Odie's First Log

Been up 26 hours so far. Got called out of bed for work last night. Sure am gonna miss this view. This is the last job im going on
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4 years clean and sober today :)

yep 4 years ago today I used the last of my mother love and told her I needed help. She dropped me off 2.5 hours away from anything or anyone I knew. She told me to "sink or swim", I chose to swim. I had tried to get sober 3x before this time and failed miserably. It had gotten so bad that I was the guy who would walk up to you while you where pumping gas and would ask you to spare some change. I made damn good money but I would literally smoke my whole check in one night and then the rest of the week you better lock up anything you wanna keep cause im coming for it. I was SICK SICK SICK and I am thankful for the mercy my God has shown me. Only by his grace brothers.
 
4 years clean and sober today :)

yep 4 years ago today I used the last of my mother love and told her I needed help. She dropped me off 2.5 hours away from anything or anyone I knew. She told me to "sink or swim", I chose to swim. I had tried to get sober 3x before this time and failed miserably. It had gotten so bad that I was the guy who would walk up to you while you where pumping gas and would ask you to spare some change. I made damn good money but I would literally smoke my whole check in one night and then the rest of the week you better lock up anything you wanna keep cause im coming for it. I was SICK SICK SICK and I am thankful for the mercy my God has shown me. Only by his grace brothers.
Congrats Odie!! 4 years clean means odds are way in your favor to keep the demons at bay forever. I dont know when the point of no return is but im at 16 years and i know it was a loooong time ago that i even thought about drugs and now the thought of using are completely behind me. Plus being clean is the greatest high ive ever had.
Your a good guy Odie and i really hope with all my heart for you and your family that you stay on the righteous path.
 
Congrats man;) 4yrs clean an sober is awesome bro. I bet you feel a hell of alot healthier an better huh?:)

lol Umm... yeah theres a 50-60 lb differnce from 4 years ago till today. I must say I feel way better.
Congrats Odie!! 4 years clean means odds are way in your favor to keep the demons at bay forever. I dont know when the point of no return is but im at 16 years and i know it was a loooong time ago that i even thought about drugs and now the thought of using are completely behind me. Plus being clean is the greatest high ive ever had.
Your a good guy Odie and i really hope with all my heart for you and your family that you stay on the righteous path.
Thanks bro, I lost my desire to use long ago to. I still have some pretty wicked using dreams every now and then, but that helps keep me in check. I will always be sick though and constantly have to treat my disease.
 
4 years clean and sober today :)

yep 4 years ago today I used the last of my mother love and told her I needed help. She dropped me off 2.5 hours away from anything or anyone I knew. She told me to "sink or swim", I chose to swim. I had tried to get sober 3x before this time and failed miserably. It had gotten so bad that I was the guy who would walk up to you while you where pumping gas and would ask you to spare some change. I made damn good money but I would literally smoke my whole check in one night and then the rest of the week you better lock up anything you wanna keep cause im coming for it. I was SICK SICK SICK and I am thankful for the mercy my God has shown me. Only by his grace brothers.
Congratulations. .. 4 years of hard work. Keep it up brother and if you ever need anything- let me know.
 
lol Umm... yeah theres a 50-60 lb differnce from 4 years ago till today. I must say I feel way better.

Thanks bro, I lost my desire to use long ago to. I still have some pretty wicked using dreams every now and then, but that helps keep me in check. I will always be sick though and constantly have to treat my disease.
Oh yeah i forgot about " the dreams" funny thing about when i used to have drug dreams is that i never got high in my dreams, somrthing always went wrong, wife comes home, cant find my stash, no foil , lighter dont work ect.... By any chance were yours similar? Ive always wondered if it was the same for everybody or are some able to use in their dreams.
 
Oh yeah i forgot about " the dreams" funny thing about when i used to have drug dreams is that i never got high in my dreams, somrthing always went wrong, wife comes home, cant find my stash, no foil , lighter dont work ect.... By any chance were yours similar? Ive always wondered if it was the same for everybody or are some able to use in their dreams.

yes and no. I dont actually use in my dreams but I relive the crap I did while I was high. I did some very very fucked up things and will always have to watch over my shoulders.
 
yes and no. I dont actually use in my dreams but I relive the crap I did while I was high. I did some very very fucked up things and will always have to watch over my shoulders.
I hear ya Odie, the past can be a motherf*cker, wish i had some great advice or words of wisdom for you but i think we all gotta deal with our past in our own way. But we gotta live for the future thats what really counts and right now your future looks pretty bright to me.
 
Oh yeah i forgot about " the dreams" funny thing about when i used to have drug dreams is that i never got high in my dreams, somrthing always went wrong, wife comes home, cant find my stash, no foil , lighter dont work ect.... By any chance were yours similar? Ive always wondered if it was the same for everybody or are some able to use in their dreams.
I would have the same dreams. I would get so close to getting high. Then something would go wrong. I had drug dreams for almost 2 yrs but the 1st year was ever note. Congratulations odie
 
Congrats Odie and may the grace of God keep you on the road to a great life. You got a great woman as well, who has been your rock in a storm. There will be no turning back ever, so keep your eyes on the prize!
 
4 years clean and sober today :)

yep 4 years ago today I used the last of my mother love and told her I needed help. She dropped me off 2.5 hours away from anything or anyone I knew. She told me to "sink or swim", I chose to swim. I had tried to get sober 3x before this time and failed miserably. It had gotten so bad that I was the guy who would walk up to you while you where pumping gas and would ask you to spare some change. I made damn good money but I would literally smoke my whole check in one night and then the rest of the week you better lock up anything you wanna keep cause im coming for it. I was SICK SICK SICK and I am thankful for the mercy my God has shown me. Only by his grace brothers.
And look at you now. Forged from steel, flesh and bone. Untouchable.
 
Great job Odie!
4 years is something to brag and be greatful about.
I've been in your same shoes. I stole cheated robbed at gun point to fuel my addiction. I went to prison for 7 years and got a taste of were my life was going.
I've been clean now for over 8 years.It gets better every day brother. Keep up the great work. I think a lot of guys here can relate. If u ever need to talk or anything we r here for u.
 
4 years clean and sober today :)

yep 4 years ago today I used the last of my mother love and told her I needed help. She dropped me off 2.5 hours away from anything or anyone I knew. She told me to "sink or swim", I chose to swim. I had tried to get sober 3x before this time and failed miserably. It had gotten so bad that I was the guy who would walk up to you while you where pumping gas and would ask you to spare some change. I made damn good money but I would literally smoke my whole check in one night and then the rest of the week you better lock up anything you wanna keep cause im coming for it. I was SICK SICK SICK and I am thankful for the mercy my God has shown me. Only by his grace brothers.
Congatulations on your anniversary. The most important day in your life because without it nothing else you have would exist without it. I was 8 years clean and had a very brief slip and now I'm at 13. My dreams are like B66's. I try to get high but it never works out. I wake up frustrated. I look at that as a good thing and your reliving dreams also Odie. I believe it's our subconcious reminding us that getting clean was the right decision. They don't stop but they become fewer and further between. The key to staying clean, I believe, is never loosing respect for your being clean. By that I mean, the second you believe that you're bigger than "it" or that you're not an addict anymore is the first step to using again. You are a man amongst boys Odie. It doesn't take long to see that. And your blessings are many. House, new job, your soulmate has been realized, people respect and like you, and your new power rack. Your fortune is endless. Here's to you Odie. Respect.
 
4 years clean and sober today :)

yep 4 years ago today I used the last of my mother love and told her I needed help. She dropped me off 2.5 hours away from anything or anyone I knew. She told me to "sink or swim", I chose to swim. I had tried to get sober 3x before this time and failed miserably. It had gotten so bad that I was the guy who would walk up to you while you where pumping gas and would ask you to spare some change. I made damn good money but I would literally smoke my whole check in one night and then the rest of the week you better lock up anything you wanna keep cause im coming for it. I was SICK SICK SICK and I am thankful for the mercy my God has shown me. Only by his grace brothers.

Congratulations bro. I am 1 year and 3 months sober now. Life is an amazing thing. I also had 3 failed attempts at sobriety but I finally wanted it. It doesn't always get easier but it Deffinately gets better bro.
 
How's that new job coming along, Odie?

Today's my first day. I hit the jack pot with this job. No more getting my hands dirty and I was just invited deep sea fishing. Anyway the job is awesome and I can definitely see a future here. Sucks though, my bad ass gym that I posted a few pics of. Well I'm gonna cancel it. :(. Its just to far out of the way.
 
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