Ive decided to move forward and log my story, and update progress. My hope is for it to have a positive impact on those who see it. Allow me to catch everyone up to present day.
At the end of 2019 life hit hard. I lost my mother, my girl left, carrer ended, totaled my camero, got a dui, went broke and if that wasnt enough I had a warrent out for my fucking arrest. All this happened one after another in a mater of months.
I became suicidal, life knocked me down and I refused to get back up. I started abusing Adderall, MDMA, alcohol and Klonopin. I ate like shit, stopped working out and dug myself into a bigger hole for over a year.
I lost my mental and physical health as my body went from jacked and swole to jelly and rolls. I knew it was only a matter of time before a killed myself.
I could no longer live in a mediocre life of defeat, so I gave myself an ultimatum. I would out work my problems every day from here on out regardless of how I feel, or I would take my own life. I have been succefull so far and through all the work, pain, fatigue and suffering just recently have I started to find peace and progress.
Bellow is me April of 2021 close to rock fucking bottom
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