What you are calling "optimization" it is more like obsession, because ir order to optimize you have to know where you feel better and it seems you have not felt that never.
Your test is ok, it is nothing to do with it, have you checked your thyroid? Do you have any recent bloodwork? TSH, Free T4, T3, Free T3.
You might have sleep apnea, even more when you talked about the stupid bulk you did.
So you are not even dialed for TRT and you are adding compounds like crazy, even the hardest one, Trenbolone, lmao, even pulsing it over the time.
If your bloodwork results for Total Testosterone and E2 are not ultra-sensible LC-MS/MS method, then they are not valid while using Nandrolone and Trenbolone.
Nandrolone will show up as Total Testosterone in bloodwork.
Trenbolone will be cross-identified with E2, giving a false elevated value.
By the way, your liver might be fucked, even more from your previous results, unless you trained the day before the bloodwork.
Do not think that insulin resistance will lead to those levels of SHBG, trenbolone is probably the reason for your crushed SHBG. It happens with orals as well.
Obviously with lower SHBG there is more Free Testosterone and therefore more E2. But as I said Trenbolone could give you a fake elevation if your bloodwork E2 methos is not LC-MS/MS.
There are not set ratios, it is up for each person, just recommended range of hormones and potential ratios.
Why do you believe those ratios are optimal? Based on what? Because you have not even experienced that wellness by yourself.
Last ratio I got was 45:1 and felt fantastic as I said, I have had lower ratios like 31:1 and felt exactly the same.
You gear is underdosed as fuck or you simply do not know how to follow a pinning schedule, which at this point I am starting to belive.
Low SHBG has nothing to do with Total Testosterone, at least not to that point.
I have had crushed SHBG while using an oral, single digits SHBG, and Total Test was where I expected it to be, around 9-10x multiplier in trough.
Free Test is the one severely affected by SHBG.
If that was the case, a SubQ leak, everything is absorbed via SubQ, so you will not feel any real difference. A slower absorption will not make that huge difference in values.
Regarding the pinning site, just rotate with other sites even more if you are on a daily/eod pinning schedule.
My honest opinion is that your problem is not hormone related, but mental. You seem to have some kind of behaviour problem, something related to extreme obsession, wheter it is an obsessive compulsive disorder or even something worse.
Some kind of mental paranoia, where you have to have everything in order, everything as your mind think it must be because you have read or you randomly think it is optimal/better. But totally random ideas without any base, that just appear in your mind and you set them as statements to follow.
Now I got what Para, from your username, is for: PARANOID
Quoting you, literally a perfect quote.
Just a tip, checking how stable you seem to be:
UP THE TREN!