No, don't work at the minute. I'm in rehab and not allowed to, well I am but I'd have to pay full rent if I worked. I have enough savings to get myself sorted out though until I find a job.
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No, don't work at the minute. I'm in rehab and not allowed to, well I am but I'd have to pay full rent if I worked. I have enough savings to get myself sorted out though until I find a job.
Getting bloods done at a free steroid user clinic over here. It won't cost me a penny. Free bloodwork, lol!! It's funny because a few days I was praying for help and then the next day my insulin resistance reversed.
I want MAIS again, I really do. I miss having it.
Ever since I joined this board I was trying to figure out why the fuck my T levels were elevated after abusing androgens in my prime which totally screwed me up. I wanted my T levels to be low so that I could get treatment but nothing lowered them, even staying up 24 hours before blood tests didn't lower them one bit. I was about to top myself because I thought I was cursed. My T levels were always persistently elevated even though I had symptoms of hypogonadism. Eventually I found out that my LH was elevated and that I had a very rare condition which affects every 1 in 100,000 or so males. I then went to see a specialist who looked at my bloodwork and diagnosed me straight away and referred me to an endo near me. Then all of a sudden just as I was about to get treatment for this condition my fucking T and LH drops and everything goes pear shaped.
I just hope that bloodwork comes back with high T and LH. The man up there wanted me to be different. i don't give a flying fuck if my endo won't help me. All those docs I've seen ever since I messed myself up didn't have a clue. None of them. I'm glad I got to the bottom of my problems and now I'm going to pull myself out. You only live once and I'm going to make the most of it. I need a higher level of testosterone..
I want MAIS again, I really do. I miss having it.
Ever since I joined this board I was trying to figure out why the fuck my T levels were elevated after abusing androgens in my prime which totally screwed me up. I wanted my T levels to be low so that I could get treatment but nothing lowered them, even staying up 24 hours before blood tests didn't lower them one bit. I was about to top myself because I thought I was cursed. My T levels were always persistently elevated even though I had symptoms of hypogonadism. Eventually I found out that my LH was elevated and that I had a very rare condition which affects every 1 in 100,000 or so males. I then went to see a specialist who looked at my bloodwork and diagnosed me straight away and referred me to an endo near me. Then all of a sudden just as I was about to get treatment for this condition my fucking T and LH drops and everything goes pear shaped.I just hope that bloodwork comes back with high T and LH. The man up there wanted me to be different. i don't give a flying fuck if my endo won't help me. All those docs I've seen ever since I messed myself up didn't have a clue. None of them. I'm glad I got to the bottom of my problems and now I'm going to pull myself out. You only live once and I'm going to make the most of it. I need a higher level of testosterone..
This thread still cracks me up!! who the fuck was right from the fucking beginning? Who, tell me now? Who the fuck was right, lol?
https://thinksteroids.com/community/threads/134292637
https://thinksteroids.com/community/threads/134292637
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And one of the biggest worries is that she isn't with anyone else. hasn't fucked anyone else as I imagined because she's fucking beautiful. I thought that some other guy would have been in there but nope. She's waiting for me. She wants me still after all this fucking time and I'm like what If I don't respond to testosterone. What if I'm doomed for life and it doesn't work out for me?
She is waiting for me and believe me guys because I know 100%. She is waiting for me to get better. She wants my dick and no one elses.
She is waiting for me and believe me guys because I know 100%. She is waiting for me to get better. She wants my dick and no one elses.
I can always tell its the weekend by the tone of your posts.
Bloods taken yesterday at 3:30 pm. T and gonadotropins. Now just waiting for the results. If T and LH come back high then I'm going to start on a low supplementary dose of Test enanthate. If the results come back with hypogonadal levels then I'm shooting 300 mg a week.
Let's see how well I respond to testosterone enanthate. The same shit which fucked me up. This is the time man. Now is the fucking time.
Let's see how well I respond to testosterone enanthate. The same shit which fucked me up. This is the time man. Now is the fucking time.
Its the weekend
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WTF??!!! has this geezer completely lost the plot now?
Ha ha, here's what happened. I moved back into my mothers last Thursday and she said that if I relapsed then she'd kick me out again. And guess what I did Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday night? I got plastered on cider all day and night and plenty of Marijuana. I was completely out of my mind. In another world.
I'm back in rehab and they say that I must clean up my act now otherwise theey're throwing me out.
I've joined a gym, and boxing classes twice a week, going to stick to a diet, stop masturbating to porn 8 times a day and no more blood sugar checking. I was checking my blood sugars before and 1 plus two hour after every meal and also snacks. I was going through over 100 test strips a week.
so your shitty, wanking, pussified alcohol abuse IS one of your bigger worries. they say thats the first step. good luck.
Well, it is for now. It is what I need to do to beat all this. God knows how long it'll take to sort this out because today made me think how special I really am. My urologist didn't even mention MAIS, he still has no clue. Of course he isn't a master of hormones, he just looks at my T levels like nearly every other doctor I've been to and doesn't think that I need TRT.
And guess what his recommendation was? Muse pellets or something for my ED. i now realise that I won't get any help in this world from any doctor unless I go back to the same man who diagnosed me but I'm not going to. I don't want Sustanon 250 every three weeks or even nebido for that matter. I want 300 mg T every week. And I f have to put myself on then I need to beat the alcohol abuse.
So thanks for everyone who said that alcohol abuse was my biggest problem because it is. For the minute.
no. forever. myself as well. and a long list of other shit too. i can execpt that. but i have different problems. binging, not chronic. alcohol is the most insidious. its poison. it literally destoys the body and brain.
how do jerk off 8 times a day with ed
.no. forever. myself as well. and a long list of other shit too. i can execpt that. but i have different problems. binging, not chronic. alcohol is the most insidious. its poison. it literally destoys the body and brain.
I can get an hard on too porn. My libido goes through the roof when I'm watching porn but all other times it's dead. The chronic masturbation has made me insulin resistance and lowered my T and LH levels too the hypogonadal. I know this is what caused it because even Dr Mariano mentions somewhere about overmasturbation lowering T levels and causing insulin resistance.
I keep trying to cut this habit out but can't. If I want my T and LH levels back into the mAIS range then I need to beat this too, just as much as the alcohol abuse.
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