Mishka
Member
Ladies and Gentlemen,
welcome to my way to become a mutant
At first, I would like to make clear that I am no native speaker, please be lenient
so, lets start: my Nickname is Mishka, I do come from germany and I am 32 years old.
I started my "journey" around 13 years ago. To that time I was just a "skinny kid" (I don't even have any pictures of it, because I disliked my body that much
... I should maybe ask my parents, if they have any "before gym" pictures of me - I am sure they do).
I did start, maybe like most people, with a friend of mine and we just "moved the weights", no logbook, no eating schedule, no workout schedule, just doing the movements - having fun. To that time I did also say: "Eat on a schedule? Carry tupperware with me? No alcohol on the weekends? Hahaha, I want to live my life and do whatever I want."
After like a year, my friend got to know a new girl, so he stopped working out - like many people do.
My goal here was just to get my weight up to be "more sturdy" and not that easy to "push around", I weighed like 58 kgs / 128 lbs with a height of 1.73m / 5'8".
I wanted to get to something like 70 kgs / 154 lbs.
My father was working out as a teenager to - and when I started working out, he told me: "Son, never stop working out - not for women, not for work, for nothing - I did the mistake myself, when a new girl came around, I stopped working out, when we broke up, I started from the beginning. When it was summer, I wanted to ride with my motorcycle friends all day, and stopped working out, in the winter, I started from the beginning."
And this words, like you can read here, have always been in my mind. One time, a girl said "The gym or me!" and I told her that she gotta live with it, or leave me. Spoiler: she stayed with me anyway.
So I worked out with my father, for like another 2 years maybe, he got an impingement on one side, got it fixed, and then on the other side, and stopped working out completely.
I'd be around like 70-80 kgs / 154-176 lbs - my goal was to get to 90 kgs / 200 lbs.
It was around this time, I got to a new gym, around new people, and got to know someone who called himself an "athlete" - fyi he never became anything near successful and eventually stopped working out completely too. But he has been the one, who introduced me to the darkside. I was interested in steroids before, so I read forums, watched many youtube videos and asked people around me, also him. He then sold me like 3 vials of Test E (iirc from some lab called "Cambridge" something) - as I was young and did not have much money, I asked my father for the money, and he gave it to me. Knewing what I am gonna buy and do. My father then told me that he also took steroids when he was younger ... I thought that been funny to hear.
So I started my steroid journey, again with a new "higher goal", I wanted to be 100 kgs / 220 lbs. I started doing test only, and swore to myself I'd never do anything beside test only - little did I know ...
I eventually got up to 100 kgs / 220 lbs - but with sloppy form / high bf - but I just chased scale weight - so I got up to like 111 kgs / 244 lbs and thought to myself, I look like a big pile of lard...
So I did my first cut, iirc it was around that time, I started to experiment with other steroids. Then bulked up again and cut down again, like year after year, same procedure.
Long story short, I did always want more and more and more weight and better form - so I am currently sitting at around 125 kgs / 276 lbs and want to get up to like 140 kgs / 309 lbs to cut down to around 115-120 kgs / 253-264 lbs sub 10% bodyfat.
If anyone is interested to accompany that journey, here is my log
And if anyone got any questions, criticism or ideas, I am happy to read them. Just post in here
In the end, I looked through my phone, and found some pictures - more new than old, but still, some old.
welcome to my way to become a mutant
At first, I would like to make clear that I am no native speaker, please be lenient
so, lets start: my Nickname is Mishka, I do come from germany and I am 32 years old.
I started my "journey" around 13 years ago. To that time I was just a "skinny kid" (I don't even have any pictures of it, because I disliked my body that much
... I should maybe ask my parents, if they have any "before gym" pictures of me - I am sure they do).I did start, maybe like most people, with a friend of mine and we just "moved the weights", no logbook, no eating schedule, no workout schedule, just doing the movements - having fun. To that time I did also say: "Eat on a schedule? Carry tupperware with me? No alcohol on the weekends? Hahaha, I want to live my life and do whatever I want."
After like a year, my friend got to know a new girl, so he stopped working out - like many people do.
My goal here was just to get my weight up to be "more sturdy" and not that easy to "push around", I weighed like 58 kgs / 128 lbs with a height of 1.73m / 5'8".
I wanted to get to something like 70 kgs / 154 lbs.
My father was working out as a teenager to - and when I started working out, he told me: "Son, never stop working out - not for women, not for work, for nothing - I did the mistake myself, when a new girl came around, I stopped working out, when we broke up, I started from the beginning. When it was summer, I wanted to ride with my motorcycle friends all day, and stopped working out, in the winter, I started from the beginning."
And this words, like you can read here, have always been in my mind. One time, a girl said "The gym or me!" and I told her that she gotta live with it, or leave me. Spoiler: she stayed with me anyway.
So I worked out with my father, for like another 2 years maybe, he got an impingement on one side, got it fixed, and then on the other side, and stopped working out completely.
I'd be around like 70-80 kgs / 154-176 lbs - my goal was to get to 90 kgs / 200 lbs.
It was around this time, I got to a new gym, around new people, and got to know someone who called himself an "athlete" - fyi he never became anything near successful and eventually stopped working out completely too. But he has been the one, who introduced me to the darkside. I was interested in steroids before, so I read forums, watched many youtube videos and asked people around me, also him. He then sold me like 3 vials of Test E (iirc from some lab called "Cambridge" something) - as I was young and did not have much money, I asked my father for the money, and he gave it to me. Knewing what I am gonna buy and do. My father then told me that he also took steroids when he was younger
... I thought that been funny to hear.So I started my steroid journey, again with a new "higher goal", I wanted to be 100 kgs / 220 lbs. I started doing test only, and swore to myself I'd never do anything beside test only - little did I know
...I eventually got up to 100 kgs / 220 lbs - but with sloppy form / high bf - but I just chased scale weight - so I got up to like 111 kgs / 244 lbs and thought to myself, I look like a big pile of lard...
So I did my first cut, iirc it was around that time, I started to experiment with other steroids. Then bulked up again and cut down again, like year after year, same procedure.
Long story short, I did always want more and more and more weight and better form - so I am currently sitting at around 125 kgs / 276 lbs and want to get up to like 140 kgs / 309 lbs to cut down to around 115-120 kgs / 253-264 lbs sub 10% bodyfat.
If anyone is interested to accompany that journey, here is my log
And if anyone got any questions, criticism or ideas, I am happy to read them. Just post in here
In the end, I looked through my phone, and found some pictures - more new than old, but still, some old.
