MESO-Rx
Anabolic Steroids
My hypo hell
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Ryno1980
New Member
So wait... pretty much every person on here had given u different advice.... do steroids... don't do steroids.... see a doc.. fuck the doc... hcg no hcg... big balls ..little balls.... you don't seem to be happy with anyone's advice so what exactly are you looking for? And so we're clear jackass... I'd be very carefull saying fuck you to someone who was trying to help... especially if you want your time here to be helpful instead of a bunch of peeps telling you what a fucking idiot you are.... and you are in fact an idiot.... your history speaks for its self...
Whoremoans
Member
So I've been on for 5 months now. Using HCG sporadically throughout the cycle. Do you guys think I'd have a fighting chance of recovery if I decide to come off?
BirdieNumNum
Banned
Correct ryno or whatever that gay ass name is. I have been an idiot plain to see, but I've had my reasons very young naive. A life you "ryno" would most probably not handle so please, do not speak down to me. Exactly you have just said it yourself.. So much different advice what do I take? I'm obviously going to tough it out and listen to my endo. I wouldn't have jumped back on if I already had them results. I'm curious if anyone knows that the Sertoli cells in the testicles can be the problem I have with mass with them? Obviously my leydig do infact work to some degree now.
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BirdieNumNum
Banned
Oh and ryno my para u quoted.... I was being sarcastic.
Ryno1980
New Member
Listen here you little punk ass bitch.... you don't know shit about me but you probably better do a little reading before you come at me sideways.... while you were going through your horribly tough life of steroil use, I was serving 3 tours in Iraq with the infantry.... I lost more than a few of my fellow soldiers .. some standing next to me .... you don't know a fucking thing about hard times motherfucker so back the fuck up! ... you obviously know not a fucking thing about this forum... your not gonna get any respect by talying out your ass pumkin....
BirdieNumNum
Banned
u mad bro?
BirdieNumNum
Banned
Any one man is but "one" man with fellows. U deserve respect for that ofcourse, but mate don't continue to dog me for my mistakes... I only asked for help my mind has obviously been battered with this but congratulations for becoming angry at a fucking screen u Mong. Haha
Ryno1980
New Member
#1 I'm not angry... I feel sorry for you..
#2 if you even read half your fucking thread you would have seen I was on your side and trying to help until you tell a respected wkm to fuck off...
Boo hoo, you have to live with tiny balls bc of your own fuckups. You're the only one to blame. As if that's a fucking cause of concern to begin with considering you're eugonadal.
If you have no lust for women, maybe it's bc you're into men. Whatever floats your boat man. I don't judge. To each their own.
BirdieNumNum
Banned
Cool guys sound.
Yes!!!!! I recovered fron 2 year cycles more then once and with no pct.
Lmao 1 doc d bag 0
Whoremoans
Member
Awesome man.. Hope is restored lol.
No primary hypogonadism is associated with low levels of TT not normal ones
Ok my bad 13.3 nmol/L converts to 383 ng/dl which i guess does seem normal esp for an afternoon sample
Exactly! TT levels can drop drastically if not measured close to waking and especially considering his history of steroid abuse also.
Listen bro, I've been where you are, to a lesser extent. I didn't suffer for 2.5 years, but I honestly felt like I would never be normal again. 3.5 years ago, I ended a tren ace cycle, probably 10 weeks, after what was probably a 3-month break following a 12 week tren ace cycle. I was an absolute mess. Lost my job, lost my girlfriend in the time leading up to that cycle ending. I had no energy or motivation, and looking back on it, real anxiety and depression. I stupidly toughed it out, got better, and even ended up doing 4 more cycles since then. It's reading stories like yours, and the obvious irrationality of many posts on these steroids forums, that has left me resolved to never touch these drugs again.
These drugs fuck with your head, period.
I will tell you straight up, your obsessing over your balls is a major sign of mental illness. You need to see a psychiatrist. Get on a benzodiazepine tranquilizer for 4-6 weeks while a suitable antidepressant takes effect. These obsessive thoughts combined with your worry are not rational, and likely have nothing to do with AAS use.
Assuming you are not a troll, chances are, there are other aspects of your life that are messed up right now. You just don't realize yet. I didn't think my life was messed up back in early 2013, but it was.
With the exception of Dr. Scally, we are all just a bunch of anonymous nobodies on the internet. The amount of bullshit you read on these forums is astounding. You're lucky you're on the ONE forum that isn't as bad as the rest.
Go see a psychiatrist. Your HPTA may or may not be destroyed, but your mental and emotional state is clearly compromised. You are not in a position to rationally address this problem until you are stable. Once you've reached that point, come back here and we'll start this with a fresh look.
Start a new thread. Most people recover, no matter how bad the abuse is. But, there is too much other information we need to know to properly advise you. You have to always remember that people who recover OK don't come on to these forums. It's just like with any number of tech support or medical forums. All you see are problems.
And, speaking from personal experience, whatever the hell your cycle is now - stop it. Don't be a fool. It's just not worth it in the long run.
