Jin23
Well-known Member
I know, in fact I was commenting on you alluding to me being ‘unstable’ or whatever, not commenting on adhd as that’s something I’m pretty sure I am too (although I don’t take meds for it n don’t have issues concentrating on most things I do use em sometimes for work if stuff is 12hrs long and boring).
I’m 30 years old, if you saw me you wouldn’t think so cos I’ve always looked younger (on the outside, mentally after all the shit I been through I’m like 300 or sumn but I tend to not talk or think too negatively about even relatively bad shit cos all in all I can’t complain bout anything I’ve been very lucky n I’m thankful for everything)
Sorry for writing long ass posts but depending on what I’m talking bout I sometimes feel the need to provide the right context
P.S. I actually have benefited a lot from AAS so far regarding lots of stuff so I understand your point even though I don’t think it applies in this case it’s a fair point to make, but trust me when I say shit is a lot better now than when I was younger, I was a fkin dickhead n did some horrible stuff due to circumstance
This is a harm reduction board after all, so don't take this as a personal attack. Seeing as you are totally new(?) to the aas world, any absolute deductions and projections from your persona, would have very little validity on their part, wouldn't you agree? Similar to @G0ld, you are assuming too much.
If you had issues with aggression and seeing how you are impulsive and probably have adhd, you are one of the worst candidates for AAS use. This is pretty clear from all the literature and a plethora of anecdotal evidence, yes, including me.
If the 1200 ngdl TRT+ thing that you are doing now, which has been what? for the couple of weeks or a month or two?, is your first exposure to supraphysiological dosages of aas, then your assumptions on your future cycle outcomes, which are based on how you feel at the moment, have a huge chance of being completely fraudulent. Why? What you are experiencing now is the so called "honeymoon" phase which doesn't last and quickly, after a couple of months, turns in to burned out anxiety. That's just a TRT+ regimen, but using cycle dosages is something completely different. You know how the saying goes; it's the dosage that makes the poison. You can not compare TRT with TRT+ and you definitely can't compare TRT+ to a CYCLE and yet alone CYCLE testosterone dosages to CYCLE testosterone dosages + other AAS.
Either way, I know you'll do it regardless of what I'm saying, so just be mindful of personality changes; increased impulsivity, lowered cognitive flexibility, aggression, inability to control emotions, etc. It's very easy to make bad life decisions when on cycle. And even if we're not talking about making some grand mistakes, there is still a slew of "micro" mistakes waiting to be made. But those are just on cycle effects, people with aggression and impulsivity issues usually suffer even after cessation of aas use with changes to cognition, anxiety, increased adhd, etc. which then only further mental issues down the road.
This topic is particularly broad, complex and hard to present to people in such a manner, that they actually grasp the depth and seriousness of dangers to mental health and the general quality of life deteriorations that aas use brings to individuals that are predisposed to them. And unfortunately, people with reward system malfunctions such as you and myself, are the ones that are the most drawn to aas use. It took years for me to truly grasp what aas did to my mental health until it was too late. I'm the same ass you, adhd + aggression, so should be relatable to you.
Either way, do more research as you seem to be confused on the simple basic physiological knowledge related to aas, yet alone more complex topics as mental effects. Good luck, you'll need it.
