Meso drug addicts

[Big_paul]

Ill.do anything to help anyone only if they will help themselves. If.you arent willing to change nothing i do can be of any help.

I'm with you brother. Unfortunately some never make it out. My friends started dying in there late 20's and 30's. Fast foread 20 years later. I have one friend left from that time. Everyone else is dead. With what is left of my heart, if I relapse, I would bet money I'd last no more that 6 months.


Bodybuilding saved my life. That and God. It taught me to have respect for myself.

Reading the testimonies here makes me physically sick. But one thing is for sure, we have one hell of a support group.

If anyone here ever needs help, you will have my phone number. Just ask. We can help each other stay alive.

 

[pmac928]

I'm with you brother. Unfortunately some never make it out. My friends started dying in there late 20's and 30's. Fast foread 20 years later. I have one friend left from that time. Everyone else is dead. With what is left of my heart, if I relapse, I would bet money I'd last no more that 6 months.


Bodybuilding saved my life. That and God. It taught me to have respect for myself.

Reading the testimonies here makes me physically sick. But one thing is for sure, we have one hell of a support group.

If anyone here ever needs help, you will have my phone number. Just ask. We can help each other stay alive.

Over the past year year and a half I've been to countless funerals, all from drug overdoses. My brother is so strung out atm it makes me sick. I refuse to even entertain some of the shit he says or does. My pops sells pain killers amd my mother struggles to keep from being slumped over on the couch from a xanax induced coma.
I sometimes here from my family that I'm on an ego trip, but I've worked my ass off for all I have. Remeber misery loves company and those down and out would love to bring us back out.

 

[Whoremoans]

This was my dope diet physique. I would go days without food or sleep. I finally hit the 200lb mark today. 65-70lbs since this picture was taken.

 

[Seven]

This was my dope diet physique. I would go days without food or sleep. I finally hit the 200lb mark today. 65-70lbs since this picture was taken. View attachment 28531

Goddammit son eat a sandwich...You looked like pre Capt. America!!! Lol


Congrats on 200 my friend!!

 

[Whoremoans]

Goddammit son eat a sandwich...You looked like pre Capt. America!!! Lol


Congrats on 200 my friend!!

The shit was bad man I looked like I had been staying at auschwitz. I was too fucked up to realize how much weight I had lost, and believe it or not I was flexing so hard trying to look as big as I could in that picture. I don't think I would've lasted much longer if I hadn't come to my senses. Thanks though brother, 200lbs has been a long time goal.

 

[pmac928]

This was my dope diet physique. I would go days without food or sleep. I finally hit the 200lb mark today. 65-70lbs since this picture was taken. View attachment 28531

How long ago was this? I know the feeling. No way would I take a oicture.of myself looking the way I did. Straight skeletor. But that was years ago. I'm a solid 220 today.

 

[Whoremoans]

How long ago was this? I know the feeling. No way would I take a oicture.of myself looking the way I did. Straight skeletor. But that was years ago. I'm a solid 220 today.

That picture was taken about 8 months ago give or take.

 

[pmac928]

Just stick wi th it. My first year was great. Then life got real. Life on life's terms showed up, but as long as you don't get high it can only get better.

Keep up the hard work.

Our brains are wired to destroy ourselves, its not normal to live as.a.productive member of society.

 

[Whoremoans]

Just stick wi th it. My first year was great. Then life got real. Life on life's terms showed up, but as long as you don't get high it can only get better.

Keep up the hard work.

Our brains are wired to destroy ourselves, its not normal to live as.a.productive member of society.

I've got clean and relapsed 4 times in the past and each time my condition got progressively worse. This is the first time I've tried complete abstinence from drugs and it seems to be the only way.

 

[Rackin45s]

I've got clean and relapsed 4 times in the past and each time my condition got progressively worse. This is the first time I've tried complete abstinence from drugs and it seems to be the only way.

Make no mistake, abstinence is the only way!!! Just remember to work just as hard, if not harder on the inside as you are on the outside!!

 

[pmac928]

I've got clean and relapsed 4 times in the past and each time my condition got progressively worse. This is the first time I've tried complete abstinence from drugs and it seems to be the only way.

You've got to chase it and not get complacent. It's pretty simple really. Just don't get high no matter what. Not even 1.

 

[jaymaximus]

Goddammit son eat a sandwich...You looked like pre Capt. America!!! Lol


Congrats on 200 my friend!!

This actually made me LMAO. Its gone. I cant even sit down anymore.
Its only funny cuz youre where youre at @Whoremoans. Its great how far youve come. Not just in gym, but in life. Keep it up brother!

 

[Ozzy619]

The shit was bad man I looked like I had been staying at auschwitz. I was too fucked up to realize how much weight I had lost, and believe it or not I was flexing so hard trying to look as big as I could in that picture. I don't think I would've lasted much longer if I hadn't come to my senses. Thanks though brother, 200lbs has been a long time goal.

I feel ya, that shit makes anyone skin and bones, no desire to eat at all. Youve coe along ass way, hope you still have those abs though

 

[JackC4]

If "we" were able to keep ourselves from going back we would not be addicts. The single fact that we cannot and never will have that power defines us.

You've got to chase it and not get complacent. It's pretty simple really. Just don't get high no matter what. Not even 1.

Had to bump these

Hitting the 7am meeting tomorrow, it's the best way to start my day. Something special happens when you have a group of recovering addicts together at that hour.

 

[Notits]

Had to bump these

Life begins and ends with these 2 concepts.

 

[Whoremoans]

I feel ya, that shit makes anyone skin and bones, no desire to eat at all. Youve coe along ass way, hope you still have those abs though

Abs are still there but not quite as defined. Kinda hard to compete with the 2% bf I was workin with back then lol. I hit the dreamer bulk harddd but now I'm at about 12% if I had to guess.

 

[Ozzy619]

Abs are still there but not quite as defined. Kinda hard to compete with the 2% bf I was workin with back then lol. I hit the dreamer bulk harddd but now I'm at about 12% if I had to guess.

12% is alot healthier that 2%. I havent seen my abs since my druggy days but I could care less. I remember I would see people laughing and being happy and I thought I would never have those feelings ever again. I couldnt go anywhere public with getting an axiety attack. Sex was out of the question, couldnt even get a hard dick if I wanted. I was fucked up for about a year after drugs till I finally got better. Now I can talk shit, laugh and have sex. Joy has come back even after I thought it was impossible.

 

[Whoremoans]

12% is alot healthier that 2%. I havent seen my abs since my druggy days but I could care less. I remember I would see people laughing and being happy and I thought I would never have those feelings ever again. I couldnt go anywhere public with getting an axiety attack. Sex was out of the question, couldnt even get a hard dick if I wanted. I was fucked up for about a year after drugs till I finally got better. Now I can talk shit, laugh and have sex. Joy has come back even after I thought it was impossible.

I'm glad everything has improved for you bro. I know how you felt and I'm still kinda trying to figure out how to do the normal life. Substance abuse started very early for me and I never really lived normal. Things are improving though and I'm thankful for every day I'm sober.

 

[penche]

I have a scrip for Xanax and been using them to sleep. Same with tramadol, when needed. Was heavy on beer drinking everyday for the past 8 yrs. Cut the beer 2 months ago, when I got serious with my diet and physique. Which sucks even more is today I have to go in for an ultrasound on my liver. Doc said it didn't look completely normal and wants to run more tests to be certain its nothing serious.

Unfortunately the dosage on benzos had to increase to sleep.

Can benzos decrease fat metabolism and growth during sleep? I'd like to get off of them completely but it helps me sleep and control mild anxiety. Shit sucks.

 

[Whoremoans]

I have a scrip for Xanax and been using them to sleep. Same with tramadol, when needed. Was heavy on beer drinking everyday for the past 8 yrs. Cut the beer 2 months ago, when I got serious with my diet and physique. Which sucks even more is today I have to go in for an ultrasound on my liver. Doc said it didn't look completely normal and wants to run more tests to be certain its nothing serious.

Unfortunately the dosage on benzos had to increase to sleep.

Can benzos decrease fat metabolism and growth during sleep? I'd like to get off of them completely but it helps me sleep and control mild anxiety. Shit sucks.

Benzos are a nasty drug man. Coming off those is no joke so if you ever want to be off I'd quit sooner than later.