Meso drug addicts

[dieseljimmy]

Never had a booze problem. Never had an opiate problem.and I have tried em they just never spoke to me. Ampethamines are always in the back of my mind... taunting me. Im pretty in control. But I binge occassionally. Dump 20 pounds, look outstanding and jerk off like l hate my cawk

 

[Frank the tank 456]

I had 5 years completely clean and sober up until last week. I decided to drink some beer and eat some Xanax. I was so stressed cuz my kid was sick and lack of sleep consumed me. I'm rite back on top though. I did not miss a workout or skip a beat. It did slow me down tho. My anxiety is really bad rite now and I'm considering seeing my doctor to get back on the Benzos. My girl is NOT cool with it tho. She pins my test and cooks for me, but ain't down for anything else. Now I gotta make a decision if I'm going to get back on the benzodiazepines.

 

[Notits]

I had 5 years completely clean and sober up until last week. I decided to drink some beer and eat some Xanax. I was so stressed cuz my kid was sick and lack of sleep consumed me. I'm rite back on top though. I did not miss a workout or skip a beat. It did slow me down tho. My anxiety is really bad rite now and I'm considering seeing my doctor to get back on the Benzos. My girl is NOT cool with it tho. She pins my test and cooks for me, but ain't down for anything else. Now I gotta make a decision if I'm going to get back on the benzodiazepines.

I was never able to make a decision as an active addict to use or not.
God help you.

 

[jaymaximus]

So I just got out of an ASAP group and I had the urge the whole time to strangle the fat ass counselor. He thinks my attitude is bad, I just cant stand him!

 

[ironwill1951]

fight it man you can win , stay clean you will lose everything when your using ,

I had 5 years completely clean and sober up until last week. I decided to drink some beer and eat some Xanax. I was so stressed cuz my kid was sick and lack of sleep consumed me. I'm rite back on top though. I did not miss a workout or skip a beat. It did slow me down tho. My anxiety is really bad rite now and I'm considering seeing my doctor to get back on the Benzos. My girl is NOT cool with it tho. She pins my test and cooks for me, but ain't down for anything else. Now I gotta make a decision if I'm going to get back on the benzodiazepines.

 

[BBC3]

Counselors are a dime a dozen. I have met many not qualified to wipe their own ass...

So I just got out of an ASAP group and I had the urge the whole time to strangle the fat ass counselor. He thinks my attitude is bad, I just cant stand him!

 

[Frank the tank 456]

fight it man you can win , stay clean you will lose everything when your using ,

I was never able to make a decision as an active addict to use or not.
God help you.

Ya bros, it was kinda a trip drinking some beers and eating some Xanax last week. I had 5 years with nothing but Copenhagen strate and 1 AAS cycle. My very first cycle at that. My kid got sick. Me, the kid and my girl all got sick and didn't sleep for about 10 days. Then my grandma died and I kinda lost it. The weekend hit and the Oregon ducks were playing for the season opener. I went tailgating with the fellas and that was it. I decided I was gonna cut loose.

It was nothing like it used to be. I used to go on BENDERS with beer and Xanax for weeks. This time I just up and quit on Sunday. I did have like 3 or 4 blue Xanax left. I started to nibble on them the next day and my girl knew right away. She is not cool at all with the other drugs. AAS is ok with her. She pins me, feeds me, keeps track of my adex dosing schedule and fucks me. My homeboys thought I was completely relapsed and on a bad one. Of course they are the ones that missed there workouts and said they were to hungover to train. Makes me feel like I'm doing something right...

 

[KPK]

@Frank the tank 456,sounds like you have a good lady that cares about you. Stay strong brother.

 

[Frank the tank 456]

@Frank the tank 456,sounds like you have a good lady that cares about you. Stay strong brother.

Will do brother! She's a keeper. She also rode with me thru my last five years of prison. I'm just debating to see if I'm going to ever take Xanax again. The relief of the stress is such a treat!

 

[KPK]

A little bit leads to a whole lot. It always has for me anyhow.

 

[Frank the tank 456]

A little bit leads to a whole lot. It always has for me anyhow.

Agreed.

Do you smoke grass at all?

 

[viking23]

I'm sorry to hear about your loss Frank. You got away this time but not all will go this smooth. Don't harp on it bro just water under the bridge. Next time ask yourself if a few hours/one night/bender is worth possibly losing everything!

I recommend you go and write down all the shitty things that you have done when you were an addict. Everything that you remember doing (stealing/robbing, jail/rehab, destroying relationships with family/girlfriend/friends/, etc). Then write what you can lose today if you relapsed. When you're done put it somewhere for safe keeping. Also take a picture on your phone so you always have it to look at when you are being tempted or feeling weak!

Stay strong!

 

[Frank the tank 456]

I'm sorry to hear about your loss Frank. You got away this time but not all will go this smooth. Don't harp on it bro just water under the bridge. Next time ask yourself if a few hours/one night/bender is worth possibly losing everything!

I recommend you go and write down all the shitty things that you have done when you were an addict. Everything that you remember doing (stealing/robbing, jail/rehab, destroying relationships with family/girlfriend/friends/, etc). Then write what you can lose today if you relapsed. When you're done put it somewhere for safe keeping. Also take a picture on your phone so you always have it to look at when you are being tempted or feeling weak!

Stay strong!

Good stuff bro!!! For the record, I feel stronger than ever. I slipped and fell and got back up to do 3 wheel squats for sets of 8 the next day. The Booz did slow me down tho. The Xanax also made my muscles feel to relaxed for working out. Good advice bro and thank you!

 

[viking23]

Agreed.

Do you smoke grass at all?

I know most probably disagree but I am okay with people smoking if it doesn't make you chase other drugs. For myself, it makes me not want to use anything else! When I was at my worst I couldn't smoke because I would mind fuck myself into anxiety attacks. Could use it with other shit until i got dependent on something and then it didn't mix anymore.

 

[KPK]

Nah I never liked weed. My problems were banging coke, gas,and heroin. I haven't used any of it in almost a year now. I do occasionally do xtc.

 

[Frank the tank 456]

I know most probably disagree but I am okay with people smoking if it doesn't make you chase other drugs. For myself, it makes me not want to use anything else! When I was at my worst I couldn't smoke because I would mind fuck myself into anxiety attacks. Could use it with other shit until i got dependent on something and then it didn't mix anymore.

I feel ya! I'm in the Pacific Northwest so I've always had an endless supply of grass. I get anxiety from it at times. In this world I gotta pick and choose my battles. I'm leaning toward not using Xanax any time soon.

 

[Frank the tank 456]

Nah I never liked weed. My problems were banging coke, gas,and heroin. I haven't used any of it in almost a year now. I do occasionally do xtc.

What is gas?

 

[KPK]

Meth

 

[Flkrkr]

I'm sorry to hear about your loss Frank. You got away this time but not all will go this smooth. Don't harp on it bro just water under the bridge. Next time ask yourself if a few hours/one night/bender is worth possibly losing everything!

I recommend you go and write down all the shitty things that you have done when you were an addict. Everything that you remember doing (stealing/robbing, jail/rehab, destroying relationships with family/girlfriend/friends/, etc). Then write what you can lose today if you relapsed. When you're done put it somewhere for safe keeping. Also take a picture on your phone so you always have it to look at when you are being tempted or feeling weak!

Stay strong!

Great advice!

 

[Big_paul]

I had 5 years completely clean and sober up until last week. I decided to drink some beer and eat some Xanax. I was so stressed cuz my kid was sick and lack of sleep consumed me. I'm rite back on top though. I did not miss a workout or skip a beat. It did slow me down tho. My anxiety is really bad rite now and I'm considering seeing my doctor to get back on the Benzos. My girl is NOT cool with it tho. She pins my test and cooks for me, but ain't down for anything else. Now I gotta make a decision if I'm going to get back on the benzodiazepines.

I never allowed it to take my workouts. That was where I drew the line.

I made it for my morning workout hell or high water.