I know that, I know about the “trend”, but I’m not a part of it. I got off ssri and stuff for over 3 years (I know it took me a lot but I was fooled my doctors and ruined my life trusting them). Also this symptoms had me on ssri, they didn’t start AFTER taking ssri. I took dhea 1 month, I didn’t felt anything and I quit. Maybe 1 month was not enough, I don’t know. But I stopped taking it, now I take only vitamins. Working out 6 day/week,i am fit, counting macros, eating more whole meals and less processed foods. And I don’t look validation from people, I’m looking for advice and opinions that could help me to not make things worse for me. So this started 20 years ago in a very very stressful period of my life. Sexual issues started and that spiraled into depression, anxiety, brain fog, desperation , the feeling of not recognizing myself in what I’ve become, in the end. Affected my personal, professional and social life. Tried to find solutions, but every Dr I’ve been to said “yeah you are too young, go take ssri and start therapy”. And I did that for the next years without any change, actually feeling worse and ruined my life. I couldn’t keep a relationship due to my sexual issues and emotional issues. I could not be mentally focused and professionally orientated and I had to change my job as a legal consultant to a less mentally focused job. Everything I was as a man took a huge hit. I wasn’t able to have a familly or kids due to this issues. Finally, when I was 40 yo I meet my gf, who does support me and understands me to some degree, but I still have this symptoms and that’s not a life. For example, we didn’t had sex for 3 months now, from January I think. Before that, was once a week or once two weeks. My libido is trash. I could make my worm work somehow with cialis, but I don’t have the motivation to use it. No libido, no drive. This is not the way to keep and grow in a relationship. I had my sperm a mess, and while taking HCG for fertility (I hope that my gf at some point will want to have a kid with me even tho she already has 2 of her own), that was the only period in 20 years that I’ve felt like myself. I was looking into the mirror and I had that profound feeling of finding myself again, a whole man again. I had libido, no ED, as a result of this I had almost no depression, no anxiety, I had motivation to do stuff, 2 weeks feeling better made me motivated to think that maybe I could get back to legal counseling asap, I wished to be involved in stuff, taking personal projects, I had a profound feeling of normality and I was, finally, normal. So I’m not a part of a trend or looking for permissions, HCG or TRT may be the only thing that gave me my life back after I’ve lost the best years of my life due to incompetent doctors and God knows what else, because I don’t seem to find what’s wrong. And I don’t want to lose this again, after I’ve found a possible solution. I am just asking more experienced people than me if/how should I do it and not make things worse for me, that’s it. I’m looking for ideas and help into this. I was thinking that maybe my androgen receptors are fucked and I respond to elevate (but normal) levels, and that’s why I feel this way in low-ish levels..etc etc. But I’m not an expert, all I can do is ask for opinions, not permissions.
Thx for answering man! Talking helps