Aborting deca. Mental effects have been crippling. What now?

[barto9449]

This is my first time running deca. I usually run test and primo, but I wanted to try and put on a lot of mass quick. So I decided to throw in deca.

My current cycle is 6ius'hgh, 30-50 mcg's IGF-1, Lantus 3 times a week, 500 test, 400 deca, 500 Masteron.
I'm two months in. Felt absolutely great till now. Dick works fine, E2 and prolactin are dialed in.

Gains great, and the Masteron has been keeping me dry. Weight is up every week, but waist is the same. Really nice clean bulk. No matter what I eat I'm not getting fat, I will throw in some McDonald's and stuff like that. Insulin sensitivity has been great. And I got my insulin / peptide protocol completely dialed in.

Out of nowhere, mad depression (which I never have), panic attacks, numb, confused.

The issue is I work a ton and I have to make big decisions all the time (assets, investments etc..) , I have to eat a ton of food, and now I stare at my meals and I wanna die. Something is off in my head. I always feel great on test, mast, primo, anavar etc... Since I've been all depressed I can't even get the food down. I waited a week nothing has changed (probably getting worse), so I'm aborting deca.

From now I'll just stick to my usual stuff.

I don't know if I should just take the deca out, and maybe up the test to 600-700, remove the Masteron and throw in 500 primo and continue the bulk (deca will be in the system for a while). Or just cut down to my 250 TRT, sort the issues out and cruise for a bit?

Fuck i really hate having to back off like this, feel like a little bitch. But I can't let the gear get in the way with my work and sanity.

From now on I'll be real careful what I run, a big reason I'm on gear is the mental benefits.
If I don't feel good, everything falls apart.

 

[Theworm]

Took me a solid year to come out of the depression but feel much better now.

These days I agree, 150 deca is great for me with trt test and no issues.

 

[Bigbicep]

I had the same but with NPP at the same dosage without mast. I hope it flushes out of your system soon. Worst feeling ever

 

[y777]

This is my first time running deca. I usually run test and primo, but I wanted to try and put on a lot of mass quick. So I decided to throw in deca.

My current cycle is 6ius'hgh, 30-50 mcg's IGF-1, Lantus 3 times a week, 500 test, 400 deca, 500 Masteron.
I'm two months in. Felt absolutely great till now. Dick works fine, E2 and prolactin are dialed in.

Gains great, and the Masteron has been keeping me dry. Weight is up every week, but waist is the same. Really nice clean bulk. No matter what I eat I'm not getting fat, I will throw in some McDonald's and stuff like that. Insulin sensitivity has been great. And I got my insulin / peptide protocol completely dialed in.

Out of nowhere, mad depression (which I never have), panic attacks, numb, confused.

The issue is I work a ton and I have to make big decisions all the time (assets, investments etc..) , I have to eat a ton of food, and now I stare at my meals and I wanna die. Something is off in my head. I always feel great on test, mast, primo, anavar etc... Since I've been all depressed I can't even get the food down. I waited a week nothing has changed (probably getting worse), so I'm aborting deca.

From now I'll just stick to my usual stuff.

I don't know if I should just take the deca out, and maybe up the test to 600-700, remove the Masteron and throw in 500 primo and continue the bulk (deca will be in the system for a while). Or just cut down to my 250 TRT, sort the issues out and cruise for a bit?

Fuck i really hate having to back off like this, feel like a little bitch. But I can't let the gear get in the way with my work and sanity.

From now on I'll be real careful what I run, a big reason I'm on gear is the mental benefits.
If I don't feel good, everything falls apart.

Which mast ester are you running ? I find that enanthate dose needs to be much higher for me than mast prop to get any CNS stim , eg 400–500 mast p vs 800 mast e (with 600 deca ). What I’ve done is split up my mast and run both esters. One acts as a hardener /SERM and the other for adrenaline /antidepressant when running 19nors. So 20-30 mg daily mast p plus 400+ mast e weekly.

 

[barto9449]

Which mast ester are you running ? I find that enanthate dose needs to be much higher for me than mast prop to get any CNS stim , eg 400–500 mast p vs 800 mast e (with 600 deca ). What I’ve done is split up my mast and run both esters. One acts as a hardener /SERM and the other for adrenaline /antidepressant when running 19nors. So 20-30 mg daily mast p plus 400+ mast e weekly.

I was running Masteron e. But I quit deca, now all is good. I'm gonna just stick to my test, mast, primo, insulin, HGH. This is all I need to have fun