Your ego must be important. Why else would you keep wasting your time by writing posts that no one takes seriously, or even wants; why else would you keep participating on a forum where you're despised; and why else would you keep participating on a forum where you're seen as nothing more than the village idiot.
You're doing it because in your sick and delusional mind, you think people just aren't getting your message yet, and that if you keep trying they will. Well, take a look around - they already know your message and they've rejected it and you. Take the fucking hint. You just look pathetic.
You started two worthless threads and all they've done is shown everyone that you are very seriously mentally disturbed. I know you don't work and that's enough to hurt anyone's self-esteem, but why add to it by staying where you're obviously not wanted by anyone? You're just making it worse.