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Recovery Log!! (in HM ONLY)
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That's actually not a bad idea.
In reading Hacksii's and Chap's recovery logs it seems they both went through a rough strech after stopping Hcg. So the anxiety I feel right now is probably normal.
The SERMS probably need some time to "kick in" after Hcg cessation.
Hacksii 5 days post Hcg:
"Day 20:
Probably one of the worst days I've had so far on this pct... First, had a horrible night sleeping... then woke up and headed to work. This week, I'm taking a class at work that requires alot of mental effort. I don't even know how I lasted through today's class... I had anxious feelings all day today as if there's something wrong but can't put my hand on it... to fix it. Towards the evening (now), I felt extremely exhausted. . almost fell asleep at the wheels on the way home... Then at the house, I just walk around restless not knowing what to do. My wife just gave me an Ambien to help me sleep."
Day 21:
"Well.... You guys may think I'm crazy... but I feel much better today. I have no clue why I'm going through intervals of ups and downs... yesterday was absolutely herendous.. Today it's a walk in the park.... beats the heck out of me.... "
The SERMS probably need some time to "kick in" after Hcg cessation.
Hacksii 5 days post Hcg:
"Day 20:
Probably one of the worst days I've had so far on this pct... First, had a horrible night sleeping... then woke up and headed to work. This week, I'm taking a class at work that requires alot of mental effort. I don't even know how I lasted through today's class... I had anxious feelings all day today as if there's something wrong but can't put my hand on it... to fix it. Towards the evening (now), I felt extremely exhausted. . almost fell asleep at the wheels on the way home... Then at the house, I just walk around restless not knowing what to do. My wife just gave me an Ambien to help me sleep."
Day 21:
"Well.... You guys may think I'm crazy... but I feel much better today. I have no clue why I'm going through intervals of ups and downs... yesterday was absolutely herendous.. Today it's a walk in the park.... beats the heck out of me.... "
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Chap:
"My first week of heavy serms and next to no endogenous testosterone were pretty rough, emotional, weak, not much will to even get out of bed, but things turned around for the better very rapidly around the 5th day and stayed good since.... libido is not an indicator to be concerned about, it will probably be bad for a fair while while your hormones need to get in balance again naturally. I don't think arimidex is a good idea at all. "
"My first week of heavy serms and next to no endogenous testosterone were pretty rough, emotional, weak, not much will to even get out of bed, but things turned around for the better very rapidly around the 5th day and stayed good since.... libido is not an indicator to be concerned about, it will probably be bad for a fair while while your hormones need to get in balance again naturally. I don't think arimidex is a good idea at all. "
Day 12 contd
OK not sure if this is placebo or wishful thinking but have way more energy right now than I did this morning. This could be the effects of the wellbutrin not totally sure. But will continue to monitor.
My voice also sounds a bit more "resonant" and has more life to it than this morning.
Again, could be placebo. Could be the wellbutrin. Could be my T coming back.
Not really sure.
Either way I'm feeling better than this morning which is good!
(was feeling very anxious and uncertain and tired and lethargic this morning)
OK not sure if this is placebo or wishful thinking but have way more energy right now than I did this morning. This could be the effects of the wellbutrin not totally sure. But will continue to monitor.
My voice also sounds a bit more "resonant" and has more life to it than this morning.
Again, could be placebo. Could be the wellbutrin. Could be my T coming back.
Not really sure.
Either way I'm feeling better than this morning which is good!
(was feeling very anxious and uncertain and tired and lethargic this morning)
Mornings are the worst with low T. I start feeling better as the day progresses.Day 12 contd
OK not sure if this is placebo or wishful thinking but have way more energy right now than I did this morning. This could be the effects of the wellbutrin not totally sure. But will continue to monitor.
My voice also sounds a bit more "resonant" and has more life to it than this morning.
Again, could be placebo. Could be the wellbutrin. Could be my T coming back.
Not really sure.
Either way I'm feeling better than this morning which is good!
(was feeling very anxious and uncertain and tired and lethargic this morning)
Just a random thought and i dont know if this applies to you but... one of the reasons I went on T in the first place was the stigma of "low-T" I felt like if I didnt get my T levels up I was inferior to other dudes or something.
Now that i'm older i realize it's not a big deal. I dont care about how big I am in the gym and I care more about feeling consistent day to day. It's my overall well-being now that's most important.
I know T has it's purposes and low T isnt fun but my goal with this restart is to live in the "low normal" range and just forget about it. I'm not going to identify myself as low-T/mid-range-T-/high-T anymore. I've been all of those things over the past 5 years and honestly it's not a big deal.
I know it's super early but i already feel better / healthier right now than I did while on T. I got so damn tired of rubbing those stupid packets of gel all over my body and then having it get on my clothes and sweating it off and then having to shower again and reapply. And dont even talk to me about injections lol fuck those were so inconsistent.
Today I had some libido stirrings too. I saw a picture of a cute girl and I actually had some sexual thoughts about what I wanted to do to her. Which was amazing to me because while on TRT towards the end i would have zero sexual thoughts. I would go days or weeks without even one sexual thought cross my brain.
The sexual thoughts might be from the wellbutrin but still.
All I want from this restart is normal T and just feel consistent and healthy.
And an "always there" libido would be nice too
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Day 13 contd
The energy from yesterday was PROBABLY wellbutrin since I havent dosed yet and I feel fatigued right now. However I am going to force myself into the gym and see how it goes. I find I need 48 hours recovery post workout because my muscles and joints get pretty sore the next day.
The energy from yesterday was PROBABLY wellbutrin since I havent dosed yet and I feel fatigued right now. However I am going to force myself into the gym and see how it goes. I find I need 48 hours recovery post workout because my muscles and joints get pretty sore the next day.
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