Been working on a book about my life (prison/drugs). Been sharing this chapter with people

[MCFC]

My man that was actually a REALLY good read. As being a recovering addict I could definately feel the fucking anticipation and other emotions you were trying to get across. Very nice. Keep at it man.

 

[Eman]

@valuum what was it that finally got you clean, exactly?

I peruse the drug sub on Reddit sometimes and saw this snippet you posted... Didn't it have a portion at the beginning about wanting to move to the Pacific Northwest? Maybe I'm getting it confused with another post... There were several parts of the story that just made it seem like you were perfectly content being a junky. Was there something in particular, an experience, etc that made you realize that you needed to get well?

 

[puckhog]

@valuum nice work on the story and getting clean. You have a good story telling skills.

 

[valuum]

@valuum what was it that finally got you clean, exactly?

I peruse the drug sub on Reddit sometimes and saw this snippet you posted... Didn't it have a portion at the beginning about wanting to move to the Pacific Northwest? Maybe I'm getting it confused with another post... There were several parts of the story that just made it seem like you were perfectly content being a junky. Was there something in particular, an experience, etc that made you realize that you needed to get well?

That's kind of a hard one, I did dope for the first time when I was 16 and probably already had a problem with it by the time I was 17, starting shooting right after HS graduation and struggled with addiction and jail but in a super gritty or bad way for years. Went to prison at 22 which is when I started to see the dark side of addiction and continued to use. Probably started legitimately trying to quit when I was maybe 25/26 just from spending so much time in the dark side of addiction. I've had so many different bottoms and when I was younger I legit didn't give a fuck about sleeping in 'bandos and such. As things got grimmer though it just wore on me more and more but by that point I had 10 years of hardcore opiate abuse in so my brain was just straight warped compared to when I was 22.

This is a tangent, but that's why I hated NA, listening to some 21 year old kid (with 2 years clean lmao) tell me about heroin. I don't care how many dicks you sucked for dope you didn't permanently alter your brain like long time users.

Anyways that's the long answer but the simple answer is jail. Dope fucks me up so much now that jail in inevitable and I'm just sick of doing it. When I'm really strung out though jail is about the only thing that will stop me. I've never been the type of person just to walk into a detox.

Prison really changed me too. I stopped viewing myself as normal, I didn't "identify" with criminals really but when I got back in the world I felt different than everyone else, and I felt like people could tell. I've been in school long enough now that I'm learning to mix back into regular society and I'm realizing I could live a full life without drugs. I used to think I could quit drugs but figured I'd just work out and post on the internet (lol), I just never really thought I could re-integrate into social life until recently.

Thanks for all the feedback everyone

Edit: When I write my chapter about prison fitness and the culture of the weight pit I'll be sure to post it here. Most people always wanna hear about 2 things: drugs and gangs. I could write just as much about prison bb/workout culture. Mainly funny stories and absolute awful form and advice I've heard. whey = steroids and you lose all your gains once you stop taking it. pullups work mainly shoulders, etc

 

[Burpeeking]

Impressive, you're a good writer. I would buy the book.

 

[SMUDGE]

Enjoyable read. Thank you for posting. For anyone that likes this type of nonfiction, the books by Roger Caron, especially Go Boy, are worth taking a look at.

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