sucks, i was raised by a single mother, no brothers or sisters, dad wasn't around, mom died was i was 21.... that said, i still had access to a computer, and let some people know what the problem was. i'm not going to get into the pity party game, i've been there, i know how it feels, it sucks, you're miserable, you feel like you got knocked out... i get all of that... i honestly and truly empathize with you... but a simple message to the people who support your lifestyle wouldn't have ruined anything. i'm sure you've had at least 5 minutes of down time in the last week. if you had simply made a post saying i have a death in the family, i'll be back next week, anybody who wants to cancel their orders can feel free to do that and take their money back i understand, and everybody else i'll send your gear out as soon as i can, sorry for the issue, but i have things to take care of...... done, end of story, you handle yourself like a man in that situation, take care of your family and take care of your business. i doubt you have a 'day job' so this is your livelihood and you let it all go to shit because of not being able to find 5 free minutes?
i get not being able to ship orders or want to deal with that... but that's also assuming you do anything but middle man between a brewer, your money guys, and your shipping guys. which we know you don't.
again, i feel your pain, i was there, we will all be there at some point, but that didn't stop me from taking care of my life responsibilities in any way. that's what being a man is about.