The Don’t Fucking Relapse Thread - Post here instead of submitting to cravings

[Cookieman]

I'm in recovery as well, made 6 yrs in February. I've been fortunate thus far, no thoughts of using. I remember all too well the way that I felt when I walked back into a meeting to start over...I had been clean for 13 yrs when I went back out. This Covid b.s. will be very hard on the recovery community. About a month in to quarantine I heard of a few in my area that had relapsed, unfortunately there will be more. I decided to start having meetings at my house. We meet in the yard, sit in lawn chairs, and practice social distancing. Hopefully it is helping some folks. I know it helps me.. If you're struggling, post it up!! Never a good idea to keep those thoughts to yourself. If you're an addict or alcoholic, using is NEVER A GOOD IDEA...Always gets worse, never better. I hope and pray that everyone remains healthy

 

[little]

My wife broke my thc vape cartridge thing, I dug it out of the trash and kept it. Made the choice to throw it away for good somewhere I couldn’t get it again yesterday

+1 for me

I need to start thinking do I choose to get high or do I choose a healthy marriage, that helps alot

 

[little]

After a good sober day, finally clearing up. I come home just now and decide to help wife with laundry. I pull the hamper out the closet and underneath is a nice bar looking at me.

I want to keep it. I want to save it

I know I shouldn’t

I feel like I’m definitely being tested right now. None of you can tell me don’t take it and i won’t. Ik that’s my ultimate decision. I’m really struggling with this right now

 

[Mdrock98]

I was weed head man. I have grown to hate the fucking plant. It’s amazing on how people think it’s just some harmless drug and it has benifits. It’s a fucking joke. I started blazing again after 7 years of not blazing because I never seen something like the virus in all my life. I said fuck it, I’m going to get high. I put on over my 20lbs, overate, and was lazy as shit all day. I’m a week clean from a month ago since the beginning of the virus... my body was flabby, sex drive to shit, no motivation to workout all I wanted to do is play Xbox, eat, and sleep. It’s insane. Oh and whoever said it’s easy coming off of weed lost their mind. Irritable, I couldn’t sleep, no appetite, cold sweats, anxiety, wtf. Fuck weed. It’s a joke. Cheers

 

[T&H]

After a good sober day, finally clearing up. I come home just now and decide to help wife with laundry. I pull the hamper out the closet and underneath is a nice bar looking at me.

I want to keep it. I want to save it

I know I shouldn’t

I feel like I’m definitely being tested right now. None of you can tell me don’t take it and i won’t. Ik that’s my ultimate decision. I’m really struggling with this right now

Think of your marriage, family, life...

 

[bambam333]

After a good sober day, finally clearing up. I come home just now and decide to help wife with laundry. I pull the hamper out the closet and underneath is a nice bar looking at me.

I want to keep it. I want to save it

I know I shouldn’t

I feel like I’m definitely being tested right now. None of you can tell me don’t take it and i won’t. Ik that’s my ultimate decision. I’m really struggling with this right now

By coming on here to tell us degenerates about it means that somewhere inside you you don’t wanna do it. Feed the right dog

 

[little]

By coming on here to tell us degenerates about it means that somewhere inside you you don’t wanna do it. Feed the right dog

I don’t want to ever it’s living hell

I was able to flush it

that’s two days in a row I made the right decision

Tonight was definitely a test

 

[juicy122]

After a good sober day, finally clearing up. I come home just now and decide to help wife with laundry. I pull the hamper out the closet and underneath is a nice bar looking at me.

I want to keep it. I want to save it

I know I shouldn’t

I feel like I’m definitely being tested right now. None of you can tell me don’t take it and i won’t. Ik that’s my ultimate decision. I’m really struggling with this right now

I don’t want to ever it’s living hell

I was able to flush it

that’s two days in a row I made the right decision

Tonight was definitely a test

good job bro. This quarantine has got a few of my friends back to drug habits. Its ridiculous they are all spiraling back. Im so glad i workout, it really keeps me away from going downhill like i once was before the gym. Half these people dont care about health and the no worry of "losing gains" gym was my savior and probably helps you out too. Better times are coming soon hopefully and will have that back for now stay healthy as you can and keep working.

 

[Jsj1]

Not to comfortable putting this out there but for the last 25 years my drug of choice was crystal meth snorted not smoked at first it was awesome do a line fuck 2 or 3 girls a night sometimes at the same time basically i was a biker without the bike then i got to the point that i was fed up with all the bs also was a workaholic i decided i didnt want to die anymore thats a long story in its self bit every once in awhile i get the itch whatever i do i always gotta stop myself once in awhile and remind myself i had a good run no heart attacks no stds it does get a little bit easier every day so anyone who reads this just remember its not worth it hope this helps someone

 

[Boss hog]

About 15 years clean, 2 prison tours for manufacturing meth. Took me about 32 months of behavior modification to actually learn how to live and be ok with my self. Definitely don't miss that life style one bit. Life is all what you make it, its all your choice to be what you want and how you want to live it. The hardest part 15 years ago was asking for help and doing what it took to reprogram my messed up head. Be safe my brothers there are a lot willing people to help and lend a ear when needed.

 

[BigBaldBeardGuy]

Not to comfortable putting this out there but for the last 25 years my drug of choice was crystal meth snorted not smoked at first it was awesome do a line fuck 2 or 3 girls a night sometimes at the same time basically i was a biker without the bike then i got to the point that i was fed up with all the bs also was a workaholic i decided i didnt want to die anymore thats a long story in its self bit every once in awhile i get the itch whatever i do i always gotta stop myself once in awhile and remind myself i had a good run no heart attacks no stds it does get a little bit easier every day so anyone who reads this just remember its not worth it hope this helps someone

Thanks for posting. This fucking covid bullshit has a lot of people down. I know it’s got me feeling pretty badly as of late and your post definitely helps.

 

[DrinkFlintWater]

Not to comfortable putting this out there but for the last 25 years my drug of choice was crystal meth snorted not smoked at first it was awesome do a line fuck 2 or 3 girls a night sometimes at the same time basically i was a biker without the bike then i got to the point that i was fed up with all the bs also was a workaholic i decided i didnt want to die anymore thats a long story in its self bit every once in awhile i get the itch whatever i do i always gotta stop myself once in awhile and remind myself i had a good run no heart attacks no stds it does get a little bit easier every day so anyone who reads this just remember its not worth it hope this helps someone

Nice. I am recovering heroin addict 5 years out...living around a city infested with it. You know when enough is enough. It's like an epiphany I cant explain....

 

[Jsj1]

Nice. I am recovering heroin addict 5 years out...living around a city infested with it. You know when enough is enough. It's like an epiphany I cant explain....

No need to explain i understand what you mean i wish you nothing but success on your sobriety my man i tried the heroin a couple times im so lucky i hated it

 

[Jsj1]

Thanks for posting. This fucking covid bullshit has a lot of people down. I know it’s got me feeling pretty badly as of late and your post definitely helps.

Thanks my man much appreciated this covid crap has got me itching so i decided if im going through it alot of others here might be too its just not worth it paying someone to slowly kill you

 

[wedorecover]

I’m here too man just took 8 year loved slamming meth

 

[rthor4573]

I'm 26 months clean from opioid and h. I ended up sitting down with my family, who had no idea, confessing to them and myself I was an addict, and that I wanted to stop. I got it out in the open to my family to be held accountable, and to get their help, because honestly, i wasnt able to do it without them.
I'm on long term opioid therapy through a doctor. I've reduced my dose by 50% since I've started, and dropping another 2mg, 25% of my current dose, on Sunday. I'm one of the lucky ones, I know. I haven't relapsed once. I met my wife, got married, and had a baby girl. I work in the healthcare field. Going back isnt an option for me. I have way too much to lose.
I dont have a magic formula, but if my experience helps someone, then hell yeah.
I used to be a heavy smoker. Switched to vaping. I've gone from salt nic juice to big bottle juice, reduced nic from 50 to 25 to 6 to 3 to 1.5 to .75mg. I'm almost free of the nicotine.
Now if I could just settle on a first cycle.
✌

 

[jJjburton]

I'm 26 months clean from opioid and h. I ended up sitting down with my family, who had no idea, confessing to them and myself I was an addict, and that I wanted to stop. I got it out in the open to my family to be held accountable, and to get their help, because honestly, i wasnt able to do it without them.
I'm on long term opioid therapy through a doctor. I've reduced my dose by 50% since I've started, and dropping another 2mg, 25% of my current dose, on Sunday. I'm one of the lucky ones, I know. I haven't relapsed once. I met my wife, got married, and had a baby girl. I work in the healthcare field. Going back isnt an option for me. I have way too much to lose.
I dont have a magic formula, but if my experience helps someone, then hell yeah.
I used to be a heavy smoker. Switched to vaping. I've gone from salt nic juice to big bottle juice, reduced nic from 50 to 25 to 6 to 3 to 1.5 to .75mg. I'm almost free of the nicotine.
Now if I could just settle on a first cycle.
✌

are you still on suboxone or methadone?

i got off suboxone with sublocade and i had ZERO withdrawal symtoms. Off sublocade for 8 months too. Sublocade has been out of my system for 5 months.

 

[jJjburton]

I'm 26 months clean from opioid and h. I ended up sitting down with my family, who had no idea, confessing to them and myself I was an addict, and that I wanted to stop. I got it out in the open to my family to be held accountable, and to get their help, because honestly, i wasnt able to do it without them.
I'm on long term opioid therapy through a doctor. I've reduced my dose by 50% since I've started, and dropping another 2mg, 25% of my current dose, on Sunday. I'm one of the lucky ones, I know. I haven't relapsed once. I met my wife, got married, and had a baby girl. I work in the healthcare field. Going back isnt an option for me. I have way too much to lose.
I dont have a magic formula, but if my experience helps someone, then hell yeah.
I used to be a heavy smoker. Switched to vaping. I've gone from salt nic juice to big bottle juice, reduced nic from 50 to 25 to 6 to 3 to 1.5 to .75mg. I'm almost free of the nicotine.
Now if I could just settle on a first cycle.
✌

Without sublocade i would have never got off of suboxone. The ups and downs from suboxone, i would withdraw by the end of the day, every night. Sublocade i had a constant level and was the best idea ever.

 

[rthor4573]

are you still on suboxone or methadone?

i got off suboxone with sublocade and i had ZERO withdrawal symtoms. Off sublocade for 8 months too. Sublocade has been out of my system for 5 months.

Yeah still on suboxone. But it's been working for me so far, which I'm thankful for

 

[jJjburton]

Yeah still on suboxone. But it's been working for me so far, which I'm thankful for

Yes i was too. good stuff!

But look up sublocade. Its a SubQ suboxone, It can be covered by insurance by mail order. 1 shot a month.


1st month 300 mg
2 nd 300 mg
Every month foward 100 mg.


I stopped after the third month, because i was tired of being under the influence of suboxone. It dulled my senses but worked very well for what it was needed for. You can function on suboxone, not on H.

the shots sting like a bitch, and it leaves a lump that lasted 2 months, since i am low body fat.

but it worked way more then i expected. I was very hesitant. It was miraculous.

please look into sublocade.