One more thing

[keriheat]

And one last thin before I go. I was blessed at birth. He wanted me to be different, this was meant to happen. It's a gift from god. No one can be me. I have MAIS and proud.

This is not good!...I'm concerned for you. This is going on way too long without a positive direction. You are standing at the cliff of a mental disintegration. You need psychological help, preferably a good psychiatrist.

I believe the best thing this board can do for you, is to stop interacting with you, because it is not the help you need and it is not helping. You need some serious mental intervention and it's my opinion we are only feeding into your problem. You need local help now! I have never taken this action on any other thread I have been involved in. I will not be responding on this thread until you get some psychiatric help. God bless you my friend. My prayers are with you.

 

[Michael Scally MD]

Heavy Drinking Rewires Brain, Increasing Susceptibility to Anxiety Problems
Heavy drinking rewires brain, increasing susceptibility to anxiety problems

ScienceDaily (Sep. 2, 2012) — Doctors have long recognized a link between alcoholism and anxiety disorders such as post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Those who drink heavily are at increased risk for traumatic events like car accidents and domestic violence, but that only partially explains the connection. New research using mice reveals heavy alcohol use actually rewires brain circuitry, making it harder for alcoholics to recover psychologically following a traumatic experience.

Holmes A, Fitzgerald PJ, MacPherson KP, et al. Chronic alcohol remodels prefrontal neurons and disrupts NMDAR-mediated fear extinction encoding. Nat Neurosci;advance online publication. http://www.nature.com/neuro/journal/vaop/ncurrent/full/nn.3204.html

Alcoholism is frequently co-morbid with post-traumatic stress disorder, but it is unclear how alcohol affects the neural circuits mediating recovery from trauma. We found that chronic intermittent ethanol (CIE) impaired fear extinction and remodeled the dendritic arbor of medial prefrontal cortical (mPFC) neurons in mice. CIE impaired extinction encoding by infralimbic mPFC neurons in vivo and functionally downregulated burst-mediating NMDA GluN1 receptors. These findings suggest that alcohol may increase risk for trauma-related anxiety disorders by disrupting mPFC-mediated extinction of fear.

 

[sade]

This is not good!...I'm concerned for you. This is going on way too long without a positive direction. You are standing at the cliff of a mental disintegration. You need psychological help, preferably a good psychiatrist.

I believe the best thing this board can do for you, is to stop interacting with you, because it is not the help you need and it is not helping. You need some serious mental intervention and it's my opinion we are only feeding into your problem. You need local help now! I have never taken this action on any other thread I have been involved in. I will not be responding on this thread until you get some psychiatric help. God bless you my friend. My prayers are with you.

A psychiatrist is NOT going to give me my dick back. I'm depressed because I can't get an hard on and I'm a handsome fucker. I wasted all my life savings which my parents split between me and my sister just to find out what the hell was wrong with me, why my testosterone levels were elevated after abusing androgens in the prime of life. No doctor had a clue apart from Dr Gerard Conway who just happens to be the greatest androgen insitivity dr in this whole god damn world. Read up on him; he runs his own hospital and support group dedicated to AIS in all forms though mine is the rarest and least common. This condition is very very rare in normal males. He isn't some douchebag shithole tosser of a doctor like Easyrider thinks he is and the endo he referred me to is a world known androgens expert who wrote his own very popular book. This is why I fly off the handle with easyrider because all the evidence is there that I have this and my blood records show it. High LH means that my pituitary gland thinks my T is low and that I need more Testosterone but easyrider can't get this through his thick skull the fucking twat. This is a very rare condition and I just happen to have it. I'm writing this on my playstation 3 so sorry about not using proper sentences . Oh, yeah I'm thinking of shootin 500mg TRT for life.

 

[sade]

I will not let this one go easyrider you pussyfied twat. I've took many dbol cycles longer than you have, took roids since I was 21 and they fucked me up and I have MAIS. It was a 9 month cycle which messed me up and i'm still a skinny fucker. Is that normal? You fucking pussy dick licking wanker. DONT YOU EVER RESPOND TO MY THREADS AGAIN YOU 4 WEEK DBOL CYCLE FAGGOT

 

[sade]

One more thing before people that haven't a slightest clue what I'm going through why I get seriously fucking pissed off. It's not because of shitty motherfucking alcohol abuse and I don't need a shithole of a psychiatrist. I need my fuckin dick back you fucking shit heads. No one on this forum has gave me good advice apart from Structure who has MAIS himself so don't you ever dare tell me again that I need to see a psychiatrist and that fucking alcohol is my main problem. Don't ever say that again. I want my dick back and nothing more, nothing less. All out

 

[Olden]

Obviously, the entire world is waiting for you to get your "dick back", it's like your Superman or somethin. CNN is on the case, dude, youre Jesus.

Either that or you gay. I think that might be it. Stop fighting it, man.

PS: Get a job, too, you lazy, earning nothing but doing every damn thing the easy way mothafucker. Life is about strugglin to earn what you get, you spoilt, "pussyfied" mf, not being given everythin and wasting it like some big, lazy 30something toddler with a pacifier up in its grill.

PPS: I will give you one piece of great advice. Stop with the porno. This is seriously the best advice you will ever get.

 

[foreveryoung]

bad advice olden, porno is a good thing, along the lines of "use it or lose it"

when you have no libido you have no interest in porno

when libido is extreme, you can masturbate 6 hours a day and still keep coming back for more and go looking for girls to bang as well

 

[Olden]

^Nah, man. You need to do a bit more research. Too much is a bad thing. Take it from me, I lost my mojo from it! Stopped the spanking for a month, stopped looking at porno, libido was back at superhuman levels!!

People need to check out their addicitions and stop being in denial about them, thats all.

 

[foreveryoung]

^Nah, man. You need to do a bit more research. Too much is a bad thing. Take it from me, I lost my mojo from it! Stopped the spanking for a month, stopped looking at porno, libido was back at superhuman levels!!

People need to check out their addicitions and stop being in denial about them, thats all.

still disagree with you on that, but no sense arguing

I am pretty in tune with libido, it has been something I have been working on and acutely aware of for decades, when I get my libido strong I can ejaculate twice or three times a day and look at porn all I want, and bang girls, and that can last for years and years at an extreme rate

when libido is in the tank there is no interest in porn or banging girls, and a month or two of no interest doesn't change that

I would suggest that there was some other factor in your case that you are not aware of

 

[Olden]

^Hehe, thanks for being so insightful there, man. I appreciate it. Hehe.

All I can say is this: try it, sade, its FREE. Stop the whining, too, we all grown men now.

 

[sade]

Obviously, the entire world is waiting for you to get your "dick back", it's like your Superman or somethin. CNN is on the case, dude, youre Jesus.

Either that or you gay. I think that might be it. Stop fighting it, man.

PS: Get a job, too, you lazy, earning nothing but doing every damn thing the easy way mothafucker. Life is about strugglin to earn what you get, you spoilt, "pussyfied" mf, not being given everythin and wasting it like some big, lazy 30something toddler with a pacifier up in its grill.


PPS: I will give you one piece of great advice. Stop with the porno. This is seriously the best advice you will ever get.

I've found out the source of my problems and won't be needing tghis shitty forum anymore. None of you guys help me all you give me is asshole. So Olden shut ther fuckup and stay out of my thread which I'll never be posting anymore. My time is done here. Thank you structure for helping me out. Everyone else is are wanking dickshit fuckers who are going to get me bannedfrom this forum forever if I stick around. So fuck you all you pieces of shit and ban me forever you cunts. I have MAIS and will move on with my life you fucking cunts. I hope you all die in in hell. Now please ban me forever.


S

 

[Olden]

^Hey, at least try what I said, cant do any harm.

 

[foreveryoung]

I've found out the source of my problems and won't be needing tghis shitty forum anymore. None of you guys help me all you give me is asshole. So Olden shut ther fuckup and stay out of my thread which I'll never be posting anymore. My time is done here. Thank you structure for helping me out. Everyone else is are wanking dickshit fuckers who are going to get me bannedfrom this forum forever if I stick around. So fuck you all you pieces of shit and ban me forever you cunts. I have MAIS and will move on with my life you fucking cunts. I hope you all die in in hell. Now please ban me forever.


S

what did I ever say to deserve this??

 

[Michael Scally MD]

Home - Helping Others Live Sober

 

[sade]

what did I ever say to deserve this??

I wasn't on about you, I enjoy reading your posts and follow your thread. That wasn't aimed at anyone present on meso these days other than and only EasyRider the (4 wk dbol taking, libido losing, hypogonadal inducing, normal endocrine producing gimp) and some other twats in the past.

I started takin AAS just as I turned 21. I took many different kinds, trained, ate and slept well. I made no gains only water weight when I came off.

The cycle which did me in was I.P. Test E for 9 month.

I've decided to self treat with 500mg T every week. A 250mg shot every Monday and Thursday. This if the endo won't help me.

 

[sade]

500mg T every week for life or as long as I live as permanent TRT. I may drop the dose down a little to 400mg every week.

A 250mg or 200mg shot every Monday and Thursday and 0.5mg adex every Tuesday and Friday. 80mg baby aspirin every day.

It's been so long.You know after I'd completed 6 months of Enanthate 500mg week, I got depressed while I was in PCT. I took my last clomid and nolva went to bed got up for work, got home in the evening had a shower and the vial of Enanthate was on my mind 24/7.

I had done 6 months saw no gains and got syringe and filled it 1ml up with 250mg T after just coming of pct 9 hours ago.

I knew deep down that something kind of bad was going to happen but never once expected this. I was just a young immature kid. I paid the price for what I did and just pray I'm given another chance in life.

 

[sade]

Suck your micropenis dick easyrider and anyone who doubts me. Let's see if i'm still producing LH on 500mg week. 1mg or maybe 1.5mg anastrazole twice a week.

Eat shit 9 times easyrider blended in a mixer with whipped cream you fucking faggot.

 

[sade]

Go visit a psychiatrist before you develop "insulin dependent diabetes" in spite of a "normal blood sugar", lol!

In spite of normal levels you fucking twat. Are you sure you're a doctor ? What the fucking hell does high LH mean? It means my brain thinks my fucking Tisshit useless prozac prescribing mental health expert regular unknoledgeable pr ck of a shitty dr.

 

[foreveryoung]

good luck in whatever path and protocol you decide to take, sade

 

[Effeminate_builder]

500mg T every week for life or as long as I live as permanent TRT. I may drop the dose down a little to 400mg every week.

A 250mg or 200mg shot every Monday and Thursday and 0.5mg adex every Tuesday and Friday. 80mg baby aspirin every day.

It's been so long.You know after I'd completed 6 months of Enanthate 500mg week, I got depressed while I was in PCT. I took my last clomid and nolva went to bed got up for work, got home in the evening had a shower and the vial of Enanthate was on my mind 24/7.

I had done 6 months saw no gains and got syringe and filled it 1ml up with 250mg T after just coming of pct 9 hours ago.

I knew deep down that something kind of bad was going to happen but never once expected this. I was just a young immature kid. I paid the price for what I did and just pray I'm given another chance in life.

I have no patience to go through this thread in its entirety,but I am Inquisitive to know why this guy plans to do bodybuilder doses every week for his entire life.

Is he not seriously comprimising his cardiac and liver health by being permantly on doses that is 5 times the normal TRT?