shape. But just to be straight forward and no being you guys i asked him about gear and i wanted to get on because I'm a dumbass know it all and i pray to god every day that i can just rewind the clock and look up 5 mins on these forums on potential side effects but of course..


(although i'm about to sound sure of my cycle believe me until i started having problems and found all this info out i literally could not even spell testosterone )

anyways my friend put me on test e at about 600/week literally a couple of drops of letro ED, no hcg

about 2 1/2 months in iv packed some good size even tho i just did push ups pull ups and bw squats, but i noticed one day i tried to fap as long as i could but i just could not get hard or in the mood. i started panicking and told my friend but he just told me to get off cycle and start taking nolvadex . finally I grew a little bit of brain and searched online and found these forums, i quickly learned how to properly get off so i waited 2 weeks for the t to clear then started climid and nolvadex at 100/100/100/50 40/40/20/20/20 and I'm on my last day now

I still have zero drive and it takes me forever to finish and I'm reading the steroid and underage thread and I'm srsly freaking out. I can't imagine living life trapped by trt, or if i will ever have libido again. I'm not joking iv been waking up in my sleep in the middle of the night just praying that everything was a dream. Im sorry i fuked up like an idiot and I just want to go back to normal

yesterday I got the blood results on the last day of my pct ( I'm also going to get the 6 week post bloodwork)


Idk how to feel about it, shouldn't the fsh be higher and shouldnt my test be higher in correlation to lh?

Test total: 1088 348~1197


Lh: 11.4 1.7~8.6


Fsh: 4.1 1.5~12.4


Are my testicles desensitized, should i run more pct?

It would be better if you posted the actual blood work papers with all your numbers.

 

[Burrr]

what did your estradiol come back at? Your test level is good, as well as fsh and lh.
I think you are gonna make it bro.

High estrogen levels can screw up the sexdrive and make it hard to finish a fap.

 

[longdachi]

It would be better if you posted the actual blood work papers with all your numbers.

It was female hormone panel from PMDlabs, the estradiol came out to 42 with the reference range being 7-42.6, but that was not e2 senstive just regular

What worries me is that this was taken on the last day of pct and my test seems low for how high my lh is and fsh just low in general even with serms hyperstimulating

 

[Eman]

It was female hormone panel from PMDlabs, the estradiol came out to 42 with the reference range being 7-42.6, but that was not e2 senstive just regular

What worries me is that this was taken on the last day of pct and my test seems low for how high my lh is and fsh just low in general even with serms hyperstimulating

I wouldn't call a test level of over a thousand low personally. I'm sure Burr is right though, you are probably going to be fine. 42 may be high for you, what was your baseline? Also, your clearly dwelling on the issue, which is totally understandable, but that has a pretty major effect on ones ability to perform.

 

[longdachi]

I wouldn't call a test level of over a thousand low personally. I'm sure Burr is right though, you are probably going to be fine. 42 may be high for you, what was your baseline? Also, your clearly dwelling on the issue, which is totally understandable, but that has a pretty major effect on ones ability to perform.

But its over a 1k becuz of the serms, my concern is for my lh level my test should be higher? And since i didnt run hcg is the lh to test correlation as such because of desensitized testes?

 

[Thenewera]

That tt level doesn't seem necessarily too low.. I mean it's over a thousand. You could have been using placebo against yourself too. A lot comes into mind. Think your sick, you feel sick. Think you can't get hard because of test cycle, you don't get hard. Regardless, a good decision to consult with the doc and to finally do your research. This thread should be stickied to show other young watchers who think they are ready to take on AAS.

Hope you recover well, should be fine.

 

[Michael Scally MD]

Eunuch

 

[Sampei]

Just wait. Wait and wait. Stress will fuck with your sex life and well being. You are young very young, should recover easily.

Now wait and have an healthy life, train, run, eat well. Don't overtrain of course

Wait 6 week from last day of pct and draw blood from there you can see how you are doing. At the moment is all speculation.

 

[longdachi]

Eunuch

Wat? Lol


My concern is i think my test in correlation to my lh is low and if im possibly desensitized for not running any hcg and if i should continue pct ?

 

[longdachi]

Just wait. Wait and wait. Stress will fuck with your sex life and well being. You are young very young, should recover easily.

Now wait and have an healthy life, train, run, eat well. Don't overtrain of course

Wait 6 week from last day of pct and from there you can see how you are doing. At the moment is all speculation.

Just wait. Wait and wait. Stress will fuck with your sex life and well being. You are young very young, should recover easily.

Now wait and have an healthy life, train, run, eat well. Don't overtrain of course

Wait 6 week from last day of pct and from there you can see how you are doing. At the moment is all speculation.

Would i be on the safer side to run pct longer? I fked up and i know i just want to try as hard as i can to go back to normal.

 

[D-Ballin]

Wait it out. Draw bloods again in six weeks if you don't normalize. These results are going to be skewed by your PCT drugs.

Just calm down. The recovery process is more than just your PCT period. Let your body do it's thing.

 

[mkulltra58]

Wat? Lol


My concern is i think my test in correlation to my lh is low and if im possibly desensitized for not running any hcg and if i should continue pct ?

Calm down. Guys used to not do a PCT, some still don't, but recover. Give you body time to recover. Putting more drugs in your body is not going to help. If you are absolutely freaking out about it, pick up some viagra or cialis.

 

[ironwill1951]

listen to @D-Ballin just wait it out you levels seem fine , don't stress yourself out , wait 6 weeks you will be a stud again,

 

[longdachi]

listen to @D-Ballin just wait it out you levels seem fine , don't stress yourself out , wait 6 weeks you will be a stud again,

Man if i can get back to where i once was that would be a dream come true. I literally forgot what my full boner looks like and getting turned on feels like

 

[Thenewera]

Man if i can get back to where i once was that would be a dream come true. I literally forgot what my full boner looks like and getting turned on feels like

You'll be just fine. Take your time. Don't over stress the situation. Realize things happen in this world, and you'll be able to fix it no problem.

 

[Sampei]

Wait! For fuck sake wait! Libido is not about being recovered. Clomid and nolva screw my libido high time even if my blood re perfect. It needs 2 weeks after the use to start coming back to normal. Just wait it out!

 

[Whoremoans]

I don't understand how someone could have dead wood and no libido on 600mg of test.. Test makes me want to fuck my couch cushions.

 

[NotNattyNate]

You will be fine dude. You are probably experiencing anxiety libido loss, 600 mg test is fairly safe. I've run heavier cycles at a young age, only used hcg to come off and recovered fine. Don't stress out much bro, your body is extremely resilient. You will recover fine.