Well good luck Michael Henderson, and go into the new members thread and share some non-incriminating information with us so you can become a part of the community. Venture beyond the underground — this site is a wealth of knowledge. Glean it, utilize it and then give back.
Seriously, at my age you learn to call shit. I will put money down on everything I said, as humorous as it may be.
Seriously, let your mom know you’re doing gear. She will understand, forgive and support you — just might take some time. This will pay dividends not only in the immediate future with the inevitable issues that will arise from the gear, but also prep you to be honest in your relationships worth potential life-long mates, as dishonesty and the mistrust it creates is the number one killer of intimacy, trust and faith.
Keep us posted, will you? Least you can do for the support we have shown you during your time of need.
And You need to sweat the consequences of this until it gets resolved, so that it leaves and indelible stain upon your psyche for future actions.