Honest I eat what I want. I’m on vacation now. Having wine, sweets, you name it. I don’t worry about my body fat. People ask me all the time how are you so vascular or lean. I have no clue honest. I don’t even take preworkout anymore or drink caffeine. It’s all bad for my anxiety and once I stopped worrying about how I looked in my mind I started enjoying lifting again.
For so long I wanted to be a heavyweight but I was 126 at 26 didn’t start lifting till I was 30. Very late start and I always compared myself to pros. Like I mentioned my last show the overal winner who is one of my friends now gained 26 in one year. 196-221 on stage. I met him and his coach and I said I want to be like you and they said don’t compare yourself to me or other people. I’ve trained at every gym in my area. There are 3 ifbb pros one just placed second in classic last year in his first show. So I see lots of big guys wherever I go I’m small compared to most of them.
I always wanted to be them and once I realized I can’t be them I came off all the cycles and got my mind straight, I’m not afraid to say I go to therapy and had major self estem and body issues.
I’ve finally just realized I’m happy in my own skin.
This was yesterday 10.5 weeks out test at 250.
I have no idea how well I will do in my show. But I’m going to try my best.
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