Running NPP and have the same thing. Not the suicidal part, but the obsessive thoughts on spouses past relationships, not being able to sleep, etc. I never had an issue with the past relationship thing until I started NPP...then it's like it becomes an issue at least once a week. Only 3 more weeks until this cycle ends, so hopefully it'll wear off once I come off.I’ve been running stuff for decades now and believe me, I ran deca only and I was almost suicidal, the obsessive thoughts about spouses past relationships (many others claim this too) was so severe I cannot even begin to explain. I couldn’t sleep, Work etc,