MESO-Rx Exclusive ‘If It Wasn’t for Steroids I’d Be in the Gutter Dead’: The Relationship Between Enhancement Drugs and Recreational Drugs

[Rickt]

I hear you on this. I fuckin hate how society denies any responsibility for steroid use. Try googling 'boys superhero costume' and you'll end up asking yourself 'why wouldn't young men be on gear?' - even spider man has built in muscles and ab definition these days. we are creating this issue and we need to help all the young men that follow our cues to gain muscle to do so without damaging their health too much

If i had to live with green skin to be hulk id do it. Who the fuck dresses up as banner the nerd. Everyobody wants to be hulk. The hulk is everything a superhero is. Cant fly. Hasnt a flash car or little toys. No poofy hammer. Doesnt swim with fish. He just fucks you up with his fist. Dont you want to walk into a gym like that. Grunt at the pencil neck on the bench. And if he says anything back. Stick a smith machine up his arse and toss him out the door.
Yes im venting today.
Back to happy happy tomorrow.

 

[Hightower]

Yes this is exactly my case

As a result, a friend of mine began to collect Lego constructors in order to occupy himself on the weekend.

 

[lukiss96]

I hear you on this. I fuckin hate how society denies any responsibility for steroid use. Try googling 'boys superhero costume' and you'll end up asking yourself 'why wouldn't young men be on gear?' - even spider man has built in muscles and ab definition these days. we are creating this issue and we need to help all the young men that follow our cues to gain muscle to do so without damaging their health too much

Yes, my generation (mid/late 90's boys) we grew up watching WWE and admiring John Cena, Randy Orton in 00's when they were young and at their peak.

Idk how it's in US, but here we had this ideal back then to drive a cool pumped up BMW and look jacked and muscular lol...

I know it sounds funny, but trust me, I did it from the bottom and I pretty much achieved what I wanted.

I know you're a woman, you will never understand how insane is male ego and drive. We are willing to destroy mountains sometimes to get what we want!

Nowadays it's even worse! I blame it all on social media like IG, FB and youtube...

It's so in your face right now, all the ripped enhanced physiques.

I know you're doing good and trying to help, but helping is difficult in this case. I think you can educate and help prevent some damage.

But it's not like you can achieve physiques like that natural. So there is no alternatives really.

 

[Hightower]

Yes, my generation (mid/late 90's boys) we grew up watching WWE and admiring John Cena, Randy Orton in 00's when they were young and at their peak.

Damn, it was really cool, I was a direct fan and got motivated by watching and waiting for the next release. THAT was very cool.

 

[Rickt]

Yes, my generation (mid/late 90's boys) we grew up watching WWE and admiring John Cena, Randy Orton in 00's when they were young and at their peak.

Idk how it's in US, but here we had this ideal back then to drive a cool pumped up BMW and look jacked and muscular lol...

I know it sounds funny, but trust me, I did it from the bottom and I pretty much achieved what I wanted.

I know you're a woman, you will never understand how insane is male ego and drive. We are willing to destroy mountains sometimes to get what we want!

Nowadays it's even worse! I blame it all on social media like IG, FB and youtube...

It's so in your face right now, all the ripped enhanced physiques.

I know you're doing good and trying to help, but helping is difficult in this case. I think you can educate and help prevent some damage.

But it's not like you can achieve physiques like that natural. So there is no alternatives really.

Im just a little older. So killer carl krup and aundrey the giant. Same same just a year or two older. Gives me the tingles to know we arent so different.

 

[Hightower]

Im just a little older. So killer carl krup and aundrey the giant. Same same just a year or two older. Gives me the tingles to know we arent so different.

What is your reaction to these people? If it `s not a secret.

 

[Rickt]

What is your reaction to these people? If it `s not a secret.

You know i have no secrets. They were the wrestlers of my day on tv. Always liked aundrey the giant.

 

[Hightower]

You know i have no secrets. They were the wrestlers of my day on tv. Always liked aundrey the giant.

I respect open people who can openly speak their position.

 

[Jeason101]

Wow, wow, wow, wow… these stories are my entire life. Like current life. I’m currently a opiate addict whose been on and off methadone and suboxone for years and now stuck on fentanyl. I’ve been in and out of jail. I joined the marines right out of high school and it was cut short which is really where my recreational drug used turned to an addiction and self medicated use. On and off depressants. Probably spent close to $500k on drugs in the last 10 years of my 15 year addiction. 7 treatment centers. And right now I’m currently married, own a house, am living a complete lie, am even now an armed k9 patrol officer (dual purpose with explosive detection.. not norcotics k9 for obvious reasons). I’ve defiantly got my life more together as a functioning junkie but I’ve know something was off with my test levels for years. But everytime insubmitred the at home tests they came back inconclusive and wild send me another one and just gave up. I’ve done one cycle before and it also happens to be the longest time of sobriety I’ve ever truly had. 2 years. I went from 145lbs to 180lbs in 14 weeks. That stuck with me big time. I even got a job as a personal trainer at golds gym during this time but got fired for fucking all my female clients or at least the hot ones… whoops… gel back into using right away once I stopped working out and got skinner and my test levels were shit again.
I’m writing this as I hold a bottle of anadrol 50mg and sust 200 in my hand and was just looking for a new source for more sust when I came across this article and the title snagged me big time. I’m now a big time believer that this cycle will do more than just gain 25lbs of muscle but will give me the confidence I need and the energy and “spark” I guess you can say to move on from this shit whole of a fake second life I’m living and get back to the real me. The me that I forgot about. The me that had goals and ambitions and didn’t have to wake up and get well to start the day but could wake up and take my time and sit with my wife like we used to in the morning. She misses that a lot. My down fall has done untilds of damage on my young marriage. Yeah we will be together for ever before we already have and we will never leave each other but if I don’t change soon then for her sake I hope I die. So she can have a real life with a real man that’s not a shit bag like me.
I almost died 6 months ago after being shot 3 times and 1 round “obliterated” my femoral artery in my left leg. I stopped a guy from smashing his wife’s head in the trunk of his car in a safeway parking lot. As he drove off he shot me 3 times from his driver seat of his truck. I had a clean shot to his head but I couldn’t pull the trigger. How could I kill this women's husband right in front of her eyes. Even if he was a fucking asshole that deserved it. Well that’s kinda the same story I’m giving myself. I can’t let my wife see me die right before her eyes. I’ve got to pick my shit up and dust it off and try harder. This is my last attempt really. If this doesn’t work I’ll probably be dead in a yea for two like my cousin who died last year at 38 years old with similar story as mine. He also just got married 3 months prior and we got into a huge fight and I told him he would be dead in 3 months. Well he dead in 4 months. That was the last thing I said to him. Pretty fucked up but it’s a huge warning flag for me. I’m predicting my own death this time. And it’s for serious. I don’t want to die but I can’t seam to get this monkey off my back so I could beat the living shit out of him and choke him to death. I fucking HATE that little fuck.
Anyways. I know I’m on a tangent and just vented my whole life story to complete strangers but god damn it felt good. I finally have a clear picture of what I need to do and how to do it. Thanks Underwood for your article. You might have just saved my life.

P.S. sorry for the grammar errors and spelling or punctuation mistakes there’s no way in hell I’m going back to do a check on what I just typed cuz I’ll end up deleting it all and I think I need to post this shit to Kent some type of official declaration or official start of a new chapter in my life. Always hoped for this day but I just never thought it would be MESO-rx forum where it would happen. Don’t get me wrong I love seeing everybody girlfriends tits and all, it’s great. Keep ‘em coming boys.

 

[Rickt]

Wow, wow, wow, wow… these stories are my entire life. Like current life. I’m currently a opiate addict whose been on and off methadone and suboxone for years and now stuck on fentanyl. I’ve been in and out of jail. I joined the marines right out of high school and it was cut short which is really where my recreational drug used turned to an addiction and self medicated use. On and off depressants. Probably spent close to $500k on drugs in the last 10 years of my 15 year addiction. 7 treatment centers. And right now I’m currently married, own a house, am living a complete lie, am even now an armed k9 patrol officer (dual purpose with explosive detection.. not norcotics k9 for obvious reasons). I’ve defiantly got my life more together as a functioning junkie but I’ve know something was off with my test levels for years. But everytime insubmitred the at home tests they came back inconclusive and wild send me another one and just gave up. I’ve done one cycle before and it also happens to be the longest time of sobriety I’ve ever truly had. 2 years. I went from 145lbs to 180lbs in 14 weeks. That stuck with me big time. I even got a job as a personal trainer at golds gym during this time but got fired for fucking all my female clients or at least the hot ones… whoops… gel back into using right away once I stopped working out and got skinner and my test levels were shit again.
I’m writing this as I hold a bottle of anadrol 50mg and sust 200 in my hand and was just looking for a new source for more sust when I came across this article and the title snagged me big time. I’m now a big time believer that this cycle will do more than just gain 25lbs of muscle but will give me the confidence I need and the energy and “spark” I guess you can say to move on from this shit whole of a fake second life I’m living and get back to the real me. The me that I forgot about. The me that had goals and ambitions and didn’t have to wake up and get well to start the day but could wake up and take my time and sit with my wife like we used to in the morning. She misses that a lot. My down fall has done untilds of damage on my young marriage. Yeah we will be together for ever before we already have and we will never leave each other but if I don’t change soon then for her sake I hope I die. So she can have a real life with a real man that’s not a shit bag like me.
I almost died 6 months ago after being shot 3 times and 1 round “obliterated” my femoral artery in my left leg. I stopped a guy from smashing his wife’s head in the trunk of his car in a safeway parking lot. As he drove off he shot me 3 times from his driver seat of his truck. I had a clean shot to his head but I couldn’t pull the trigger. How could I kill this women's husband right in front of her eyes. Even if he was a fucking asshole that deserved it. Well that’s kinda the same story I’m giving myself. I can’t let my wife see me die right before her eyes. I’ve got to pick my shit up and dust it off and try harder. This is my last attempt really. If this doesn’t work I’ll probably be dead in a yea for two like my cousin who died last year at 38 years old with similar story as mine. He also just got married 3 months prior and we got into a huge fight and I told him he would be dead in 3 months. Well he dead in 4 months. That was the last thing I said to him. Pretty fucked up but it’s a huge warning flag for me. I’m predicting my own death this time. And it’s for serious. I don’t want to die but I can’t seam to get this monkey off my back so I could beat the living shit out of him and choke him to death. I fucking HATE that little fuck.
Anyways. I know I’m on a tangent and just vented my whole life story to complete strangers but god damn it felt good. I finally have a clear picture of what I need to do and how to do it. Thanks Underwood for your article. You might have just saved my life.

P.S. sorry for the grammar errors and spelling or punctuation mistakes there’s no way in hell I’m going back to do a check on what I just typed cuz I’ll end up deleting it all and I think I need to post this shit to Kent some type of official declaration or official start of a new chapter in my life. Always hoped for this day but I just never thought it would be MESO-rx forum where it would happen. Don’t get me wrong I love seeing everybody girlfriends tits and all, it’s great. Keep ‘em coming boys.

Wish i could say more but wow bro. What a story. You are a seriously tough person. I sure hope meso and the gym will be your new life. Jeason101 i wish you the best future. I hope to hear storirs of success.

 

[Hightower]

Wow, wow, wow, wow… these stories are my entire life. Like current life. I’m currently a opiate addict whose been on and off methadone and suboxone for years and now stuck on fentanyl. I’ve been in and out of jail. I joined the marines right out of high school and it was cut short which is really where my recreational drug used turned to an addiction and self medicated use. On and off depressants. Probably spent close to $500k on drugs in the last 10 years of my 15 year addiction. 7 treatment centers. And right now I’m currently married, own a house, am living a complete lie, am even now an armed k9 patrol officer (dual purpose with explosive detection.. not norcotics k9 for obvious reasons). I’ve defiantly got my life more together as a functioning junkie but I’ve know something was off with my test levels for years. But everytime insubmitred the at home tests they came back inconclusive and wild send me another one and just gave up. I’ve done one cycle before and it also happens to be the longest time of sobriety I’ve ever truly had. 2 years. I went from 145lbs to 180lbs in 14 weeks. That stuck with me big time. I even got a job as a personal trainer at golds gym during this time but got fired for fucking all my female clients or at least the hot ones… whoops… gel back into using right away once I stopped working out and got skinner and my test levels were shit again.
I’m writing this as I hold a bottle of anadrol 50mg and sust 200 in my hand and was just looking for a new source for more sust when I came across this article and the title snagged me big time. I’m now a big time believer that this cycle will do more than just gain 25lbs of muscle but will give me the confidence I need and the energy and “spark” I guess you can say to move on from this shit whole of a fake second life I’m living and get back to the real me. The me that I forgot about. The me that had goals and ambitions and didn’t have to wake up and get well to start the day but could wake up and take my time and sit with my wife like we used to in the morning. She misses that a lot. My down fall has done untilds of damage on my young marriage. Yeah we will be together for ever before we already have and we will never leave each other but if I don’t change soon then for her sake I hope I die. So she can have a real life with a real man that’s not a shit bag like me.
I almost died 6 months ago after being shot 3 times and 1 round “obliterated” my femoral artery in my left leg. I stopped a guy from smashing his wife’s head in the trunk of his car in a safeway parking lot. As he drove off he shot me 3 times from his driver seat of his truck. I had a clean shot to his head but I couldn’t pull the trigger. How could I kill this women's husband right in front of her eyes. Even if he was a fucking asshole that deserved it. Well that’s kinda the same story I’m giving myself. I can’t let my wife see me die right before her eyes. I’ve got to pick my shit up and dust it off and try harder. This is my last attempt really. If this doesn’t work I’ll probably be dead in a yea for two like my cousin who died last year at 38 years old with similar story as mine. He also just got married 3 months prior and we got into a huge fight and I told him he would be dead in 3 months. Well he dead in 4 months. That was the last thing I said to him. Pretty fucked up but it’s a huge warning flag for me. I’m predicting my own death this time. And it’s for serious. I don’t want to die but I can’t seam to get this monkey off my back so I could beat the living shit out of him and choke him to death. I fucking HATE that little fuck.
Anyways. I know I’m on a tangent and just vented my whole life story to complete strangers but god damn it felt good. I finally have a clear picture of what I need to do and how to do it. Thanks Underwood for your article. You might have just saved my life.

P.S. sorry for the grammar errors and spelling or punctuation mistakes there’s no way in hell I’m going back to do a check on what I just typed cuz I’ll end up deleting it all and I think I need to post this shit to Kent some type of official declaration or official start of a new chapter in my life. Always hoped for this day but I just never thought it would be MESO-rx forum where it would happen. Don’t get me wrong I love seeing everybody girlfriends tits and all, it’s great. Keep ‘em coming boys.

wow, my friend, this is a story, I admire what you were able to tell us and the whole story. I am sure that all the worst is behind and everything will be better for you and everything is in your hands, good luck to you and strength and patience.

 

[Ridethelightningbarefoot]

I started on aas when my ex wife died. The ritual was good for me. It enhanced gym experience which I started when I got divorced. The discipline of it helped me stay focused in life and aas brought more to that experience. I started training for PL which added even more discipline and mental occupation. I started getting my sons into lifting so it brought more opportunities to connect with them. My son put my second place medal on me at my competition and that was a amazing moment. I am a obsessive researcher too so on the path of learning about aas i got interested in biology, diet, the endocrine system, etc. So I have used aas and fitness as a coping mechanism, it has helped me not completely lose it. Aas pulled me out of depression and a self destructive path.

 

[Rickt]

I started on aas when my ex wife died. The ritual was good for me. It enhanced gym experience which I started when I got divorced. The discipline of it helped me stay focused in life and aas brought more to that experience. I started training for PL which added even more discipline and mental occupation. I started getting my sons into lifting so it brought more opportunities to connect with them. My son put my second place medal on me at my competition and that was a amazing moment. I am a obsessive researcher too so on the path of learning about aas i got interested in biology, diet, the endocrine system, etc. So I have used aas and fitness as a coping mechanism, it has helped me not completely lose it. Aas pulled me out of depression and a self destructive path.

Why do you always do this. I read a post by ridethelightening and dont know if i should cry or laugh. No one tells it better. Bringing family in must bring a great sense of accomplishment to you. It certainly is nice to read where your change gave you a better life with your family. 2nd place. I imagine in bodybuilding. Certainly not in being a parent. I think you must be a great father and deserve gold.
Sorry have to stop now cant read what im typing. Too many tears. Think i need an estrogen blocker.

 

[Hightower]

I started on aas when my ex wife died. The ritual was good for me. It enhanced gym experience which I started when I got divorced. The discipline of it helped me stay focused in life and aas brought more to that experience. I started training for PL which added even more discipline and mental occupation. I started getting my sons into lifting so it brought more opportunities to connect with them. My son put my second place medal on me at my competition and that was a amazing moment. I am a obsessive researcher too so on the path of learning about aas i got interested in biology, diet, the endocrine system, etc. So I have used aas and fitness as a coping mechanism, it has helped me not completely lose it. Aas pulled me out of depression and a self destructive path.

A great example of how the right application of AS brings benefits in life and rebuilds lives for the better. I think it was the happiest moment when your son brought you a medal

 

[Ridethelightningbarefoot]

Why do you always do this. I read a post by ridethelightening and dont know if i should cry or laugh. No one tells it better. Bringing family in must bring a great sense of accomplishment to you. It certainly is nice to read where your change gave you a better life with your family. 2nd place. I imagine in bodybuilding. Certainly not in being a parent. I think you must be a great father and deserve gold.
Sorry have to stop now cant read what im typing. Too many tears. Think i need an estrogen blocker.

Thanks haha I try. Thank you for acknowledging my story

 

[Rickt]

Thanks haha I try. Thank you for acknowledging my story

Not just me. Your honesty was a breath of fresh air in a penis talk forum. I noticed you touched a lot with what you said. Meaning there are still some human emotions left at meso. Perhaps even hope it will return to a great platform.
Keep riding the lightening. Keep your family and friends close. And a person can do much worse than ask you for advice.

 

[MairUnderwood(Researcher)]

Wow, wow, wow, wow… these stories are my entire life. Like current life. I’m currently a opiate addict whose been on and off methadone and suboxone for years and now stuck on fentanyl. I’ve been in and out of jail. I joined the marines right out of high school and it was cut short which is really where my recreational drug used turned to an addiction and self medicated use. On and off depressants. Probably spent close to $500k on drugs in the last 10 years of my 15 year addiction. 7 treatment centers. And right now I’m currently married, own a house, am living a complete lie, am even now an armed k9 patrol officer (dual purpose with explosive detection.. not norcotics k9 for obvious reasons). I’ve defiantly got my life more together as a functioning junkie but I’ve know something was off with my test levels for years. But everytime insubmitred the at home tests they came back inconclusive and wild send me another one and just gave up. I’ve done one cycle before and it also happens to be the longest time of sobriety I’ve ever truly had. 2 years. I went from 145lbs to 180lbs in 14 weeks. That stuck with me big time. I even got a job as a personal trainer at golds gym during this time but got fired for fucking all my female clients or at least the hot ones… whoops… gel back into using right away once I stopped working out and got skinner and my test levels were shit again.
I’m writing this as I hold a bottle of anadrol 50mg and sust 200 in my hand and was just looking for a new source for more sust when I came across this article and the title snagged me big time. I’m now a big time believer that this cycle will do more than just gain 25lbs of muscle but will give me the confidence I need and the energy and “spark” I guess you can say to move on from this shit whole of a fake second life I’m living and get back to the real me. The me that I forgot about. The me that had goals and ambitions and didn’t have to wake up and get well to start the day but could wake up and take my time and sit with my wife like we used to in the morning. She misses that a lot. My down fall has done untilds of damage on my young marriage. Yeah we will be together for ever before we already have and we will never leave each other but if I don’t change soon then for her sake I hope I die. So she can have a real life with a real man that’s not a shit bag like me.
I almost died 6 months ago after being shot 3 times and 1 round “obliterated” my femoral artery in my left leg. I stopped a guy from smashing his wife’s head in the trunk of his car in a safeway parking lot. As he drove off he shot me 3 times from his driver seat of his truck. I had a clean shot to his head but I couldn’t pull the trigger. How could I kill this women's husband right in front of her eyes. Even if he was a fucking asshole that deserved it. Well that’s kinda the same story I’m giving myself. I can’t let my wife see me die right before her eyes. I’ve got to pick my shit up and dust it off and try harder. This is my last attempt really. If this doesn’t work I’ll probably be dead in a yea for two like my cousin who died last year at 38 years old with similar story as mine. He also just got married 3 months prior and we got into a huge fight and I told him he would be dead in 3 months. Well he dead in 4 months. That was the last thing I said to him. Pretty fucked up but it’s a huge warning flag for me. I’m predicting my own death this time. And it’s for serious. I don’t want to die but I can’t seam to get this monkey off my back so I could beat the living shit out of him and choke him to death. I fucking HATE that little fuck.
Anyways. I know I’m on a tangent and just vented my whole life story to complete strangers but god damn it felt good. I finally have a clear picture of what I need to do and how to do it. Thanks Underwood for your article. You might have just saved my life.

P.S. sorry for the grammar errors and spelling or punctuation mistakes there’s no way in hell I’m going back to do a check on what I just typed cuz I’ll end up deleting it all and I think I need to post this shit to Kent some type of official declaration or official start of a new chapter in my life. Always hoped for this day but I just never thought it would be MESO-rx forum where it would happen. Don’t get me wrong I love seeing everybody girlfriends tits and all, it’s great. Keep ‘em coming boys.

Fuck man, what a story! how are you going? how's your new life? I am stoked that my article inspired you and really hope you are doing well. I would love to hear more about your story, how your life is changing, and the role of AAS in this change

 

[Hightower]

Fuck man, what a story! how are you going? how's your new life? I am stoked that my article inspired you and really hope you are doing well. I would love to hear more about your story, how your life is changing, and the role of AAS in this change

I join and wait with interest for continuation and news.