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malfeasance said:
How's your blood pressure at 50 and running gear again?
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It seems to hover around 135/80. The highest it has been was 140/90 but that's usually at the doctor's office and when they use the cuff that is too small for me. Last time I was there at the office I asked for the big cuff. The nurse was quick to tell me she was using the larger one and it was 122/80 which isn't too bad. I bought my own blood pressure monitor and I take it three times in a row. The more I take it the lower it gets. By the time I take it a third time it has gotten as low as 125/75. The more I relax the lower it goes.

I need to be better about doing cardio regularly and take a low dose of Cialis daily which I'm pretty sure helps.
 
Good morning my fellow beast lol. Well I’m no beast but I’ve gone awhile and wanted to share.

I realized I’ll be never a pro or be this monster I wanted to be for years. It’s taken me 17 years to finally love myself and my body. I use to compare myself to Mac and all the others on here or worst even ig. I’d see these monsters and say I want to be like that.

After my show I realized I can’t hang with these guys the guy who won whole show I didn’t go against him was 24, 224 on stage 5”6 he just won his pro card. I looked at the dude that and realized damn I’m 40 he’s got me by 16 years I can never be that way

I had major post show depression for weeks, I’ve always dealt with anxiety and depression very bad in my life. I came off all gear, expect 200 a week cyp, started therapy and about 4 weeks ago finally looked in the mirror and said you know what I’m happy with myself. The last time I was happy was 23 years old before I even touched a weight I was 126 I didn’t start lifting till I was almost 30.

long story sorry but point of the story is all the years I took tons of shit I mean good amounts I was around 225 maybe at my most but wasn’t happy I thought I needed more more more. Bigger and badder than the next guy. But I’ve found peace at 190. I’m still about 3 pounds from my state weight about 10 weeks later.

it’s a lot easier to maintain then to try and grow I tell people it’s nice to eat like a normal person again I don’t force feed myself I don’t do cardio I lift everyday and I actually enjoy it before it was ok I gotta lift this body part this day, eat this today, now it’s I do what I want. Of course I eat clean but I’m happy.

Im very hard on myself like I’m sure most of are on here we always want to be better I still do but the moral of the story is you have to find your happiness no matter what size you.

i ended my last post saying I want more and I do that’s why the major life changes I want to be a father I want a family and I really needed to fix a lot of shit inside before I’d ever find that.

I hope everyone has a great day I didn’t run away I still lift I check once and awhile but mindset has changed and so have my goals. Take care and a few pics to show im not dad bod yet lol.

and I’ve gotten bloods few weeks ago the body is an amazing being off a ton of gear all my blood came back great expect a few things and my diabetes pretty much went away once my diet changed and I stoped eating so many carbs.
 

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Thanks for the update @size28s and most of us were wondering what happened as you dropped off the radar so suddenly. Sorry the show didn't go as planned for you as you looked great in the pics you posted prior and the funk you been in afterwards was pretty understandable.

Also I thought you were a bit older than 40...and even at that age father time is not always kind.

Props for finding peace within yourself man, and perhaps it's a good time to break from the hard chasing lifestyle of the bodybuilding world. So why not stop by at least once in a while?

PS: Hope you also do achieve becoming a father as well...having a family will do a lot of good for your mental state too.
 
size28s said:
Good morning my fellow beast lol. Well I’m no beast but I’ve gone awhile and wanted to share.

I realized I’ll be never a pro or be this monster I wanted to be for years. It’s taken me 17 years to finally love myself and my body. I use to compare myself to Mac and all the others on here or worst even ig. I’d see these monsters and say I want to be like that.

After my show I realized I can’t hang with these guys the guy who won whole show I didn’t go against him was 24, 224 on stage 5”6 he just won his pro card. I looked at the dude that and realized damn I’m 40 he’s got me by 16 years I can never be that way

I had major post show depression for weeks, I’ve always dealt with anxiety and depression very bad in my life. I came off all gear, expect 200 a week cyp, started therapy and about 4 weeks ago finally looked in the mirror and said you know what I’m happy with myself. The last time I was happy was 23 years old before I even touched a weight I was 126 I didn’t start lifting till I was almost 30.

long story sorry but point of the story is all the years I took tons of shit I mean good amounts I was around 225 maybe at my most but wasn’t happy I thought I needed more more more. Bigger and badder than the next guy. But I’ve found peace at 190. I’m still about 3 pounds from my state weight about 10 weeks later.

it’s a lot easier to maintain then to try and grow I tell people it’s nice to eat like a normal person again I don’t force feed myself I don’t do cardio I lift everyday and I actually enjoy it before it was ok I gotta lift this body part this day, eat this today, now it’s I do what I want. Of course I eat clean but I’m happy.

Im very hard on myself like I’m sure most of are on here we always want to be better I still do but the moral of the story is you have to find your happiness no matter what size you.

i ended my last post saying I want more and I do that’s why the major life changes I want to be a father I want a family and I really needed to fix a lot of shit inside before I’d ever find that.

I hope everyone has a great day I didn’t run away I still lift I check once and awhile but mindset has changed and so have my goals. Take care and a few pics to show im not dad bod yet lol.

and I’ve gotten bloods few weeks ago the body is an amazing being off a ton of gear all my blood came back great expect a few things and my diabetes pretty much went away once my diet changed and I stoped eating so many carbs.
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Nice to see you checking in and that you’re doing fine. Always looked forward to your posting on here.
 
Heavy Iron said:
Except my tramp stamp lmfao. Once I finish this leg sleeve I'm gonna do a huge back piece.
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You could hide that tramp stamp in the new back piece no doubt by making it seem part of the design.

I also see you rocking a beard like Triple BG LOL.
 
MindlessWork said:
You could hide that tramp stamp in the new back piece no doubt by making it seem part of the design.

I also see you rocking a beard like Triple BG LOL.
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Yeah my artist said he had an idea for the cover up. Something like a gnarly gorilla ripping open the mouth of a tiger or something. I leave it up to him these days. Lol.

And yeah always rocking a beard. Since I started shaving my head I won't shave the beard anymore.

And if anyone shaves their head a Pitbull trimmer is the SHIT
 
size28s said:
Good morning my fellow beast lol. Well I’m no beast but I’ve gone awhile and wanted to share.

I realized I’ll be never a pro or be this monster I wanted to be for years. It’s taken me 17 years to finally love myself and my body. I use to compare myself to Mac and all the others on here or worst even ig. I’d see these monsters and say I want to be like that.

After my show I realized I can’t hang with these guys the guy who won whole show I didn’t go against him was 24, 224 on stage 5”6 he just won his pro card. I looked at the dude that and realized damn I’m 40 he’s got me by 16 years I can never be that way

I had major post show depression for weeks, I’ve always dealt with anxiety and depression very bad in my life. I came off all gear, expect 200 a week cyp, started therapy and about 4 weeks ago finally looked in the mirror and said you know what I’m happy with myself. The last time I was happy was 23 years old before I even touched a weight I was 126 I didn’t start lifting till I was almost 30.

long story sorry but point of the story is all the years I took tons of shit I mean good amounts I was around 225 maybe at my most but wasn’t happy I thought I needed more more more. Bigger and badder than the next guy. But I’ve found peace at 190. I’m still about 3 pounds from my state weight about 10 weeks later.

it’s a lot easier to maintain then to try and grow I tell people it’s nice to eat like a normal person again I don’t force feed myself I don’t do cardio I lift everyday and I actually enjoy it before it was ok I gotta lift this body part this day, eat this today, now it’s I do what I want. Of course I eat clean but I’m happy.

Im very hard on myself like I’m sure most of are on here we always want to be better I still do but the moral of the story is you have to find your happiness no matter what size you.

i ended my last post saying I want more and I do that’s why the major life changes I want to be a father I want a family and I really needed to fix a lot of shit inside before I’d ever find that.

I hope everyone has a great day I didn’t run away I still lift I check once and awhile but mindset has changed and so have my goals. Take care and a few pics to show im not dad bod yet lol.

and I’ve gotten bloods few weeks ago the body is an amazing being off a ton of gear all my blood came back great expect a few things and my diabetes pretty much went away once my diet changed and I stoped eating so many carbs.
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Those veins, though!

Very impressive! You should be very proud. You look like a fitness physique competitor.
 
Hope everyone is ready for the holidays. 4 months post show. Weight 192 stage weight was 187. No cardio no special diet no days off 30 min a day in and out. Haven’t trained legs extra post show just lots of high rep stuff. Wanted to pop in say hi. 225 a week of test 345A639E-B217-4974-9530-CE1C4D250450.jpeg
 
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