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Perrin Aybara said:
I was talking to a guy at work yesterday that just got home this year after 14 years in federal prison. He'd been sober all that time and six months of being home and ran into an ex-girlfriend and ended up doing some meth with her. Still on parole, too. Crazy to throw away all that time and risk freedom, but that's how addiction works.
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I've said it before and I'll say it again. There's a difference in being truely sober and just being dry. While he was locked up he probably never worked the steps and got all his dark shit out that keeps him running back to the drugs to numb it out. It was never truely the drugs for me when I think about it. It was the bad memories of shit I did while on the drugs that kept me high. With that said though, in one month I hit 5 years sober and every since I had my gender reveal party 2 weeks ago where my wife and I found out that we're having a baby girl I've been wanting to get high. FML. Everytime things get good in my life I'm my worst enemy. I quit going to meetings, calling my sponsor and sponsoring guys a few months back and I know that's the only way to smash this shit out of my head but my pride won't let me go back. Thanks for letting me share. Fuckkk
 
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OdieM said:
I've said it before and I'll say it again. There's a difference in being truely sober and just being dry. While he was locked up he probably never worked the steps and got all his dark shit out that keeps him running back to the drugs to numb it out. It was never truely the drugs for me when I think about it. It was the bad memories of shit I did while on the drugs that kept me high. With that said though, in one month I hit 5 years sober and every since I had my gender reveal party 2 weeks ago where my wife and I found out that we're having a baby girl I've been wanting to get high. FML. Everytime things get good in my life I'm my worst enemy. I quit going to meetings, calling my sponsor and sponsoring guys a few months back and I know that's the only way to smash this shit out of my head but my pride won't let me go back. Thanks for letting me share. Fuckkk
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At least you're aware, so it's less likely to catch you off guard. Do what you've got to do to stay clean, you're about to be a father and it's more important than ever.
 
Only to kids it may seem cool, but we as adults know where drugs lead us financial and mentally to ruin. We must show the world that us addicts can use the same energy we wasted chasing a high .all our manipulated skills use them for a good cause get my point. I am a motivated type I just see that most are lazy ,if they could just get a taste of the high of weight lifting
They would have world changing attitudes

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I have been addicted to meth and cocaine in the past and was a pretty terrible person at that time in my life. I was a petty criminal and was pulling burglaries and armed robberies to support my habit. I joined the military and cleaned up. And until recently I thought those days had passed for good.
It seems though suddenly I've lost all grounding. I've managed to keep clean but mainly due to it not being around me anymore. I keep thinking about it. Or committing a violent robbery or crime. It makes no sense. I'm not struggling or anything.
I'm sorry for resurrecting this thread I know odiem was a phycho fuck. But I was finding it some what helpful. Im struggling more than I ever have(prob would have used if I had access). I can't admit this shit to anyone I know, I'm concerned with how I'd be looked at. I needed to just say it here.
 
desertwarrior said:
I have been addicted to meth and cocaine in the past and was a pretty terrible person at that time in my life. I was a petty criminal and was pulling burglaries and armed robberies to support my habit. I joined the military and cleaned up. And until recently I thought those days had passed for good.
It seems though suddenly I've lost all grounding. I've managed to keep clean but mainly due to it not being around me anymore. I keep thinking about it. Or committing a violent robbery or crime. It makes no sense. I'm not struggling or anything.
I'm sorry for resurrecting this thread I know odiem was a phycho fuck. But I was finding it some what helpful. Im struggling more than I ever have(prob would have used if I had access). I can't admit this shit to anyone I know, I'm concerned with how I'd be looked at. I needed to just say it here.
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Dont feel bad about bumpin the thread man, that's what it's here for.

If not being around it is the only thing keepin you from doin it then just make sure and stay away from it man.

I know, and im sure you do as well, that life is a lot better not being on drugs. Shit i think about it from time to time but i know that 99% of the problems i have were directly related to fucking up while i was fucked up, and i am alot happier staying healthy and being in the gym than i ever was on the dope.

Keep your head up and stay strong brotha, there are plenty of us with similar stories and we are all willing to help if we can.
 
desertwarrior said:
I have been addicted to meth and cocaine in the past and was a pretty terrible person at that time in my life. I was a petty criminal and was pulling burglaries and armed robberies to support my habit. I joined the military and cleaned up. And until recently I thought those days had passed for good.
It seems though suddenly I've lost all grounding. I've managed to keep clean but mainly due to it not being around me anymore. I keep thinking about it. Or committing a violent robbery or crime. It makes no sense. I'm not struggling or anything.
I'm sorry for resurrecting this thread I know odiem was a phycho fuck. But I was finding it some what helpful. Im struggling more than I ever have(prob would have used if I had access). I can't admit this shit to anyone I know, I'm concerned with how I'd be looked at. I needed to just say it here.
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Bro don't apologize for bumping this thread and you're not alone. Bin feeling uneasy myself, could slip right now if in the wrong place. If you wanna chat hit me up anytime. Its easier talking to strangers lol :)
 
desertwarrior said:
I have been addicted to meth and cocaine in the past and was a pretty terrible person at that time in my life. I was a petty criminal and was pulling burglaries and armed robberies to support my habit. I joined the military and cleaned up. And until recently I thought those days had passed for good.
It seems though suddenly I've lost all grounding. I've managed to keep clean but mainly due to it not being around me anymore. I keep thinking about it. Or committing a violent robbery or crime. It makes no sense. I'm not struggling or anything.
I'm sorry for resurrecting this thread I know odiem was a phycho fuck. But I was finding it some what helpful. Im struggling more than I ever have(prob would have used if I had access). I can't admit this shit to anyone I know, I'm concerned with how I'd be looked at. I needed to just say it here.
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Keep your head up brother and keep fighting the good fight! I'm a nobody here and rarely post, but I'm always lurking! If you need someone to talk to hit me up bro'. I hate to see anyone give in to their demons. I've been down that road!
 
Just remember all the hell and the misery that chasing that high brought into your your life, then think about all the progress youll loose by goin back to that life style. ITS NOT WORTH IT.

Your not weak for haveing those cravings your weak if you give inn to em.

You can do it @desertwarrior. You have plenty meso brothers struggling too. Pm me or someone if you need to bro its not worth goin back
 
desertwarrior said:
I have been addicted to meth and cocaine in the past and was a pretty terrible person at that time in my life. I was a petty criminal and was pulling burglaries and armed robberies to support my habit. I joined the military and cleaned up. And until recently I thought those days had passed for good.
It seems though suddenly I've lost all grounding. I've managed to keep clean but mainly due to it not being around me anymore. I keep thinking about it. Or committing a violent robbery or crime. It makes no sense. I'm not struggling or anything.
I'm sorry for resurrecting this thread I know odiem was a phycho fuck. But I was finding it some what helpful. Im struggling more than I ever have(prob would have used if I had access). I can't admit this shit to anyone I know, I'm concerned with how I'd be looked at. I needed to just say it here.
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Brother this may have been said already, but your a "dry" drunk. Meaning your physically sober, but mentally not sober. Sooner or late you will relapse and each on gets worst.

Get help. Goto AA even though alcohol may not be your drug of choice.

Good luck brother. Physically and Mentally Sober is the answer to all your problems. I speak from experience.
 
desertwarrior said:
I have been addicted to meth and cocaine in the past and was a pretty terrible person at that time in my life. I was a petty criminal and was pulling burglaries and armed robberies to support my habit. I joined the military and cleaned up. And until recently I thought those days had passed for good.
It seems though suddenly I've lost all grounding. I've managed to keep clean but mainly due to it not being around me anymore. I keep thinking about it. Or committing a violent robbery or crime. It makes no sense. I'm not struggling or anything.
I'm sorry for resurrecting this thread I know odiem was a phycho fuck. But I was finding it some what helpful. Im struggling more than I ever have(prob would have used if I had access). I can't admit this shit to anyone I know, I'm concerned with how I'd be looked at. I needed to just say it here.
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This thread deserves a bump if it helps out a fellow bro!

i know its hard but fight that urge!
Slipping just once may pull you back in to that miserable lifestyle.

You know it's not worth it, stay strong brother!
 
I've struggled with opioid and heroin addiction for years and up until the past few months I had always snorted and smoked. Well now I finally graduated to IV use. I went for about 20 months completely sober. Now I'm shooting suboxone every morning to stay stable. I hate it.
 
Whoremoans said:
I've struggled with opioid and heroin addiction for years and up until the past few months I had always snorted and smoked. Well now I finally graduated to IV use. I went for about 20 months completely sober. Now I'm shooting suboxone every morning to stay stable. I hate it.
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Please think about what your doing man. At least eat them and stop shooting them. It will only get worse.

Personally, I dont have a problem with people taking pills for substance abuse as long as its from a doctor. At least its legal. Its been proven that true drug addiction is a medical disease. The brain and chemicals in the brain have been altered.

Get a script, get supervision, and please stop shooting up browski. That will only lead to worse things. You can do anything man. Gl.
 
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