How dare you blame me or any other member for your own phuckup, that was your own doing, take responsibility and quit blame shifting, and what exactly are you trying to say??? That if we was face to face?? What?? Care to elaborate on how that would change anything?, i guess you have not been here long as you say, or you are illiterate. HARM REDUCTION! Once you become a source you have essentially walked into a house uninvited, it is your responsibilty to state your intentions so we can determine if we want to bury you in our backyard or let you stay the night. You started with a lie. Not a good start. It is all about trust with any source here, how can we trust you if the first words are lies, you are nuts if you think we are going to let you walk in and let you help yourself to the spare bedroom without knowing jack shit about you or your intentions.(well in your mind you probably just kick the front door in and make demands).